I get the urge to write since last time and only able to do it now. I want to write to express myself and at the same time record some stories so in the future I can read them again.
This year I'm turning 18 and I can't believe it, can't accept it. I'm almost finishing the first phase of my life: growing, attending school, everything happening in teen life. I will be through with teenage years soon. I am scared.
I am very sad that I will be officially done with school FOREVER in less than a month. I can't imagine what can I do after school. Moving to the 2nd phase of life: going to University, working, competing with time and world and all those stuffs that are stressing and burdening, I can only fantasize about having 3 more years in school.... I will miss having long school holidays, excitement in every beginning of a new school term, carrying my school bag, greeting my teachers, chit-chats with my friends during free time, hang out with buddies almost all the time, doing homework and studying. I have not had enough of school life yet and all these are disappearing forever.
I feel so miserable getting over school.
I want to cry.
I should be planning for my university but it's the last thing I want to think about. I know what course I want but I can't make a choice which University should I attend, which one is right and suitable for me. I want to continue my studies in Singapore but firstly is the financial problem. Secondly even if my Dad could afford it, is it worthy? What if I can't apply a job there after graduating from my bachelor degree and ends up coming back here to work, it will be a waste of money. Singapore is restricting foreign workers so you can imagine how hard it will be to get accepted for jobs, I don't want to take that risk. I don't want my Dad to work so hard for nothing. But I truly want to be at Singapore!
If I remain here the course that I want is unavailable. I want a bachelor degree in International Tourism but there's only a diploma in Hospitality with a duration of 3 years. In other countries a Diploma doesn't take so much time! A big waste of time. I want tourism which is more than about hospitality. Still this is the most highly possible choice for me as in the near time I will need to make a trip to this University to ask about the possible program of getting a bachelor degree abroad(after I'm done with the diploma), in Switzerland, which I'm still unsure if they are having that partnership. If yes, I will remain here and hopefully after 3 years taking diploma, my Dad can provide my school fees and some living expenses in Swiss which is only for a year. This is so far the best choice I have. IF
Another alternative is studying at Bandung. Bandung offers good qualities: with its tourism school owned by the Ministry of Tourism makes it a government school, a bachelor degree program, reasonable price, recognized and reputable. All my Dad's friends recommended this to me when they learned I wanted Tourism. Initially I got interested but I have a problem with its not being International. I want my studies to be in English. I want a cert that is globally recognized, it simply is if they are in English, right? Tell me if I'm wrong about this. Another problem is Bandung turns out to be a big city when I looked at the map, I am used to living in small city so I worry living in a big city. How do I go from one place to another with its not yet fully developed and inefficient public transportation? What if I get lost? What if I can't cope and not getting used over there? What if I can't stand life in Bandung and decides to come back before graduating? I can't imagine. I have too many What Ifs
I can't be bothered yet. Just going with the flow until I'm done with the National Exams. I hope that we, all SMA 3 IPA&IPS (2010-2013) students will pass the National Exam. All 34 of us will definitely make it! Let's strive hard for the last time in our lives for school.
And after we are done with national exams we will to go to Malaysia for 5D4N on 22nd of April, I'm so excited! It has not been confirmed yet but we have made bookings.
CAN'T WAIT!
2 more days until we finish UAS
Our National Exam will be on 15th of April
Picture on the top belongs to me
This year I'm turning 18 and I can't believe it, can't accept it. I'm almost finishing the first phase of my life: growing, attending school, everything happening in teen life. I will be through with teenage years soon. I am scared.
I am very sad that I will be officially done with school FOREVER in less than a month. I can't imagine what can I do after school. Moving to the 2nd phase of life: going to University, working, competing with time and world and all those stuffs that are stressing and burdening, I can only fantasize about having 3 more years in school.... I will miss having long school holidays, excitement in every beginning of a new school term, carrying my school bag, greeting my teachers, chit-chats with my friends during free time, hang out with buddies almost all the time, doing homework and studying. I have not had enough of school life yet and all these are disappearing forever.
I feel so miserable getting over school.
I want to cry.
I should be planning for my university but it's the last thing I want to think about. I know what course I want but I can't make a choice which University should I attend, which one is right and suitable for me. I want to continue my studies in Singapore but firstly is the financial problem. Secondly even if my Dad could afford it, is it worthy? What if I can't apply a job there after graduating from my bachelor degree and ends up coming back here to work, it will be a waste of money. Singapore is restricting foreign workers so you can imagine how hard it will be to get accepted for jobs, I don't want to take that risk. I don't want my Dad to work so hard for nothing. But I truly want to be at Singapore!
If I remain here the course that I want is unavailable. I want a bachelor degree in International Tourism but there's only a diploma in Hospitality with a duration of 3 years. In other countries a Diploma doesn't take so much time! A big waste of time. I want tourism which is more than about hospitality. Still this is the most highly possible choice for me as in the near time I will need to make a trip to this University to ask about the possible program of getting a bachelor degree abroad(after I'm done with the diploma), in Switzerland, which I'm still unsure if they are having that partnership. If yes, I will remain here and hopefully after 3 years taking diploma, my Dad can provide my school fees and some living expenses in Swiss which is only for a year. This is so far the best choice I have. IF
Another alternative is studying at Bandung. Bandung offers good qualities: with its tourism school owned by the Ministry of Tourism makes it a government school, a bachelor degree program, reasonable price, recognized and reputable. All my Dad's friends recommended this to me when they learned I wanted Tourism. Initially I got interested but I have a problem with its not being International. I want my studies to be in English. I want a cert that is globally recognized, it simply is if they are in English, right? Tell me if I'm wrong about this. Another problem is Bandung turns out to be a big city when I looked at the map, I am used to living in small city so I worry living in a big city. How do I go from one place to another with its not yet fully developed and inefficient public transportation? What if I get lost? What if I can't cope and not getting used over there? What if I can't stand life in Bandung and decides to come back before graduating? I can't imagine. I have too many What Ifs
I can't be bothered yet. Just going with the flow until I'm done with the National Exams. I hope that we, all SMA 3 IPA&IPS (2010-2013) students will pass the National Exam. All 34 of us will definitely make it! Let's strive hard for the last time in our lives for school.
And after we are done with national exams we will to go to Malaysia for 5D4N on 22nd of April, I'm so excited! It has not been confirmed yet but we have made bookings.
CAN'T WAIT!
2 more days until we finish UAS
Our National Exam will be on 15th of April
Picture on the top belongs to me
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