heart problems at blows.

My mom fell sick. She was worse last night and got better today. She even cooked a very spicy stuff and gobbled them. Well, actually I was the one who gobbled down the spicy stuff. Taking spice+hot stuffs are my forte. I wish my mum a speedy recovery.
At this time, I should be in bed but I had some problems today and I wanna write it here.....

One of my friend is sharing her stories with me right now. She is feeling stressful.
No matter what, here's an advice: Don't be stress because they can make you ill.
Recently, I am very eager to take care of my health. I don't know why, but I just want the best for my body.
Maybe it's because health is the most precious treasure??
Brothers and sisters in the universe, take care of your health!
That friend who has the same initial letter of my name also told me about the other party's feeling of mine and that party's friendship.
I lost a friendship which used to be very important to me. Honestly, I miss the old days. Where I have a very close and good friend. Now we're no different from strangers. Now that I know, I will salvage this friendship again no matter what it takes and I'll never lose it.

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My heart is breaking into pieces! Yet nobody knows. I misses him a lot but there's nothing I can do to let this feelings be known.
No chances and no hopes. Hopes are trashed just by a few words.
If there is a chance, I won't hold back. I want to let him know I'm fond of him... since 3years ago. I don't expect anything back but I just want him to know my feelings. I don't want to keep this feeling to myself. I want him to know......
I want you to know.
Afterall it's a feeling that has last for 3 years, it's not easy to let go. For the rest of my lives I doubt I'm able to let it go.

This morning when I saw the both of them talking to each other, I was so envious of them. My mind was filled with the imagination of me and him like the both of them.
Which I always knew even if the sky falls it won't ever happen.
Sometimes I really don't want to wish for so much but maybe writing what I feel might be good.

I want you to appear and give me a chance to speak to you. I want to let you know what I feel.