Happy Vesak and I Passed!

 Happy Vesak 2557

Prince Siddhartha was born on this day,
Became enlightened and found peace on this day,
But sadly, on this day he also passed away.

Children wait till night,
To see Vesak bloom and the streets filled with lights,
And the full moon like a pie,
shining ever so bright.

Incense sticks are lit, its smell
binding us to Lord Buddha's past.
Buddhist flags are cast,
Even after Vesak is over,
its memories last.

Devas might be smiling
while they watch us one by one,
Pay gratitude to the Enlightened One.

By Shenali Wijesinghe (10 years), Asian International School

Few months ago when I saw that picture (above) in Facebook, a strong urge pushed me to draw the Buddha despite how terrible I am at drawing. I think I posted that I can't even draw a proper tree years ago in one of my posts but nothing could stop me and I began drawing. Still remember how serious and passionate and carefully I was drawing on that moment till halfway I stopped because it was already late. As time passes, there was still no urge to continue. You know when you do something you have to be driven to do it really well so until today on this Vesak Day I really want to finish it and write "Happy Vesak Day" at the bottom of the paper. Who knows.....


I couldn't find the paper I drew.............


Getting sad won't solve the problem, Buddha taught us not to be attached to anything, they will only bring you sufferings. Nothing is permanent.

I decided to draw a new one, but I can't do it well because I push myself to draw. It needs to be done naturally. So until half again I am doing it... someday later maybe I will complete it.

Going to temple tonight!

Happy Birthday Buddha Gotama.
Thank You.
May all beings be happy
One thing in my life that I am most grateful of and is precious to me is learning Buddhism.

And yesterday was the announcement of the National Exam results. When we were assembled together and listening to the teachers I really didn't know what to feel. It was so confusing to choose between to feel relieve or anxious. One side broke to us that none of us failed but then the other side starts to act otherwise. Some even began crying. When I chose to feel relieve they made me anxious and then to relieve me again. That screwed feeling.... ugh.

When we were to open our results together, I didn't!!! I was nervous!! I just kept on peeping at my paper. I didn't care about the FAILED or PASSED word. I was more stressed to face my score.......

For Bahasa Indonesia I am very surprised it turned out better than my expectation. During the exam I finished it till the last minute still feeling unsure, it was really harder than usual, I had no faith in my answers at all. Thankful! But I wish I got 3 more items correctly. STILL THANKFUL!

I didn't expect to only have 1 mistake in English, this is impressive!
Maths is insanity. Ahhhhhh
The subject I used to hate and suck most at, became a touching story for me~ I want to thank my Maths teacher so much because I believe he taught us so well, this is the proof. Thank you!!!
I only made 2 mistakes in the exam!! Unbelievable!!!
Waking up at 2 am to study till morning, my efforts were not wasted!
Though I think I have forgotten what I learned now.

Economics also got better than I expected, while Sociology is so devastating. That is not what I expected. I said I don't want to have a 6. I think I have underestimated this subject...
Confidence did not help much in Geography.

Average = 7.94
Only a mere of 0.06 to get an 8 is making me hysterical!!!


And I am wondering why my Mom can text me and I can text her back too while she is in China......

The next phase of my life now begins.
Goodbye school. I love you!
Thank you for the memories and shaping me to what I am today.
Thank you for giving me the people that were and still in my life.
Can't see you anymore. 

Writing in the dark

Been going to school to do the rehearsals for our upcoming graduation on this Saturday, 18th of May. 2 more to go before the final general rehearsal, which is this Friday. On the 25th will be the announcement of PASS or FAILED in the National Exam. The defining moment of our life.

Since school ended, I really have nothing to do at home. I can't believe I keep on sitting the day away.
1. Wake Up
2. Breakfast + Procrastinate
3. Mop the floor (the maid left after a month working! damn!)
4. No Rehearsal = wasting the day at home / go to granny's
5. Home. Bath and dinner
6. Ironing Clothes
7. Play till late night and sleep

I really hate that daily routine. Such a waste of life. I really wish school is still available. Sigh.
Yes, I know, I better get a job right? Some of my friends have started working. Let's talk about getting a job.

Ce Yina has been such a kind person. She has been recommending jobs for me. First was ticketing at a Tour and Travel company. I should get hyped right? Since it's the place where I wish to work. I even prepared a cv,  I went to google to see how to make one but I am still doubting the format.... is it really like this?!

I personally love the format because it is precise, clear and straightforward. Unlike those typical listings of biodata. Too boring and very ordinary.

I am only halfway done with the cv. I don't know how to fill in some data like 'Experience' since I just graduated from school and I have nothing more to add. 'Scholarships and Certificates'? I feel so sorry to say how worthless I was in school. I didn't have any achievements at all. What a failure! I am!

I think I can't have the job because it is very unclear. I asked Ce Yina for the direct person to contact but I got nothing. So I think this job is out. Actually I have been eyeing on a new hotel that is still under construction. It is almost done and commercial says 'Opening Soon'. So I went there to check for job vacancies but to no avail. Have they started recruiting? I need to act fast or all vacancies will be filled. I really wish to work in this new hotel. I will dig further information. I am set to grab a job there.
Again today Ce Yina recommended me another job again, she told me it's a work in the hotel. Of course I was delighted to receive the news, hotel is another place where I wish to work. When I ask what position is it my joy dropped. It's the Accounting department.
The word Accounting really creeps me out. I have said I won't do Accounting, because I am really fear of it. I don't even know what on earth do I know about accounting. General Journal? Taxes? That's all I know probably. It's tough. I have never been good in Maths and Accounting has it, plus the journal thingy, I have a really big fear of bungling up the work.
But I know I must not run away. I feel the need to face up to it and learn if I can't! Anyway this is the right time for me to gain experiences. As I have said before I practically wanna taste every job before I really stick to one job: my dream job.
One problem about this hotel job is the hotel is really far. I have no idea if my parents will agree. And I don't know if I will have problems with it. I really don't wish to say No to Ce Yina......
Talking about my parents, my dad has his own business. I should work for him right? or help. I know they expect me to help my dad but you know his company is damn far away, almost out from the city so I really am not interested...... I am scared my Dad will get angry or disappointed over this. Besides I really want to have a taste of working outside. Actually before this second recommendation from Ce Yina, I have made up my mind to work at my Dad's until University starts. When U starts then I will find a job out there. At least when I have helped Dad, I hope to hear no more 'undutiful', 'useless', 'ungrateful' and those words.
Maybe if this 2nd recommendation doesn't pull through, I will really just settle at my Dad's first.
Poor Dad, too many problems are arising right now at his business, which has also caused me unable to further my studies abroad, in Singapore. You know it's been a dream since young to study abroad, it was something that is already set since young but suddenly..... yeah, I have come terms to it anyway :)
Since I will only be taking a diploma in U, hopefully by 3 years later our financial state will be good again or better. That my Dad will already be capable of sending me abroad for my bachelor degree. I will also work hard to earn money though I strongly believe I won't save much. After all, there is still hope for me to go abroad!
SWITZERLAND! _/|\_

May everyone be happy!


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