A Monday noon

UAS is finished today you could say school is also finished because until the 15th next month we will only be studying 6 lessons. Goodbye to subjects that I won't get to study again- maybe till I die.
From tomorrow onwards we will be dismissed at noon. I failed to cherish the last day we studied till 4, I didn't know it was the last day that day. I would fight to remain in school again, 2 more years please? Dear school I really don't wish to leave. I'm so attached to you! I will miss lots of things.....

I am reading something and brings flashbacks, everything comes back to my mind. All things happened during school, they are still vivid but they seemed so far away.

SAD

As I'm free or more of lazying, I get on my computer. I rarely do this, don't know what's with the sudden urge to. So I'm reading something and listening to Avril Lavigne, searching for her live shows on Youtube. I really can't help but love her so so much. She has been my idol for many years, since 2007. I am really happy I have her in my life, she owns a place in my heart. Maybe I sound over but I really like her so much despite not having the chance yet to meet her. I believe that when I see her someday I'm gonna cry- right when she's infront of me, and it would be embarrassing!
She is the best singer for me. I love her voice, she sounds perfect even at the highest and lowest pitch. Thinking of the reasons I love her makes me wanna roll and and hug at the floor. Her songs are really 'me', I enjoy her songs very much especially her first and second albums. I will never get tired of her songs even till now I listen to them. IT'S A DAAAAAAMN COLDDD NIGHTTTTT~
Her new single will be out this April on the 9th "HERE'S TO NEVER GROWING UP" I have heard the snippet and it sounds yummy. Yay Abbey! Lots of love for you

SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

I LOVE HER STYLE, MY INSPIRATION

I LOVE WHEN SHE SINGS LIVE, SHE NEVER LIP-SYNC

HOPE TO MEET YOU SOON DEAR AVRIL!

I would probably be like this when I see you, hug me okay!!! hahaha

I was surprised I was not called the way I supposed he would. I want to know why.
That sweet young thing ahhhhhh I can't resist- is contributing to my sadness of leaving school.

EARTH HOUR 2013

Earth Hour is today. Action of turning off lights at the same time across countries for an hour to save our planet against climate change.

"Did you know that deforestation is responsible for up to 20% of all carbon emissions globally. This year Earth Hour has particular focus on forests. The WWF-Russia team reached 100,000 signatures on their petition for protective forests, which could be the catalyst to reinstate a ban on industrial logging in an area equal to twice the size of France. We've also started the world's first Earth Hour Forest in Uganda, to fight against 6000 hectares of deforestation that occurs in the country every month. Plus, we have many people planring trees as part of I Will If You Will challenges."

I DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO SAVE THE PLANET!

That's a very great news! I also think that Forest problem is a priority. Reconstructing damaged forests will make a huge impact to our planet. Start planting to allow plants to suck all the carbon, the cause of our planet getting hotter.

So Earth Hour in my country is done! I'm looking forward to next year! Hopefully more people will be aware of the great importance of this cause. And most importantly not saving only once a year but make it a part that you do everyday all the time.

Go beyond the hour!

Hye Rin came back last night so we went to meet her today. She is back to take her school documents and will go back to Jakarta at noon tomorrow. I can't recall if she had been back during these 3 years so I thought it might be awkward when I see her but to my surprise I enjoyed the day. No awkwardness and I can feel the bond.

With Hye Rin!

With my Nemoo

The Girls

With Dodo

I hope Hye Rin will come back again soon. Have a safe flight!

Last night in my dream I met my love. That feeling was incredibly genuine. We were talking and it was the first time we met. But when we began talking it feels like we have known each other very well inside and out and have been together for very long. Looks like we have forgotten each other and then meet again and our love comes back. Maybe that was our rebirth? I felt how strong the love. I have never felt so real in my dream, it was too real. When I woke up I felt like you have entered my life and I can't recall. Or I haven't.



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Otherwise all pictures are not mine. 
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Almost over

I get the urge to write since last time and only able to do it now. I want to write to express myself and at the same time record some stories so in the future I can read them again.

This year I'm turning 18 and I can't believe it, can't accept it. I'm almost finishing the first phase of my life: growing, attending school, everything happening in teen life. I will be through with teenage years soon. I am scared.
I am very sad that I will be officially done with school FOREVER in less than a month. I can't imagine what can I do after school. Moving to the 2nd phase of life: going to University, working, competing with time and world and all those stuffs that are stressing and burdening, I can only fantasize about having 3 more years in school.... I will miss having long school holidays, excitement in every beginning of a new school term, carrying my school bag, greeting my teachers, chit-chats with my friends during free time, hang out with buddies almost all the time, doing homework and studying. I have not had enough of school life yet and all these are disappearing forever.
I feel so miserable getting over school.
I want to cry.

I should be planning for my university but it's the last thing I want to think about. I know what course I want but I can't make a choice which University should I attend, which one is right and suitable for me. I want to continue my studies in Singapore but firstly is the financial problem. Secondly even if my Dad could afford it, is it worthy? What if I can't apply a job there after graduating from my bachelor degree and ends up coming back here to work, it will be a waste of money. Singapore is restricting foreign workers so you can imagine how hard it will be to get accepted for jobs, I don't want to take that risk. I don't want my Dad to work so hard for nothing. But I truly want to be at Singapore!

If I remain here the course that I want is unavailable. I want a bachelor degree in International Tourism but there's only a diploma in Hospitality with a duration of 3 years. In other countries a Diploma doesn't take so much time! A big waste of time. I want tourism which is more than about hospitality. Still this is the most highly possible choice for me as in the near time I will need to make a trip to this University to ask about the possible program of getting a bachelor degree abroad(after I'm done with the diploma), in Switzerland, which I'm still unsure if they are having that partnership. If yes, I will remain here and hopefully after 3 years taking diploma, my Dad can provide my school fees and some living expenses in Swiss which is only for a year. This is so far the best choice I have. IF

Another alternative is studying at Bandung. Bandung offers good qualities: with its tourism school owned by the Ministry of Tourism makes it a government school, a bachelor degree program, reasonable price, recognized and reputable. All my Dad's friends recommended this to me when they learned I wanted Tourism. Initially I got interested but I have a problem with its not being International. I want my studies to be in English. I want a cert that is globally recognized, it simply is if they are in English, right? Tell me if I'm wrong about this. Another problem is Bandung turns out to be a big city when I looked at the map, I am used to living in small city so I worry living in a big city. How do I go from one place to another with its not yet fully developed and inefficient public transportation? What if I get lost? What if I can't cope and not getting used over there? What if I can't stand life in Bandung and decides to come back before graduating? I can't imagine. I have too many What Ifs

I can't be bothered yet. Just going with the flow until I'm done with the National Exams. I hope that we, all SMA 3 IPA&IPS (2010-2013) students will pass the National Exam. All 34 of us will definitely make it! Let's strive hard for the last time in our lives for school.

 

And after we are done with national exams we will to go to Malaysia for 5D4N on 22nd of April, I'm so excited! It has not been confirmed yet but we have made bookings.
CAN'T WAIT! 



2 more days until we finish UAS
Our National Exam will be on 15th of April



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