hmm...

hello! I'm back...
It's been weeks since i last post blogs..
Well, i was abducted by the flying saucer, UFO...
That's why..
Hehe..
Allright, actually the main reason is that my limited internet. It has come to its limit thanks to my bro! So i'm using my phone now..

Oh yeah, tomorrow is Halloween's. Come to think of it, i've never had any event on such day, what a pity..

Ok, today our school celebrates WCD. i am not going to write bout it cos it's boring and nothing special..
After the activity is over, i, Nelly and Edwin went to Reynold's to get our confiscated headset and u know what, my headset is not functioning well anymore..
Either the sound is too small although max volume or that the singer's singing go hissed or radio no even a single beat..
huh.. but i'm not blaming anyone.
And after i got off from school, i went swimming with my siblings, again as usual in Palm Spring.
I swam and felt very tired. Now i realized that i don't like swimming. Playing volleyball is a lot more fun..
And i swear i'll never ever again go to that darned place to swim.. NEVER AGAIN!
i'm so pissed..
After swimming, had our meals at KFC.
After we were about to leave that place, i look at a man. He's praying for his food and after praying, he saw me looking at him, I then looked on the other side.
Since that, he's been looking toward me every short while.
Did i do somethin wrong?
I merely see him praying and he's over-reacting.
huhu, pardon me.
Next walking down the stairs, he glanced at me AGAIN!
duh, and stared at me again when i'm already outside of Gelael.
Oh Goodness, he's so weird.

Now i'm in the clinic to kill time, waiting for my turn..

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Why do human attitudes differ so much from one and another?
Why can't a person live with good attitudes?
How to change them?
Why are they like this?
I'm so dissapointed..
Just what did i owe you?

hmm... feel like hmm-ing so much so much..!!

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I've stopped, maybe.
It's been 3yrs.
Though i know it's not the matter of possessing but to ensure you happiness.
I don't know whether you're happy or not., I can't see you're happy or not, i can only wish u happiness and all because i'm far from you. I haven't see you for ages.
You're like Mercury and I, the Saturn (hyperbole). So far away..
And now i've decided to let go, let everything go.
My time spent for having feelings for you has been a fruitless one.
But i never reggretted.
So far, u're the first in my record, the person whom i had feelings for, for 3years.
You must be so charming!

hehehe...
Actually that's not the reason lah.
But it's bcos i've .....

it's a secret for the time being.
I never expected that it could be you and it's you.
haha.. blossoms.
Please, no more repeatation of history..

haa..
How long more must i wait, doctor and nurses???

idon't feel like ending here, i still wanna write moree..
Oh, my pet society really grieves me..
Ugh, my hard-earned cash!

"Everything changes in a blink of an eye but never that Holy Path."
-Yenny Juwita

see you again..

thurssdayy

It's Thursday today. Friday tomorrow got loads of tests. Studying is so stressfull...

So i've revised on maths, kimia and fisika.
I flipped, analyzed and now its in my brain.
Talking about brain, i've determined to practise/make my left and right brain work together...
hmm... great!!
can be extraordinary..
lol

My biggest fear this year is mtk..
Oh, how i really dislike it and its making me fear of it. How dare you, numbers!

School was fun today, i even have to speak loud! All thanks to Viky and Eka lor!
"What happened"!
The both of them are such a brats...
I felt hoarse afterwards, i realized that i've not been shouting and speaking in loud voices..

After dismissal, we made a trip to Bengkong.
To mom's cousin home, to buy kerosene..
After that in the car, she told us that a woman got hypnotized there, her money was cheated...
How brazen of those hypnosist!
A form of healing is now making people guarding against it...
So be careful, if somebody speaks to you, always be cautious.
Who knows?
Everythings here now, what more do you want???

Desy's birthday celebration.

Her birthday was supposed to be on Oct.6th, last tuesday..
but since it's weekdays, she's unable to celebrate it..
so the celebration was held yesterday. Saturday Oct10th.

During meal's time..

looking at desy's gift-card

only a pix taken during meal.. the rest were taken in cameras..

after meal:
*strolling to cinema



with Desy



*Happy Puppy




well, you readers must be thinking why desy is not in the pictures..
I don't have much photos with me..
Only few and absurd...
most of the pictures are in Edwin and Pris's camera..


PS: This is for those who stayed behind late.
The problem yesterday is not that i'm unable to be chaffeur(spelling-check) home... Infact i declined to be chaffeur home..
But it's another problem...
a secret i cannot say..
and i've figured itt out..
it's actually a misunderstanding that fools me..
please don't mention this anymore..
forget everything..
it's so embarassing..
and stop probing, allright?

"With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

Yesterday's Event

So yesterday was the Mid-Autumn Festival..
I wasn't able to write last night because I got home late and busy..

In the morning, I invited several classmates that live nearby here..
I invited them to Vihara Buddhi Bakti, the Temple beside Windsor..
I invited 4, but only 2 go.
That's Vivi and Nelly. My sister also joins.
We went to the temple in the evening, Nelly first come to my house and we together walk there..


crossing the hectic road;

Vivi is there alrdy and she also met Agus there;
After reunite with Vivi, we went to offer incense and burn papers..
Soon it's dark..
We also bought snacks from a stall aftr offering incense>
Then the lion dance beat started..
But there's no any lion, maybe they are practising..
While having our snacks, suddenly raindrops..
But it didn't rain..
Next we walk around and soon Vivi went home..
I notice that it's not very crowded over here..
But i can see a lot of people here..
Next we go over to another field, just in time..
Thye're about to start 'Puja Bakti' so we joined..
We stood up and read paritta..
Next, games started..
We left the field as we're not taking part in any activity..
So we went for a stroll..
After a moment, there's an announcement of wish making..
Well, who's not interested?
We rushed back to the field and go over the boot..
The one in charge gave us paper each..
I, my sis and Nelly start writing our wishes..
The paper will be put in a balloon and let it off to the sky at 10/11pm...
the boot gets crowder..
I wish to stay and witness the baloon off to sky, but my sis and Nelly wants to leave alrdy... so we got home to my home..
Bought nasi uduk on the way home..
Eat and watch tv..
Nelly was fetched later on..
Mom, Dad, Uncle went to wedding dinner..

After a while, i went outside looking for moon, I made prayers and wishes.. the moon was in a blurr state because the whole day has been gloomy and it rained a bit..
Usually on this day, isn't it that the moon is thrice times larger than the usual?
Or i got it wrong?
I remember when i was a kid, I went to Maitreya Temple on Mid-Autumn Festival. There are stageshows and mooncakes to eat.. I stood at the temple and i saw the moon. The moon was not as ordinary as every 1st and 15th.. thrice times or 4 larger than the usual moon, it's shining and gorgeouss...
I can't forget the way it looks till now..
It's big and shiny, very beautiful...
But why i don't see it this year?
Or maybe that big moon is just a dream? or imagination? or perhaps hallucination?
I know it's not..

And i started to grow a liking in lion dance...

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."
-Bernice Johnson Reagon

approaching Mid-Autumn Festival..

I'm back againn..
My favorite festival is here... it's Tomorrow!!
that's right, the Mid-Autumn festival! 15th of lunar calendar
I love this because in this festival I can eat mooncakes, gazing at the moon and carrying lanterns!!! If only I have a lantern.. perfect if it's a lotus lantern!
hahha.. and I love mooncakes, but still i'll get tired of it if i gonna eat it everyday>>
This is a good chance for you to get to know me even deeper..
My favorite is Lotus Paste with Double Yolk, I like the colourful skins "bing pi", but I rarely get to eat that only those common brown..
Whenever there's a mooncake, ofcourse there's the box so I and my sister would always fight for it..
Last year she had the box, this year I won't let her have it!
Unless mom buys another box of mooncake..
Mom bought 2boxes.. but it turned out that she's giving a box to grandma..
I told her 1 box not enough and she said if not enough can still buy..

Those are the 2!

I like the bright one, the design is nice, lotuses around!!
it contains 8mini mooncakes.
While the dark one as usual= 4pcses
The bright one is for grandma...
Awaiting tomorow.. The moon must be very beautifull and huge..

Today school's situation same like yesterday..
I don't want to say what happened anymore or I can't finish and my grammar is very poor.. Lest you don't get what i say.
But 3 Major Things happened:
1)Joevincent taught me card prediction!!
2)2handphones from our class got confiscated for a week!
3)Yesterday we played POLICE-AND-THIEF, today I changed it to HIDE-AND-SEEK, fun.
And I was stupid to have agreed on it! I'll tell her I CHANGED my mind>

Ella told me that today is Batik Day, and I've noticed since early morning that teachers were wearing something like formal and refined, i didn't know that's actually batik until i recall Ellas's words during dismissal time.

Recently, I'm very interested in traditional dresses like; Nyonya Kebaya, Cheongsam/Qipao, Hanbok, Kimono and etc..
I told myself that I must be able to collect them all..
They are gorgeouss and unique in their own wayss...
I'd be very happy if i'll get to collect them all!!
I love antiques! And I know I'm antique.
That's what you're going to say right MR. Jambo? you know who you are..
Jambu&Jambo a perfect drink made by Yenny Juwita..
Anyone who wants to try? Come look for me.
FOC!
haha...


Nyonya Kebaya


not sure whether it's cheongsam or qipao..
and it'd be ferfect if there's a chinese fan


Korean Hanbok


Kimono

Allright I wanna go on browsing now.
bye and Goodnight!
MAYBE u can see a beautiful moon tomorrow, so STAND BY!
I wish everyone Eternal Happiness...

lastly I want to thank a guy who had helped me with the word 'approach' on the title above. thanks ya.

“You are invited to the festival of this world and your life is blessed”
-Rabindranath Tagore

1st of Octoberr

I'm back.
Do u realize that it's October alredy?
If yes, good.
If no, now you know.

School is almost 'empty' today. Very quiet and not crowded, canteen not jam anymore. lol.
The reason is students volunteer themselves on the teambuilding camp(2days, a night). They're going to Nongsa Palm Springs, Batam. It's nice to go to beachh.. Can watch sunrise and sunset..
Well, who doesn't like such kind of activity? Even i, i like it too.. but you know due to some reasons..
Almost half of my class pupils joined the camp and half of the school.
Teachers are out too, so we were free for the whole day...
Great!

Mtk time, pak Johnny gave us free time to do our arts work. Aftr we're done with it, the 3 of us(juzz, vivi and i) had chats. We talked about our past, our troubles.. I really don't know that this world is so full of different peoples>.<
The chat went on and on.. But then we stopped during next lesson, economics. Tchr Jojo's behaviour was funny today, but the problem is why is he not joining the camp?
Well, none of my business anyway.
Continued our chat again, this time the topic turns vulgar cos of 2students(names will not be mentioned) joining the chat. We were chatting and they are vulgar-ing all over...
Next, reccess time..
And next free time till the end, just idling around..

But idling can be really boring.. nothing to do at all.
So in the class, I asked Kelvianto to teach me "the sun". Around 10-15mins I mastered it. Next bio teacher come to our class, leaving exercises as she's leaving to the activity too..
After some moment, history repeats itself.. It's POLICE-AND-THIEF time!!
Among all the girls that joined, i guess i was the most active.. I'm a police for few times and run like crazy catching thiefs.. I don't know if I've did the right thing? A big girl, playing and running around the school? what will others think of me when they see that? Well, I don't give a damnn.. (*smiling)

Finally I caught Agus, he's the dificult one.. I caught him with a strategy.. no stamina used.. I was perspiring all over..
And second difficult is JUSTIN! God, he 's dammmmnnnnn heavyy.. even 4,5,6 polices are unable to pull him back to the prison(classroom) and we had no choice but to pull him with his position of lying down on the floor.
That was fun and we laughed a lot>>
My face turned red, body wet, sweats like waterfall(hyperbole). hahaha
Eventhough I perspired but i don't stink at all. Infact i smells fragrance. Seriously, not bluffing.. Don't believe me? Come look for me and i let you smell...
hahaha...
Next was p.e time.. Volleyball tak jadii.. JUstin's mental sickness act up again..
Know what he did? U gonna find this lunatic disgusting...
I never met a person like him..

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Still deciding whether should go to school or not tomorow.. If there are no lessons, we'll just idle and that's boring.. hmmmmm.....
I can hear fireworks here, what's the occassion?
In another 30days, it's Halloween time..
That's fast, i still remember last year's was like 3months ago...

From today on, I want to study hard to get good grades. The rest, i leave behind first. Concentrate, Yenny! just to convince my parents. Something like a back-up,
so that they'll allow me to go to capital city next year.. May this be fulfilled..
I hope every living things are happy..
no matter they are; fat, thin, short, tall, and whatever it is..
I know u're all in my left and right, I wish u eternal happiness.. and to all of you..

I don't want to feel sore again! And i hate the feeling of being unwanted..
I won't let it rule me! There's no such thing as "I am I", "I'm Myself".

If I am scolded, I simply agree;
If I am hit, I lie down;
If I am spat at, I let it dry;
You save Your energy, and I save my worries!
-Bodhisattva Maitreya, Pu Tai