heelllooo, I'm back!
I was back from Macau 3days ago, approximately on Sunday, 26th December, 2009.
I didn't had the time to post about my holiday in Macau and I can't upload pictures yet, cos there's no card reader, will try to raise a solution. What a pity!
So apart from Macau, we also went to HongKong and China(Zhu Hai).
I'll create a post of my holiday when i can upload the pictures already, so just wait for it/> :]

Another 3 days to new year! Time flies so fast, I remember during last year, we had a bbq along sea at Punggur and that seems like just an 8months ago event.
Everythings changing, usually when it comes to new year, I always tell myself that I want to change for better, both physical and attitude but this year a paragraph had to remind me of it. My life though is good but it's pathetic, I don't ask for anything but only a thing. Everything was at wrong, this shouldn't had started.
I know it's too dramatic but this is life. I always try to endure and be patient but I can't and that's my greatest flaw, losing temper and can't control emotions. I hate to be living!
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Together with Vivi went to Rachel's home today, what else but swimming?
Went to the fitness centre and began swimming afterwards. After swimming, enjoy the breeze and chatted with Vivi, she told me stories of her families.
After that went home.
Byee now, no mood to carry on writing.

"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal."
-Albert Pike

Going on a vacation

Good morning!!
It's Tuesday today and currently 8:50am.
I'm now at the ferry terminal, our departure time to Singapore is at 9:30am.
In the morning, woke up at 6am, still feel sleepy, then bathed and ate 'tangyuan', it's so so sweet.
Then offer some incense and off to fetch granny.
Good grief, the copper she uses is damn heavy, well, it isn't her's actually and she complained too.
Dad accompanied the 3 of us, bro, granny and I all the way in, before entering I waved bye to him. I love my Dad alot, he's the best..
Uncle is at Singapore already, so we'll meet up later and probably off directly to Changi Airport?
Our flight to Macau is at 1++pm.
Yay, will be experiencing the winter season.
lol
So the ones left at home are youngest bro&sis, mom and dad.
I guess they will be going to Bintan?
hmm...
I'll be back on 26th.
Hope my phone can still be activate in Singapore!
Eh, a girl just passed by, it's Zeppel, but why I don't see Candy around?? Oh, there she is!!!
& I guess i'll end it here.
Byee everyone...

yeaa.. I'm back...
This could be my last post of this year, yea I hope so.
I'm going to Macau tomorrow, haha finally getting out if this place..
And what's more I'm gonna experience winter, it's winter season right now. Here it's hot everyday and getting worse. So on 22nd tomorrow, from Changi airport to Macau, 23rd to HK , 24&25th Macau and 26th back to Batam.
I want to stay at Singapore with Yen and Juzz them, but the problem has always been one and only that, no place to stay. Hotel costs a bomb and also unallowed.
hmm..... I don't want to celebrate new year here, boringg!
I'm gonna buy lots of stuff during my vacation..
lol

History is repeating itself again today, from my previous posts, another 2 men came again. I was outside, calling Nelly then those 2 men on a motorbike saw me and they stopped at the gate and they called for me. I actually wanted to ignored them but they saw me and called me, when I was about to go to them, the security quickly came and talked to them... bla..bla.. Those men i guess are here to ask for donations again, well our residence here does not allowed that, hence the security shoo them away. I'm sos sick of this, why do they have to come preying for me? I even had to face that security again, it's so awkward you know once bitten twice shy.
huh.....

Today we made the round round thingy 'tangyuan', yeaaa my favorite..
sweet and fragrance..
I'm so awaititng tomorrow. hahaha...
ok, I think I'll stop here.
and since on Christmas I won't be here so.....



IN ADVANCE!!

byee, see you again when I'm back!
happy holidays<:

I've been staying at home for the past few days, spending the day watching movies. The 2 movies i watched are 'my girlfriend is an agent' and 'haeundae(tsunami)' these 2 movies were great. 'My girlfriend is an agent' is a hilarious one, i like their love story alots.
It's definitely not a waste of time to watch, ratings: 4/5.

Another one is 'haeundae' which I just watched today, at first I doubt I'd cry as some cried, and indeed it's so sad that it makes me cry... In the part where a man sacrificed himself for a jerk and have no choice but to leave the girl he loves. That part is so sad and touching.....
Currently watching a HK movie and guess show.
Ok, stop here.
vote for earth in the meeting at Copenhagen:D
Bye

Finally she's wanted.

So we went out today, only 4 of us Juzz, Chris, Nel and I + Rachel and teacher. The weather is not really good today.
First I arrived, then Juzz like ghost suddenly flow before me then we waited for the rest. I gave Jacq a call about the holiday thingy and end up no good news. After a while Chris came then the 3 of us go to sport station, those 2 good chaps were accompanying me to buy shoes. I bought a converse shoes, love it. The price is also NICE! Rp275.000 after a 40% discount.
I don't know the price at first, and when I saw the price when about to pay, whoa!
Open my wallet and aih, not enough money still short of Rp15.000 so Juzz paid the Rp15.000. Of course I can't get by having no money, so Juzz suggests that I go home and get money, and ok since the rest won't be here so soon.
So the 3 of us walked to my home, the sky was dark and we're afraid that it will rain. After reached my home, rested for a while then take ATM card, since I have no more money. We waited for the rain to stop and walked back again. Damn that heartless Juzz, he walk the fastest and don't bother to wait for us. We were walking like in a horizontal form, juzz in front, Chris in the sencond and I in the last, each about 1m space behind one another.
No choice, I was afraid that the wet sands will get onto me if I walk fast.
Rachel and teacher had arrived, the 3 of us went to atm first. It was my first time taking out money from atm, lol I ended up got some sniggerings again from Juzz.
Then Nely came and the 4 of us went to met up with Rachel and laoshi.
We have no idea what to do at the moment, after strolling around, out of the blue Rachel left and said she wanna go home, don't know what's got into her?
So laoshi gave her a call and she said she wants to go home and so we ignored her.
Next stp, happypuppy. Sing with laoshi then at 4++ laoshi is leaving, before that we took a picture with her and that's the last time that we'll be seeing her. She's going back to her hometown and won't be back. Bye! Forever Remembered>
Then the 3 of them had a sudden moodswings. After happypuppy we go to La'Cruise.
We shared secrets, Nelly finally told her secret to those two after a "doughnut".
I told them my secret too, haahhaha.. shhhhhh!!!!!!
After Nelly said her secret, we were trying to help her realizing it, it's kinda a wish too, i guess. The 3 of us got busy, and we somehow betrayed her as we promised not to say, but we're helping her to find happiness and she shall be grateful to us for sure, right Nelly?
We did our things, but don't get why that idiot(not Nelly) is so idiot. I won't say much cos it's a secret. lol. I teased her all the way by singing songs.
But Nelly is sure to get a surprise tomorrow, Juzz said that!
and Nelly, I know you're waiting right now to read my post. lol sorry to have kept you waiting. The song lucky is especially nice to listen TODAY, this for my beloved Nelly:

Him: Do you hear me?
I'm talking to you
across the H2O
across the deep blue ocean
under the open sky
oh my baby
i'm trying

Nelly: Boy I hear you
you hold my dream
i hear your whisper
across the sea
i keep you with me
in my arms
you make it easier
when life gets hard!

and continue singing, Nel and ././.
lol, very happy today.
At last my sweetheart is sold out, or soon she'll rot in the market stand.
Hey you, don't pretend don't know nothing ya.
If succeed must treat:
1. Mr. Justin Tan
2. Ms. Christina Mok
3. Your most precious one of all
Yenny Juwita.
hahaha.... to a sumptuous meal!
Love you, sweetheart.
Be sure to report to me ah tomorrow.

Currently chatting with Ms.Marissa, so delighted.
ps: to nelly
nel, remember
*yes if you love
*no if u don't
*consider again if u're unsure.

JUST ENJOY THE SHOW.........
I guess readers won't understand the post today, only Nell, Juzz and Chris and yours truly. Allright, see you again soon. Bye.

"The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned."
- William Somerset Maugham

riddles

Today is the last day of pemantapan, at last!
Going out tomorrow, actually had planned about it and then last minute we decide to call on our mandarin teacher to join us too sice she's leaving and we've planned it too during the early days.
Nothing much to do today, stayed home alone.
In the evening chatted with Nelly on facebook, then off to watch tv and back again on MSN. Again, chat with Nelly, Kenny texted me that he wants to borrow psp memory card, so i went outside and lend him. Back to the chat, I gave Nelly riddles, but it's not her answering, it's her cousin, superb! So, I kept on teasing her stupid and lots.. Her cousin is good, can answer almost all the riddles.
Then Nelly go take shower, her cousin took over on her behalf. Damn, now it's his cousin giving me riddles, I can't barely answer one and what I did to Nelly is paid to me, yeah karma. lol
Allright not much to post, I'll share the riddles.

Riddles:
1.What is in front of a woman and in back of a cow?
2.There is a frog, dead in the middle of an island. If he swims north, the distance to the mainland is 2 metres. If he swims south, the distance to the mainland is 3 metres. If he swims east or west, the distance is 4 metres. Which way does he swim?
3.A 6-foot tall Magician had a water glass and was holding the glass above his head. He let it drop to the carpet without spilling a single drop of water.
How could he manage to drop the glass from a height of six feet and not spill a drop of water?
4.What five letter word, no matter how you pronounce it, is always pronounced wrong?
5.David was out for a walk when it started to rain. He did not have an umbrella and he wasn't wearing a hat. His clothes were soaked, yet not a single hair on his head got wet.
How could this happen?
6.A doctor and a bus driver are both in love with the same woman, an attractive girl named Sarah. The bus driver had to go on a long bustrip that would last a week. Before he left, he gave Sarah seven apples. Why?
7.A beggar's brother died, but the man who died had no brother.
How could this be?
8.What can fill a room but takes up no space?
9.I have holes on the top and bottom.
I have holes on my left and on my right.
And I have holes in the middle, yet I still hold water.
What am I?
10.A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose between three rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assassins with loaded guns, and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten in 3 years. Which room is safest for him?
11.I saw a man in white, he looked quite a sight. He was not old, but he stood in the cold. And when he felt the sun he started to run. Who could he be? Please answer me
12.Why did the students eat their homework?
13.What do frogs eat with their hamburgers?
14.How did the telephone propose to the lady?

Answers:
1.W
2.It doesn't swim at all, it's dead.
3.The glass was empty.
4.Wrong
5.David was bald.
6.An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
7.The beggar was a woman.
8.Light
9.Sponge
10.The third. Lions that haven't eaten in three years are dead
11.Snowman
12.Because the teacher said it was a piece of cake.
13.French Flies
14.It gave her a ring.

Today is my paternal grandpa's death annivesary after I got home from pemantapan, directly go to offer incense. After a while, it's time to burn papers so I together with dad we burn the sacred papers. I knew there's a crowd in Kenny's home, in the midst of burning papers, they are all outside. Hermanto saw me and called for me, I looked at him but didn't greet back as I was burning papers, no offence.
And saw Kenny himself, Edwin, Joe and the rest....... going out.

Mom isn't going to punggur today, we're going to granny's. Speaking of which, it's been ages since I last go on driving, so I pleaded mom to let me and had hard time pleading her before she agreed. I don't want to lose that skill. At first, quite distracted and soon getting the hang of it.
It feels breezy to sit under the mango tree of theirs, my aunt lives just beside my granny, so the tree is on the middle-front of their homes and under the tree lie chairs and cendol*.
In the chat, there's a part where I asked mom to buy a motorbike for me so that THE NEXT TIME I go out, I don't have to rely on them. Having cars is as good as no cars, unallowed to drive. She seems quite agree on it.
And I helped mom and aunt to pick out their grey hairs together with my sis. Aunt has the most grey hair. We also decided to go to bengkong to mom's cousin home to get some stuff. Talked about my studies and many. Lazy to elaborate.
Soon time passes and send granny home and off to cia-cia for my sis's clothes.
DAmn sleepy there, so boring and Eka's mom was there too.
I drove home again and created a mild disaster.

and lastly Happy Bithday to Kenny Lim!

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory."
-Betty Smith

a day with an old friend

I thought I'd be staying home for good today, but suddenly Jacq ask me out.
Lina is going back to Singapore tomorrow, so we'll meet her today and this means the reunion couldn't be held. I was actually looking forward to the reunion in her home, since there's no activity during the holidays but when I heard she's going back tomorrow, the reunion plan go busted.
I went together with Jacq to bcs, then we go meet Yap & Lina. They were having drinks on coffeetown, then we sat and chatted. After that go shopping around and stopped at cinema but in the end didn't watch any movies.
After walking around, we went to Gadeno. We sat there for a very long time and the service is really poor. Lina asks us to go to Singapore with her, she offers a good job there, S$25 for distributing 1000 fliers. That's very fine!
In the end I told her I'll maybe go if Jacq is going, pity her had been asking and talking for quite a long time... We sat for a very long time at Gadeno, nearly 3hours? Lina intends on going back cos it's boring here. But in the end we talked her out and will held the reunion tomorrow. It's a last minute decision.
Then go walk around and around and it's getting boring.
Soon I and Jacq left first, we went home together again. Thanks for the lift!
And now I'm here typing.
Going our for meal later with family and pemantapan again tomorrow. So tiring!
bye

9 more days to Macau!

"The greatest glory in our life is not in never failing, but in raising up everytime we fail."
-Nelson Mandela

lost a part of life

I told Vivi I can't go swimming today, my throat is not fine yet so I'll go with her next time. Though it's holiday I still did some revisions, so hardworking, hahaha..
Mom and aunts are going to BCS and I i tagged along, we went to fetch aunts at granny's home and chatted about the nowadays kids, I can't stop laughing when my aunt is making her remarks, she speaks so funny. Then we reached bcs.
I bought 2 blouses, love it! shopped around, quite boring.
After that we strolled around, suddenly a girl run to me and it's CHRISTINA! She came too sudden and I don't know what to say, she's in a rush she said to me "Why you come only now?" he's here you know! and i asked her where? she replied "gone liao.". lol! then she left hurrily. The mall is packed of tourists, a crowd.
Soon after a while, we go to penuin, it stinks and filthy and after they're done, we go back to granny's home.
My chubby cousins run and hugged me when they saw me, haaha they rarely do that.
Watched tv and browsed around. Then my bro called to say that the clinic gave me a call, I have an appointment. This day has come, I converse about my teeth with the doctor, actually I wanted to have slicing but the consequences is that for the rest of my life my teeth get sensitive if I drink colds and sweets. It's impossible.
So I had to go with the other option, I EXTRACTED my left and right tooth!
Good Heavens, it's not my gum that pains, but my heart!
What a pity! and the tooth that was extracted is a fine one! haihh..
No choice, if I don't extract them my mouth will go "monyong". After extracting them, my gum kept on bleeding until now, yucks.
How to stop the bleed?

And yay! 10 MORE DAYS TO MACAU!

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars."
-Og Mandino

EKA's BIRTHDAY Party!

Yesterday Eka had his 15th Brithday, he threw a party in I-hotel.
After class, some went to NH including the birthday boy and yours truly and too many to list the other names.
When I reached NH, they were having foods at Gadeno, since I had eaten and Juzz is not eating too we went to look for something for Yen, yes she's coming back today!
Bought a teddy bear and a necklace, I, Vi and Juzz shared the gift.
Aftermath, we go back to Gadeno and shopped around looking for clothes, shoes and Eka's birthday gift.


At Gadeno.


Birthday Boy before makeover

Edwin and the rest left to nowhere, Nel, Juzz, Chris and I went to buy Eka's gift.
Next we went to buy okoyaki and takoyaki before going to happypup, together Edwin and the rest joined. But in the end ended up only 4 people in a room, a chaos was brought up and a price was paid. Eka went home to prepare himself.
After a while, Yen arrived. I was the first to met her, haha... together with Pricil and Vi.
Back to happypup and after singing, the 4 of us went to look for Yen. The scene was quite complex, in the end Juzz, I and Yen were together. We wanted to pass our gift to her, but she doesn't want to accept, good grief the three of us walked around the mall with I&juzz pleading at her to accept the gift. No matter what we say, what we do she just refuse to accept the gift and want us to accept a little token from her.
Seriously we begged for 1hr++ and finally went for a drink at Godiva, soon after a while she FINALLY accepted our gift! whoa, I'm going to die of thirst soon. lol.
The rest then came, Eka was back. He turned to a prince, hahaha.
After a while we're all asked to go outside setting off to I-hotel.
I and Yen walked together without the rest, Yen is going to look for her mom first. While we're walking, Yen commented on a guy and when I saw that guy, BLOSSOMS!
aaaaaa, it's him!! We're passing each other face to face, I was so happy and what's more he's in his original form! So happy that I could not say a WORD!
Yen is really my luckystar, I had not seen him for ages, and now when Yen is back I finally get to see him. Well, isn't it that I decided to stop developing more feelings for him?
I can't, when I saw him I felt so happy and I decided to love him again. love? maybe not. I don't use the word love but ....
Juzz gave us a call, he stayed behind to accompany both of us to I-hotel.
We chat while walking and soon reached. I-hotel, 7thfloor TEA GARDEN!
We're the first guests to arrive!









And soon it gets dark




and the party soon starts!
There's buffet, menu and bbq!
Eka's relatives many had buffet and his friends, us took over the bbq.
We grilled satay, sausages and chicken wings!
after eating we took pics, the pics aren't with me, some also left alrdy.
Then they start to drink alcohol, Carlsberg? everyone drank except for me.




strolling at lobby waiting for cutting cake time!
and soon:





After singing birthday song, we ate the cake.
Some left after the cake and soon I was fetched too.

This morning when I woke up, oh SORE THROAT!
head was spinning too and still gotta go to school!
My throat is not getting better till now though I've drunk 3 litres of water today.
I must had too much bbq stuff last night.
MAYBE tomorrow will go swimming with Vivi.
Allright, bye

Lastly, Happy Birthday Eka!

"To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved."
-George MacDonald

last day of exams

So finally today is the last day of exams, the other classes had theirs done already, so only our class is still taking exams.
When I arrived at school, it was empty outside and inside, met Vivi and walked together to class and start revising.
We finished the exams very soon today, I wonder why but I guess because it's easy?
Holiday starts today for other classes except ours, we still gotta go to school for pemantapan for a week. Tiring!

Eka fell today while running to splash water at Josephine, it caught everyone's attention and everyone was laughing at him when he fell.
Tomorrow is his Birthday, and I'm going out finally!
I'm moulding, stucked at home for months.
Watched TV for the whole day and soon tomorrow is coming, why that fast?
anyway, I don't know what to write anymore.
see you again.

"Life's law is to meet and to separate."

a house party

My dreams were crashed, I was dreaming during the sleep this morning and it was such a nice dream, i'm getting to the final stage a step more and yet i'm awakened by some stupid reason! damnnn it....
Since i was still sleepy and it's not yet even 7 i went back to sleepp. I dreamt again, I know i'm dreaming and when it's going to its final stage by the way this is another dream the maid knocked real hard at the window calling me to open the door for her! Good Grief, what have I done to not deserve this dream?? Haaa....
I want to know why and what's happening, the dream is telling me and yet.... I'm so furious>.<

After showering, mom says that we'll be going to a house party of a relative's, she has a wedding dinner so only I&sibling shall go. In the end only I, sis&bro with granny go to the partyy. My granny's sister which is my greataunt is there, it's her family's party. I can't believe nobody recognize me, when they saw me they were like: what?!? hah?!? hhnnpp?!? and whatsoever. Well, because we didn't see each other for many years and the last time they saw me I was still a young kid and a super FATTY at that. A lot of relatives were there and whoa, there compliments were so sweet, Thankyou! hahahaha...
The auntie, my mom's cousin which is only 20years++ is there too, when I was a kid, while she's in her teens I liked her alot, I always clings on her and today she is different from her teen days too! She could not recognize me and COULDN'T believe I am what she saw. I really changed that much?
Everyone were like that when they ask who is this girl(referring to me)? Or when they are asking for me while I'm just right infront of them!
The party gets merry and merrier, we got home a bit late and exams are haunting.
Allright gotta go!

and by the way, Happy Birthday to Zen! He's turning 3.
Hope he'll grow up well and healthy!

bye

"It is often easier to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission."
-Grace Murray Hopper

stayed home today, it's been a dark day today.
Imagine 3 examns on a day on Monday, i'm hopping mad!
How could it be this way? As if we're genius.
I'm in a foul mood today, and getting better now.
I, Yen-yen and Juzz are having a conference chat now, nice to be chatting with them.
Yen made a pact with me, she PROMISED to be my friend in the present and in the future. Yes! I have a lifetime friend now.
Actually I know what kind of person you are, Yen. I just don't want to treat you the way you are.
What I fear most in the future is that I'll have no friends, that is my biggest fear!
But it's still the same if those friends are no decent.
I regretted for not cherishing a friend in the past, what to do? It's gone now, blame myself for everything. It's always too late to regret.
Had i known, I wouldn't be that way. If given the chance again, I won't let this thing happen. Forget it, what's gone is gone now.

Watching tv right now, so hilarious.
Nothing happeened today, so at loss of what to write.
Awaiting holidays!!!
Allright, let's just end it here.
seee youu again soon!

“Friendship with oneself is all important because without it one cannot be friends with anybody else in the world.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt

approaching holiday!

Finally i have a free time now. Exam had started since last Tuesday and another 3 more days to go, approaching holiday!
The exams today were quite difficult, >.<
When i got out from school, the whole sky was dark and it's about to rain. It began to pour after I'm home. Felt very bright after i got home.
I hope the sky will stay dark for the whole day.

I'm planning to go to Top100, so i ask my sis to go with me and everything was set. So the both of us go by walking together, we stopped at lotus and she went to buy her Christmas exchange gifts and next off we go to Top100.
My motive was to buy boneeto milk, searched quite a while but can't find. At last found the milk powder, considered for quite a long time before deciding to buy.
My sis is like an old granny, she nags alot! Right after we left the house.
Nagging at everything, so loso. lol!
After buying things, we walk around and i was disgusted in a store.
Lots of dead flies wre lying around the floor, a lot of dead flies were there. so unhygienic and disgusting!
After a while we walked home again. after we got home, i began to watch tv.
Today's ye zhong hui is so exciting! I went mad while watching, the illusions are damn greeaaaatttt and those acrobatics were fascinatingg.
AAhh, so fascinatingg!
oh, I want to learn the si chuan bian lian(mask changing), and ofc alot alot.
Going crazy soonn..

I was helping desy with her blog today, you can check it out now desy!
pardon me if i've turned it upside down, tell me again if u don't like it.
And it seems that one of my classmate is in a "duka" state.
Whatever it is, i wish everyone happiness and peace.

In a day there are 24hours, all i need is another 2hours.
I need 26hours a day.
allright, see you again!

"I had fell for you, and i'm happy of that"
:D

thursday thoughts

We are dismissed early again today, had some desk clearance.
We had our mulok exam today, quite ok.

Everyday i live life like the previous days, i get busy with studies and things in life. Too busy and too long to forget one certain thing in life. That is death.
Everday life goes on, when i thought i'll get old, it just seemed so impossible and so far away. Living still like a child everyday, i can't accept that this is just a little moment in life. I'm turning 15 next year and i don't want that. I want to be in my 14 forever, but i know that is impossible. How does death feel like?
As time gets by, i notice the things around me seem to get pathetic.
I miss the days when i look on the sky and the sky just seemed so close.
Now when i look on the sky, the sky seems so far away.
Stars are also unseen at night.
And what's worse is that it's getting hotter everyday, the heat is so unbearable.
I hope things just get better someday.
The old days which are already pictured in black&white will light up in colours again, things will get better like before.

"I was wrong about you."

Teacher's day

We are dismissed early today, i think part of the reasoin is because that today is teacher's day. Justin asked me out but i can't. They're going to watch twilight, new moon. I haven't watched twilight and now you want me to watch new moon? I just borrow twilight from hye rin today. After i got home, washed and prepared myself. I'm going out with mom.
We went to bcs, actually was to look for my jeans but ended up you know, when one sees something she likes she'll forget what she's there for. hahhaha..
We went to match, no suitable jeans there. Ended up buying a monkey style outfit, Agus said that kind of outfit is a monkey style outfit and mom bought a dress.
To the neighbor next, Setron. Bought a jeans. Shopped around and around and bought a book for UN preparations.
After buying clothes we went to Godiva for meal and go home.
Allright, no long details next.
Reached home and is going to sleepp now.

"Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness."
-Richard Carlson

bye!

swimming

I woke up this morning at 9++. Took a bath and cut my hair, fixed everything at 10++. Since there's another an hour to go, i did some revisions and waited for Vivi. I guess i was nervous, during revising my hands kept on trembling and i keep on looking at the time, unable to study well. The book i used for revisons was Eka's. He was so good that he specially delivered the books to me when i asked him to. I then received text from Vivi, she says she's coming. So i went outside to wait and saw Kenny's car, he's going already.
Soon Vivi arrived, we walked together to Primagama. It is very close actually. Walking only takes about 2-3mins. We saw a lot of people coming out from Primagama and hurrily walk. We stayed at the door and make a call to kenny, we wanted him to bring us in cos he was there alreaddy. The lady gave us a paper and we enter the Jupiter room. Inside i saw Tassya, Jacq& her cousin. They've arrived earlier.
After a while a lady came in and we began the test. There's a guy that looks quite annoying. He tied a rafia around his head, looks so ridiculous. lol.
100 items, consist of 4lessons for 2hours. Impossible!
My brain wasn't thinking at that time, i should have thought of doing 15 items per lesson and be sure of thOSE 15 to get 6.
They're all done and i'm about the last one to finish. No choice but to mark what's there. We then talked about the test outside Primagama, received texts from Claudia and Eka. Vivi is going with me cos we're going to Rachel's home together. She insisted that we took a ride from Kenny. Yeah, since i live so much close to him.
Hi auntie! thanks ya! bye!. those are the 3words we said in the car.

There's no one at home, everybody had left as usual. I finish all the works and Vivi is running around the vicinity to get her psp from Pris and to her brother. We both had lunch and off we go to Rachel's.
We ride on ojek to the Apartment. The security here seems a bit loose. If I and Vivi were terrorists in disguise, that apartment would have been bombed and hit the headlines!
Ting-tong-ting-tong. She opened the door and we went in, chatted with her and Nelly arrived. Vivi taught her maths and after she understood the lesson, it's swimming time! We changed to swimmingsuit and ito the water. I asked Vivi to teach me kodok style and i'm getting the hang of it. Next learning the sharp style jump to water.
Vivi is good in swimming, i lack of bravery and diddn't dare to jump into the water sharply. You know what, the hotel opposite the apartment is so full of lechers. They kept on looking at us and make some cheers. When vivi jumped into the water, they whistled. Wait till your boss catch you and you're all doomed. Nelly was not roght, she swam for a while and stopped and she was faraid that those perverts might think that we're prostitutes. Phey!
After swimming, we went to McDonald's for meal. It was dark already and the 4 of us walked to there. After meal, Nelly's mom took us home.
That's today.

"Everything that has been will be, everything that will be is, everything that will be has been."
-Eugene Lonesco

bye and peaceful night.

with Phin

We wanted to watch 2012 today, I, Josephine, Juzz and Nelly. But tickets were sold out so still unsure if we'll still go as planned. In the end, Josephine texted me and we decided to go to MM.
2012 tickets were sold out too. We had no choice but to watch another movie, we watched "A Christmas Carol". We walked around before the movie starts, looking for jeans and shoes. But in the end, empty-handed. We then enter the theatre and watch the movie, the writer was Charles Dickens. I like his story "David Copperfield", the first novel I read, 133pages. The movie is ok.
After the show, we went to Pizza Hut for meal and home together.
We're going to have our tryout tomorrow in Primagama, drats I haven't revise anything yet! Will be going to Rachel's home tomorrow.
looking forward to both the tryout and to Rachel's home.

bye:]

determined to improve

yeah, i finally have the time to post blog. I'll post a long one today.

Let's start from this morning. I set off to school and first subject was Fisika, but Pak Fauzin wasn't here.. so we were given the task to do our tryout papers again. Actually after this we have our Religion exam, so while answering the papers we did revisions too. I sat with Vivi, Agus and Juzz, we studied together.
Next was the examination, ermm.. I should say it's not difficult if you had studied.
I was the first one to finish and followd by Vivi and the rest.
Vivi brought goodies for us today, she's really good to us. Despite of it.
It pays to be kind, but it doesn't pay when she is kind to us. I'm so like shit.
So I've decided somthing.. Everything shall be paid..
There's one thing that i really don't get it, I don't know why i am always the one getting scolded. It's so absurd, when questions are asked to me, i replied and end up getting scolded by them. They are none other than Agus and Juzz!!!!!!!!
They always scold or i should say shout, when i answer the wrong thing they strongly oppose and they are like about to gulp me, especially Agus and when i say the right thing, they find it ridiculous, hence i get the scoldings again.. haiihh..
But in the end, always end up laughing together, lol..

I spent my reccess time today with Vivi and Pris. And i guess it'll be this way again. After reccess was mtk followed by kimia and during kimia time the teacher gave us tryout results paper. Damn it, my grades were a rotten one..
Among 24 students, 8 didn't passed. But this is just a tryout, not real UAN. May everybody pass the UAN and ofc with flying colors. Average score is 5.5, my score is 5.89 that's very low. So devastating, but it gives me the determination to work harder for the next and the next and the next.
Bahasa Indonesia: 6.40
English: 8.80
MTk: 6.00
BIO&FISIKA: 4.00 & 4.25.
Total: 29.45, Average: 5.89. Passed.
Average score should be 5.5
My English was 2nd highest with Kenny and Juzz. Highest is Ronald.

There are tests coming, Chemistry and Math. Math was quite easy, but as for chemistry balancing equations are damnn difficult. We were asking one and another an dit was very niosy and annoying, A calls for B and C calls for A and D calls for B. It was like that and was like, die together, survive together..
Next dimissal timee...

The people in my home are all out, only 3 are left at home and they're dad&mom and I!! The rest go watching 2012 in cinema. I wan tto watch it too.. but i've asked juzz tomorrow. And if i'll go watch it, i'll get another scolding for sure. Last week was cancelled and i was ranted. If i'll cancel tomoorrow, I'm gonna die at his gigantic hand. lol no offence justin! But i doubt of tomorrow. And i guess today is the last day for 2012 show. Don't get why the heck the movie is going to be remove.
And i got an invitation today. I believe this invitation is a kind of once-in-a-lifetime. but i'm not sure too whether i'm really invited, cos... erhmm.. forget it!

I mnade a challenge with Juzz today and i blieve i'll win it. I'll survive and make sure it really stays this way for 3++months. Just you wait and see justin!!
I didnt even look at the windows of the soul. Got it?

tomorrow got dates
Sunday got a date.
on Sunday I and vivi and the rest will be going to Primagama for tryouts and a trip to Rachel's home..
woooww... looking forward to all of it..
haha.. i guess i'll end it here..
Game session now.
bye and peaceful night!

Vous a jamais semblé signifie tout ce que vous avez dit à mes yeux, et je suppose que c'est mieux si nous allons conserver une distance.
-my feeling today

new interest

hi!
limitedd time here...
short post only today.
I got a new interest, during p.e time we had dodgeball..
crazzyyy funn... i love dodgeball!!!

tomorrow got Religion exam, revised a bit and played game...
ok, will post longer tomorrow..
gtg brushing teeth and sleeeppp...

bye&peaceful night

"I don't know why but you mean a lot to me."
-my feeling today

bright feeling

hihihi...
I feel very great today, how i wish if i'm always feeling this way. After the try out, we decided to play volleyball but there were raindrops outside.
I watched a badminton game it seems so fun, come to think of it I had not played for ages and we took our reccess earlier, bought sushi from Eka's sis, delish!


Today is the last day of weekdays, at the thought of weekends, i feel very happy. It's time for resting!
I wanted to write today, but now when i'm writing i suddenly forget what i wanna write.
Now i remember!
A robbery took place at school this morning, you know when i heard of this, i found it damn outrageous! Imagine the robber robs from a car! Damn it, how could no one notice that? The mirror was crushed. What the hell were those security guards doing?
Still got cheeks to tell the story of what was going on, lol.
We spent our free time in library and noticed that there are 'reporters' outside, taking pictures of the scene. But the car was gone.
Had our lessons next, uuhh I was amazed by our chemistry little experiment today, it is so magical!! I recall stuffs like, lacmus paper(unsure of the spelling and language) and what Na(sodium).... The main idea is to identify the asam, basa and garam. Whoa, chemistry is so fun. Right then, i thought of making a chemistry lab someday in my home. lol
English was next, oh how i really hate grammar, grammar is so difficult and that's why my English is so poor.

During lunch time, i should say the meal was going on silently. After finishing my lunch i left the table and stay at usual place, there i saw Rachel, Wan Jia Qi.
She's alone, so i chatted with her and today was the first time so close to her.
She has a dream, and i too but what's different is that i have dreams while she only a dream. She's damn happy when i made a compliment of her artpiece, yes it was good.
I don't give compliments easily. She was really happy, i could stilll remember how happy she was when chatting with me. I made a friend!

After lunch next was mtk, laughed a lot during that period. Next triple tchr. Raul's subject. But we only did chemistry exercises and did not get on with math. Chemistry is getting harder. I finished my exercise with the help of Joe, from numbers1-6.
And part 2, thanks to Edwin:]!!! After i finished my work, i went to Jacq. To my surprise that she and others were still unfinished and i feel bad cos unable to help them when they asked for my help.

Dismissal time! When i got downstairs, i saw SOMEBODY! My girlfren's boyfren..
hihi... but it seemed that fate doesn't allow them to meet each other, that was just a short close distance. Well, maybe next time.

By the way, 2012 is in cinemas already. My big bro is going to watch tonight, I want to watch too, you guys want or not?
you guys know who you are. Want? Want? Want?

I'm in a good mood today, hence i took pictures.



my lil bro while eating, now i noticed the cute side of him.




I LOVE FIRE!!

Our home is full of mangoes, now we eat mangoes evryday. They are ripe and sweet!



Allright, game session time.
ttfn

"He who goes step by step always finds himself level with a step."
-Antonio Porchia

double taste

the last try out willl be on tomorrow.
it's English, no worries.. lol

haiyoo, i'm so fed up after they told me my results of those try out..
ughh.. so mad!!
and bcos of that i felt so low the whole morning to noon..
And i want to apologize to Edwin, cos i was harsh to him during ppkn time..
sorry; didn't meant to.
And I just wanna say something to everyone; please don't assume that i'm angry just because of my 'black-face'.. It's just that i don't feel like speaking and is feeling low..
So don't assume that i'm mad at you, or whoever...
And 'black-face' has always been my style..
I'm sure everyone close to me knows that..
lol

It rains during p.e time, so no sport activities..
So we played police&thief and hide&seek..
but i quitted after a while, no fun at all...
and chatted with Hye Rin, borrow 2DVDs from her.
Went to granny's home after dismissal, stayed for a while.
My lil cousin(the one born on July18) shaved her head..
she's bald now, lol.. and turning 4months on this coming Nov18.
babies are so cute..
bald, chubby and fair..
allright, won't talk much..
got to go for game sessions..
bye bye bye...

"Look down at me and you see a fool;
look up at me and you see a god;
look straight at me and you see yourself"
-Charles Manson
(American .will stay in jail for the rest of his life for conspiracy to murder b.1934)

sundayy

i was alone at home again today. Infact on every weekends. I like it, it's peaceful and no noises. I hate noises, but still it depends on the situation.

We're going to have our first tryout tomorrow, it's bahasa indonesia.
I did some revisions from the previous questioneirs, taking it easy..
lol

I want December to hurry arrive. End exams sooner and get on the vacation.
I'm so thrilled at the thought of going to spend my holiday with her, my granny.
Cos on this year, we(i &siblings) rarely visits her, unlike before.
actually the last time we visit her as well as relatives was on friday, 2days ago. lol
She lives with her son and grandchildrens, and the house next to her's is my aunt's, her daughter. It's great that she still has her children living with her, or if she'll be alone that's so pitiful.
Like those abandoned old folks in drama serials.
Damn their wretched unfilial children..

I'd like to tell readers that if you'd like updates, can visit juzzjuzz.blogspot.com or easily click by the link (right, down). He's a classmate, naturally will be posting my affairs too. lol
Because now i don't have time for updates.
As well as doing free publicity for juzz too. lol

Currently watching detective ??? starred by Aaron Kwok. The movie seemed quite old. Pretty nice!
But can't finish it, cos i'm turning in.
Got to go
bye

a foul day

time passes so quickly, it's Friday again..
I'm not happy today, early in the morning has been a foul one and another one..
I'm so .......... unable to express what i feel.
words can't be used to express my feelings..
all i know that i dislike today veryy much...
***

I watched the drama, (welcome back, my love), today's the last episode, i like it very much though i rarely watch...
Next week we gonna have our first try out, and get to school tomorrow for pemantapan.. what a beat day.
I broke the agreement today, cos i don't have the time to studyy...

i'm so not in the mood today, i'll just end it here..
but suddenly i'm reminded of one of Avril Lavigne's song that describe my feelings best todayy..

I CAN DO BETTER - Avril Lavigne

I couldn't give a damn what you said to me
I don't really care what you think of me
'Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me

I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm okay
I don't need you if you're gonna be that way
'Cause with me, it's all or nothing

I'm sick of this shit, don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of this shit, don't ask why

I hate you now so go away from me
You're gone, so long, I can do better, I can do better
Hey, hey you, I found myself again
That's why you're gone, I can do better, I can do better

You're so full of shit I can't stand
The way you act I just can't comprehend
I don't think that you can handle it
I'm way over, over it

I will drink as much Lemoncello as I can
And I'll do it again and again
I don't really care what you have to say
'Cause you know, you know you're nothing

I'm sick of your shit, don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of your shit, don't ask why

I hate you now so go away from me
You're gone, so long, I can do better, I can do better
Hey, hey you, I found myself again
That's why you're gone, I can do better, I can do better

Whad'ya say, I told you so
You know that 'cause I always know
Get out my face, hey hey
You're not my taste, hey hey

I am so sick of you
You're on my nerves, I want to puke
Get outta my face, hey hey
You're not my taste, hey hey
Hey, hey, hey, hey

I hate you now so go away from me
You're gone, so long, I can do better, I can do better
Hey, hey you, I found myself again
That's why you're gone, I can do better, I can do better

I hate you now so go away from me
You're gone, so long, I can do better, I can do better
Hey, hey you, I found myself again
That's why you're gone, I can do better, I can do better


*listening to "Already Gone" by Kelly Clarkson

"Let honor be to us as strong an obligation as necessity is to others."
-William Pitt

hmm...

hello! I'm back...
It's been weeks since i last post blogs..
Well, i was abducted by the flying saucer, UFO...
That's why..
Hehe..
Allright, actually the main reason is that my limited internet. It has come to its limit thanks to my bro! So i'm using my phone now..

Oh yeah, tomorrow is Halloween's. Come to think of it, i've never had any event on such day, what a pity..

Ok, today our school celebrates WCD. i am not going to write bout it cos it's boring and nothing special..
After the activity is over, i, Nelly and Edwin went to Reynold's to get our confiscated headset and u know what, my headset is not functioning well anymore..
Either the sound is too small although max volume or that the singer's singing go hissed or radio no even a single beat..
huh.. but i'm not blaming anyone.
And after i got off from school, i went swimming with my siblings, again as usual in Palm Spring.
I swam and felt very tired. Now i realized that i don't like swimming. Playing volleyball is a lot more fun..
And i swear i'll never ever again go to that darned place to swim.. NEVER AGAIN!
i'm so pissed..
After swimming, had our meals at KFC.
After we were about to leave that place, i look at a man. He's praying for his food and after praying, he saw me looking at him, I then looked on the other side.
Since that, he's been looking toward me every short while.
Did i do somethin wrong?
I merely see him praying and he's over-reacting.
huhu, pardon me.
Next walking down the stairs, he glanced at me AGAIN!
duh, and stared at me again when i'm already outside of Gelael.
Oh Goodness, he's so weird.

Now i'm in the clinic to kill time, waiting for my turn..

：：
Why do human attitudes differ so much from one and another?
Why can't a person live with good attitudes?
How to change them?
Why are they like this?
I'm so dissapointed..
Just what did i owe you?

hmm... feel like hmm-ing so much so much..!!

~~
I've stopped, maybe.
It's been 3yrs.
Though i know it's not the matter of possessing but to ensure you happiness.
I don't know whether you're happy or not., I can't see you're happy or not, i can only wish u happiness and all because i'm far from you. I haven't see you for ages.
You're like Mercury and I, the Saturn (hyperbole). So far away..
And now i've decided to let go, let everything go.
My time spent for having feelings for you has been a fruitless one.
But i never reggretted.
So far, u're the first in my record, the person whom i had feelings for, for 3years.
You must be so charming!

hehehe...
Actually that's not the reason lah.
But it's bcos i've .....

it's a secret for the time being.
I never expected that it could be you and it's you.
haha.. blossoms.
Please, no more repeatation of history..

haa..
How long more must i wait, doctor and nurses???

idon't feel like ending here, i still wanna write moree..
Oh, my pet society really grieves me..
Ugh, my hard-earned cash!

"Everything changes in a blink of an eye but never that Holy Path."
-Yenny Juwita

see you again..

thurssdayy

It's Thursday today. Friday tomorrow got loads of tests. Studying is so stressfull...

So i've revised on maths, kimia and fisika.
I flipped, analyzed and now its in my brain.
Talking about brain, i've determined to practise/make my left and right brain work together...
hmm... great!!
can be extraordinary..
lol

My biggest fear this year is mtk..
Oh, how i really dislike it and its making me fear of it. How dare you, numbers!

School was fun today, i even have to speak loud! All thanks to Viky and Eka lor!
"What happened"!
The both of them are such a brats...
I felt hoarse afterwards, i realized that i've not been shouting and speaking in loud voices..

After dismissal, we made a trip to Bengkong.
To mom's cousin home, to buy kerosene..
After that in the car, she told us that a woman got hypnotized there, her money was cheated...
How brazen of those hypnosist!
A form of healing is now making people guarding against it...
So be careful, if somebody speaks to you, always be cautious.
Who knows?
Everythings here now, what more do you want???

Desy's birthday celebration.

Her birthday was supposed to be on Oct.6th, last tuesday..
but since it's weekdays, she's unable to celebrate it..
so the celebration was held yesterday. Saturday Oct10th.

During meal's time..

looking at desy's gift-card

only a pix taken during meal.. the rest were taken in cameras..

after meal:
*strolling to cinema



with Desy



*Happy Puppy




well, you readers must be thinking why desy is not in the pictures..
I don't have much photos with me..
Only few and absurd...
most of the pictures are in Edwin and Pris's camera..


PS: This is for those who stayed behind late.
The problem yesterday is not that i'm unable to be chaffeur(spelling-check) home... Infact i declined to be chaffeur home..
But it's another problem...
a secret i cannot say..
and i've figured itt out..
it's actually a misunderstanding that fools me..
please don't mention this anymore..
forget everything..
it's so embarassing..
and stop probing, allright?

"With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

Yesterday's Event

So yesterday was the Mid-Autumn Festival..
I wasn't able to write last night because I got home late and busy..

In the morning, I invited several classmates that live nearby here..
I invited them to Vihara Buddhi Bakti, the Temple beside Windsor..
I invited 4, but only 2 go.
That's Vivi and Nelly. My sister also joins.
We went to the temple in the evening, Nelly first come to my house and we together walk there..


crossing the hectic road;

Vivi is there alrdy and she also met Agus there;
After reunite with Vivi, we went to offer incense and burn papers..
Soon it's dark..
We also bought snacks from a stall aftr offering incense>
Then the lion dance beat started..
But there's no any lion, maybe they are practising..
While having our snacks, suddenly raindrops..
But it didn't rain..
Next we walk around and soon Vivi went home..
I notice that it's not very crowded over here..
But i can see a lot of people here..
Next we go over to another field, just in time..
Thye're about to start 'Puja Bakti' so we joined..
We stood up and read paritta..
Next, games started..
We left the field as we're not taking part in any activity..
So we went for a stroll..
After a moment, there's an announcement of wish making..
Well, who's not interested?
We rushed back to the field and go over the boot..
The one in charge gave us paper each..
I, my sis and Nelly start writing our wishes..
The paper will be put in a balloon and let it off to the sky at 10/11pm...
the boot gets crowder..
I wish to stay and witness the baloon off to sky, but my sis and Nelly wants to leave alrdy... so we got home to my home..
Bought nasi uduk on the way home..
Eat and watch tv..
Nelly was fetched later on..
Mom, Dad, Uncle went to wedding dinner..

After a while, i went outside looking for moon, I made prayers and wishes.. the moon was in a blurr state because the whole day has been gloomy and it rained a bit..
Usually on this day, isn't it that the moon is thrice times larger than the usual?
Or i got it wrong?
I remember when i was a kid, I went to Maitreya Temple on Mid-Autumn Festival. There are stageshows and mooncakes to eat.. I stood at the temple and i saw the moon. The moon was not as ordinary as every 1st and 15th.. thrice times or 4 larger than the usual moon, it's shining and gorgeouss...
I can't forget the way it looks till now..
It's big and shiny, very beautiful...
But why i don't see it this year?
Or maybe that big moon is just a dream? or imagination? or perhaps hallucination?
I know it's not..

And i started to grow a liking in lion dance...

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."
-Bernice Johnson Reagon

approaching Mid-Autumn Festival..

I'm back againn..
My favorite festival is here... it's Tomorrow!!
that's right, the Mid-Autumn festival! 15th of lunar calendar
I love this because in this festival I can eat mooncakes, gazing at the moon and carrying lanterns!!! If only I have a lantern.. perfect if it's a lotus lantern!
hahha.. and I love mooncakes, but still i'll get tired of it if i gonna eat it everyday>>
This is a good chance for you to get to know me even deeper..
My favorite is Lotus Paste with Double Yolk, I like the colourful skins "bing pi", but I rarely get to eat that only those common brown..
Whenever there's a mooncake, ofcourse there's the box so I and my sister would always fight for it..
Last year she had the box, this year I won't let her have it!
Unless mom buys another box of mooncake..
Mom bought 2boxes.. but it turned out that she's giving a box to grandma..
I told her 1 box not enough and she said if not enough can still buy..

Those are the 2!

I like the bright one, the design is nice, lotuses around!!
it contains 8mini mooncakes.
While the dark one as usual= 4pcses
The bright one is for grandma...
Awaiting tomorow.. The moon must be very beautifull and huge..

Today school's situation same like yesterday..
I don't want to say what happened anymore or I can't finish and my grammar is very poor.. Lest you don't get what i say.
But 3 Major Things happened:
1)Joevincent taught me card prediction!!
2)2handphones from our class got confiscated for a week!
3)Yesterday we played POLICE-AND-THIEF, today I changed it to HIDE-AND-SEEK, fun.
And I was stupid to have agreed on it! I'll tell her I CHANGED my mind>

Ella told me that today is Batik Day, and I've noticed since early morning that teachers were wearing something like formal and refined, i didn't know that's actually batik until i recall Ellas's words during dismissal time.

Recently, I'm very interested in traditional dresses like; Nyonya Kebaya, Cheongsam/Qipao, Hanbok, Kimono and etc..
I told myself that I must be able to collect them all..
They are gorgeouss and unique in their own wayss...
I'd be very happy if i'll get to collect them all!!
I love antiques! And I know I'm antique.
That's what you're going to say right MR. Jambo? you know who you are..
Jambu&Jambo a perfect drink made by Yenny Juwita..
Anyone who wants to try? Come look for me.
FOC!
haha...


Nyonya Kebaya


not sure whether it's cheongsam or qipao..
and it'd be ferfect if there's a chinese fan


Korean Hanbok


Kimono

Allright I wanna go on browsing now.
bye and Goodnight!
MAYBE u can see a beautiful moon tomorrow, so STAND BY!
I wish everyone Eternal Happiness...

lastly I want to thank a guy who had helped me with the word 'approach' on the title above. thanks ya.

“You are invited to the festival of this world and your life is blessed”
-Rabindranath Tagore

1st of Octoberr

I'm back.
Do u realize that it's October alredy?
If yes, good.
If no, now you know.

School is almost 'empty' today. Very quiet and not crowded, canteen not jam anymore. lol.
The reason is students volunteer themselves on the teambuilding camp(2days, a night). They're going to Nongsa Palm Springs, Batam. It's nice to go to beachh.. Can watch sunrise and sunset..
Well, who doesn't like such kind of activity? Even i, i like it too.. but you know due to some reasons..
Almost half of my class pupils joined the camp and half of the school.
Teachers are out too, so we were free for the whole day...
Great!

Mtk time, pak Johnny gave us free time to do our arts work. Aftr we're done with it, the 3 of us(juzz, vivi and i) had chats. We talked about our past, our troubles.. I really don't know that this world is so full of different peoples>.<
The chat went on and on.. But then we stopped during next lesson, economics. Tchr Jojo's behaviour was funny today, but the problem is why is he not joining the camp?
Well, none of my business anyway.
Continued our chat again, this time the topic turns vulgar cos of 2students(names will not be mentioned) joining the chat. We were chatting and they are vulgar-ing all over...
Next, reccess time..
And next free time till the end, just idling around..

But idling can be really boring.. nothing to do at all.
So in the class, I asked Kelvianto to teach me "the sun". Around 10-15mins I mastered it. Next bio teacher come to our class, leaving exercises as she's leaving to the activity too..
After some moment, history repeats itself.. It's POLICE-AND-THIEF time!!
Among all the girls that joined, i guess i was the most active.. I'm a police for few times and run like crazy catching thiefs.. I don't know if I've did the right thing? A big girl, playing and running around the school? what will others think of me when they see that? Well, I don't give a damnn.. (*smiling)

Finally I caught Agus, he's the dificult one.. I caught him with a strategy.. no stamina used.. I was perspiring all over..
And second difficult is JUSTIN! God, he 's dammmmnnnnn heavyy.. even 4,5,6 polices are unable to pull him back to the prison(classroom) and we had no choice but to pull him with his position of lying down on the floor.
That was fun and we laughed a lot>>
My face turned red, body wet, sweats like waterfall(hyperbole). hahaha
Eventhough I perspired but i don't stink at all. Infact i smells fragrance. Seriously, not bluffing.. Don't believe me? Come look for me and i let you smell...
hahaha...
Next was p.e time.. Volleyball tak jadii.. JUstin's mental sickness act up again..
Know what he did? U gonna find this lunatic disgusting...
I never met a person like him..

~
Still deciding whether should go to school or not tomorow.. If there are no lessons, we'll just idle and that's boring.. hmmmmm.....
I can hear fireworks here, what's the occassion?
In another 30days, it's Halloween time..
That's fast, i still remember last year's was like 3months ago...

From today on, I want to study hard to get good grades. The rest, i leave behind first. Concentrate, Yenny! just to convince my parents. Something like a back-up,
so that they'll allow me to go to capital city next year.. May this be fulfilled..
I hope every living things are happy..
no matter they are; fat, thin, short, tall, and whatever it is..
I know u're all in my left and right, I wish u eternal happiness.. and to all of you..

I don't want to feel sore again! And i hate the feeling of being unwanted..
I won't let it rule me! There's no such thing as "I am I", "I'm Myself".

If I am scolded, I simply agree;
If I am hit, I lie down;
If I am spat at, I let it dry;
You save Your energy, and I save my worries!
-Bodhisattva Maitreya, Pu Tai

all in 1

it's been sometime since i last post somethg heree...

holiday is ending soon, why? why is there always an end to everything? Nothing last at all.

during holiday i stayed home almost all the time and twice only meeting frens for morning session.
Alone at home is my everyday and ofcourse i encountered many things too!
My story begins...

That day, the water tap is still on, filling the tank. I left it alone and in the evening when i return to it i wasn't aware that the tap is alredy closed! I can't recall that i had closed the tap. I didn't.... but not too sure also. Strange;

That Wed when i was playing sims3, i heard a man calling. I went outside to him and he began telling me where he came from...
He's looking for donations, from the orphanage. A man came too, his mate. He shook hand with me and takes a long time to let go of my hand, i felt a bit scared actually... and i dogded from looking into their eyes, i'm afraid i'll be hypnotized. The effects are really strongg.
Then the guard here saw them talking to me, he strictly interrogate them.. 'who let you in?' he said. And ask them to follow him to the other corner.
I really am afraid somethg will happen, how i wish they leave right. The 'shake my hand' guy went first and the other insist i take the receipt (i signed the receipt to donate earlier). They went aside, the guard tell me to go inside..
I continue my game, aftr a while they with the guard come again, the guard allow me to continue the donation. I gave it to them and finally they leave.
If you were i, u'll understand how i felt that moment..
huh--

I spent my days playing games, since the internet is limited i can't go browsingg... I did my homeworks too and got my idea on what to draw in arts assignment.. fantastic!
I also read books that i borrowed from my religion teacher...
-Buddha's view on meat eating
-The 5 Illusionist
-Only we can help ourselves
-Superpower Mindfullness
and i don't know if there are still more behind..
Now i realized that Buddhism is deeply misunderstood by people nowadays as well as the society.
And vegetarian 'chi su' is not really neccessary because Buddhism practices 'chi zai' . This is so bad. There are still many who don't know this and there are still a lot more to be learn...
As for the Superpower Mindfullness is very thick, i doubt i can finish it.
Some are still unread.
Reading those books really made me understand what is there and what is not.
If there's chance, i suggest it to be read. You'll understand.. It makes sense.
It feels great to understand and learn Dhamma.

This is nothing at all, let go.

I'll get over, them, that brings burden.

Allright, it's late now.
Going to turn in for the night.
Goodnight.

lalalalalalallalallallalal~

wwhhyy??

I got their answers alredy..
I won't give up.. I'll make everything reverse.
Allright, stop with the words..
just wanna say that today I had a great game!!
School blackout then we free, I and classmates' turned to kids.
We played police and thief.. Run&&&run.. fun+++fun.. hahha
Sweats are coming out from my body.. hot mah!!
Allright..
stop now.

"The greatest and major are not supporting, it’s totally impossible. What’s the point?"

*-*

I'm in a good mood ystd, and today not so good as ystd..
yeahhhhsssss, Koe has taught me thattt which is hard to understand and today finally i can do it alordyy.. hahha
thanks aloottt, friends!
And bcos of that my newly bought card which i asked Viky to buy got confiscated arhh!! plus Joe's
damn it...>>> I feel so bad eventhough half of the card is mine...
My precious cardds,... >.<

And you knw who you are; she's also one of my friends and whatsmore she's also one of the best that i've encountered.. Why are you like that?? I don't understand why...
Although sometimes she's really annoying, do u really needd to do that.. throwing her book??
Heard what Vivi has said right?? R_E_S_P_E_C_T A H_U_M_A_N
Have u forgotten the good things that she had done for you??
better do some soul searching, bu zhi hao dai!

in a flash, in a blink everythings changing!
topic of wondering for the day:
-Why some parents always want their kids to be like other kids? Why can't they give support to a reasonable thing which their kids want to do?

saturdaay

Aftr pemantapan, together with the rest took a ride on pris's car.
We went to bcs, just browsing around gramedia..
Joe bought a book, and texted me hrs agoo..
The book is useful to him and yeah he gonna teach me on Mondayy.. hahaha>
Some are going to the cafenet while me i still wanna stay,, and anyway i'll be fetched theree..
So only Joe and i stayed at gramedia.. I found the book i'm looking forrr!!
Such a precious book and it's alrdy tearing apart.. huh..
So i flipped and read.. didn't manage to learnn anythg yet..

I went down next and Joe go went to them..
Aftr reaching home..
-do my works
-eat
-watch tv
and it's late arldy.. time is short..
then i went to the back, and heard noises..
There's a bunch of Indians outside..
An Indian couple took a pic at my gate.. hahaha...
I guess those are here to visit my Indian neighbourrr..
And next eat againn,, copy some notes and revise a bit, watch tv..
And off i went to brush my teeth..
After brushing, Rizuki was playing on the tv, watched a bit and here I am ...

"True creativity often starts where language ends."
-Arthur Koestler

a blink of an eye

yeah, just in a blink of eye it's Friday again..
I"m chatting with my forever-teacher now, she adds up my spirits!

hmm..
I've been reading books this week, and it made me feel like changing my own life..
I'm still planning to buy more books, perhaps it could change me for better!
hmm.. at lost for words, dunno what to carry on.
Words are never enough for a human to express him/herself.
Allright, i'll just end it here.

Tomorow got pemantapan, sleep early!

"Veuillez accorder me mes rêves, merci beaucoup."

wednessday

huh... this week full of monthly tests arhh, what a pressure!
Had physics test today, i doubt i'll get a satisfying grade, huh....
Today 7 are absent, 6 got their 'out flower farm' try translating to teochew and u'll know..
So class is not that merry..
We were dismissed earlier too. Aftr lunch we had spiritual activity, we watch 'The Abbot and the Orphan' a short movie. cute ehh!

I really hate the school i'm studying in!!
everythg's just so sucks..
be it the environment, tchrs, frens are all the same!!!
huh.. i wanna leave to a place where the population is slim..
live in a simple and tranquil wayy..
alone is better than 'alive'!
huh...
or am i the one introvert?

"loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty"
-Mother Teresa

fridayy

I still remember the movie ystd that i've watched in the clinic, infact everything is still in my mind.. well it is 'Prom Night'.
This is nice but the pycho is really sick, and that girl is so pitiful.. If i were her i wouldn't know what to do either.. better die than living that way.

So tomorrow the feasting starts for Muslims, i pity them alot..
go hungryy most of the time..
And yeah, no classes today.

Mom made soto today, delicious!
I only eat soto made by mom, it tastes heavenly.
haha..
stayed home for the whole day and played sorority life in facebook.
some aked me out, but i turned them down..
feel like going on a adventure..
mountain climbing, camping or diving are good ideas..
huh..
allright, wanna watch tv..
bye

"For here we are not afraid to follow truth wherever it may lead..."
-Thomas Jefferson (3rd US President)

wednesdayy

arrived school this morning, my mood seems better today..
the moment i got on to my desk i greeted JP morning, hahaha.. then feel energetic.
I thought bu nani isn't coming cos pak johntri came into our class, lead our prayer then he asked us to move to the corner and it's actually inspection time!!
2 brought cellphones, one kept in her bag with her mp3 too, and another one foolish enough to keep his cellphone in the thrash can, haha bt still got caught..
I kept my precious book in Jp's food bag as i thought that kind of book will be confiscated too, pak johntri did checked his food bag and he saw my book too but he just returned&left.. hufftt..
Bu nani was disgusting, she touched our body ya know!! all parts, hell.. disgusting mann.. My reaction was the strongest of all girls.. yuckss i hate it when people touch my bodyy... oh no!!

Next, what happened ya??
my memories seem to be fading.. can't rmbr wat happened..
oh ya.. had sejarah and goegrafi test, quite easy and quite hard so-so.
tomoroow tests again in bio and ppkn, had revised on ppkn earlier and OK!
After lunch went to hall and again the scb matters lah,, didnt really pay attention..
so exhausted..
gladly tomorow wear pants, i hate wearing skirtsss!!
And today is the 7th month festival.. hoho..
stay at home everyone, dont wander outside..

I'm awaiting for the mooncake festival..
I wanna eat and lay my fingers on mooncakes..
hmmm... yummy and tasty..
Tomorrow is the lunar 1st of the 7th month..
vegetarian time
allright shan't talk anymore.. tired and lazy
buhbyeee

"Beware the fury of a patient man."
-John Dryden

Aug. 17th

just wanna greet Indonesia today..
Happy Birthday...
hahaha...
I hope i can go to capital city soon..
hahaha..
had flag ceremony this morning in school..
hot>>> lol
got the book alredy thanks a lot Edwin..
but i lend the book to Novi first..
I hope she'll finish reading and return me by tomorrow..
hahahaha<<<
allright shan't talk anymore, wanna turn in.
byeee~
merdekaa my country..

losingg a treasure

I wonder why we have to go to school tomorrow just for a flag ceremony.
Tomorrow is the Independence Day, a public holiday but still gotta go for flag ceremony..
well... it's ok lah.

huhuhu...
I think i lost my purple pencil, damn it!!
That pencil is like a treasure to me ya know.. a source of knowledge too.
It has been sticking with me for several years..
I remember i left it in the room yesterday and when i try looking for it, nowhere to be found..
ahhh... return pleasee...
come backk

"Some people never go crazy, What truly horrible lives they must live"
-Charles Bukowski

feastt togetherr

So ystd our school celebrated the Independence Day. As usual, it's alredy the tradition of school that we gotta wear red and white every once a year.
It's not really fun, we just parade around then rest a while in class and off we go to hall to watch and perform. I won't say what we did in the hall cos i'm lazy to tell again, nothing so special. We weren't paying much attention instead we did our business, I and Sonia had a deep conversation it was so deep. I've nvr had such a deep and one-in-a-zillion conversation, now I understand..

Aftr that Chris, Juzz, Nelly, Noviani and I, we went to seoul garden for a feast.
We've been planning to go since months ago, but many setbacks occur. lol
We asked the rest too but full of excuses so only 5 of us go luh.
U can nvr imagine wat had happened, we're too greedy i guess. We kept on taking foods until the waiter/tress there look like so unhappy, but still if I were the one in-charge there I wouldn't show any attitudes.. haha
Aftr filling our stomachs, we're still unsatisfied if just leave like that so we played a game "mejikuhibiniu" loser should eat the food that's been suggested.
hahha... I'm lucky, i didn't get to eat often. My stomach is almost bursting, damn full... After a while Chris gave up, i really see the differences before and after she eats.. hahaha... aftr several rounds we stop too, we changed to ice-cream contest. The ice-cream is prepared by the other party, me with Nelly and Novi with Juzz while Christina the judge..
We were tricked by that cousins, damn!!
Ofcourse in the end we lost and we had to accept punishment, but in the end we just left.
Cos of some probs, no choice. lol
here are some pix; some editted and some not




Ice-cream and loser's meal

After leaving we went to Happy Puppy, sing for few minutes then Chris went home, after finish singing Juzz and Novi went home also, left me and Nelly again it's always like that everytime. hooho.
And we went to look for stuffs in hypermart, I didn't get what i want huh..
Then aftr a while she went home and after 20mins like that I'm fetched too.
Went to top100 with bro to look for his thg so i got down too, I went to buy cards.
hhohoho

Reached home;
`watch tv
`shower
`watch tv
`play computer
`watch Fri-usual show a bit
`sleep accidentally

So I'm going to catch up the show today.. But i think there's no encore leh..
I hope there is..
learned smthg new today.. hohoho
allright. bye
lastly today is Vilia's birthday..
Happy Birthday

"The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing."
-John Powell