Is the title of my blog tonight clear enough? I do not hate my job but its environment, which is driving me mad. So long as I still work there, I will never feel like I am truly living a life because all I get to feel there is lifeless. No space to grow, too much uneasiness, so much frets and having to stand on some looks. So fed up. I don't know why but I just can sense it and I don't know if my senses are right but that's how I feel. Whenever I am on my phone and my boss sees me I FEEL like he's unhappy about it. He actually ever told me off for focusing too much on my phone and honestly I really can't take this lying down. Yes I admit I am always on BBM, WhatsApp, LINE, Emails and in fact very active on each of them but what crap does he know? At least half of the time I spent on my phone is getting my work done and the rest when I no longer have works to do! I use social apps to inform debtors about their due payments and emails to check the invoices that they are going to pay and at the same time sending them their credit statements. I feel so wronged. Each time he summons me I am always scared that he's going to tell me off again for using too much of my phone.You think I am having fun with my phone when actually I am using it to accomplish works for you! My goodness I truly can't stand staying there anymore, this is just one of those unpleasantness.
I am going to approach him tomorrow. No, not to explain the phone thingy because I don't care what he thinks and I am not the kind of person that has so much energy to explain things to unnecessary people. How much I wish that I am going to talk to him about tendering my resignation but dear, it's just not the time yet. I am in the endurance period. I don't feel like writing what happened because it's too exhausting. Just thinking about the matter itself is already draining me out. I am afraid my boss is going to blame me for not telling him about this matter sooner, it's been dragging for like 2 months? I really don't wish to talk to him. I feel all my cells are bursting, bones breaking, organs malfunctioning, hair falling, muscles tearing, blood freezing, teeth shaking, nose bleeding at the thought of probably having to explain a mountain to him tomorrow. Well that's a bit too much but it's just how agonizing I feel working there. Somebody please save me! I just want to resign quickly and return to life!
This is for you boss!
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