Just staying at home tonight after sending Eka off to the airport earlier. Feels so quick. Still remember the moment when he told me that he was coming back here, then today comes and he's returned again. It's all time's doing. Time has passed so quickly that I feel like I am losing it.
I am happy to just stay at home tonight. This week has been so tiring I barely slept for 7 hours a day since Monday. Finally tonight I can get a good night sleep especially when it's pouring outside right now. Such a perfect night I really feel grateful! But there's another thing inside me. I have been feeling so dejected for the whole day. It started out last night. I am feeling so asdfghjklsad trying to let go things inside of me, it's so hard but I have to. Time, all I need is just time, time will wash everything away and since I am fully aware of this all the more I should not allow myself to sink into those unhappiness. I have to be realistic but what makes things worse is my own self. So many dramas are running inside and agitating me. So much noises inside! Why do I have to think and feel so much. Why do I have to be easily bothered. Why I can't hold a grip of myself. Why I just can't let things go. Why why why!!!!!!!!
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