Weather: gloomy the whole day
Moon structure: crescent

This could be my last post for this month. I will be preparing for the national exams on 29th which is just another 9 more days to go.
Now I get so obsessed in doing the UN exercises..

Had breakfast at Penuin with mom and dad this morning, this is such a rare. On normal weekends, you won't be able to catch me having breakfast with them. The reason why we had breakfast is because I'm having tuition afterwards.
After eating, off to Nelly's home. After the tutor had arrived we began the lessson.
Luckily, we talked about birthdays and Nelly reminded me that tomorrow will be Edwin's birthday. It slipped my mind...

Disasters aren't so disastrous if we tackle them a piece at a time. Also, the sooner we recognise what we stand to gain from the experience, the easir it is to deal with.

I found a song and fell in love with it. Although no one has ever make me feel like the lyrics yet/.
A little love by Fiona Fung

Greatness as you
Smallest as me
You show me what is deep as sea

A little love, little kiss
A litlle hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel that love is true...
You always stand by my side,
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love.
Oh! Kissing you...
Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

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Yes I do, I always do...

Make me cry,
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh! Kissing you...

Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

To be with you... Oh! I love you...

"If you never have a dream, you'll never have a dream come true."
-As the song says

Canon powershot SX200is



Canon rebel-Xsi



Canon Elph SD1100 IS




Canon eos 1000d




Nikon coolpix S70 touch screen



Aren't those gadgets simply cool?
I want all those cameraaasss. Powershot for capturing the nature and digital cameras for taking pictures on events and myself.
How should I get them? And I can't possible buy all the cameras at a go though I really like all of them.
I must get a camera this year and I don't wish to rely on my parents, I want to buy with my own money. All of you, stop there and wait for me!!!

It's past midnight now, so my post today will be dated as 13th of March.
School for us is no longer dismissed at 4 but at 1. After school today, decided to go to Pizza Hut for lunch on the last minute. I'm so famished, can't stand it. Along with Jacq, Agus, Chris and Juzz we had lunch at pizza hut. Agus also chauffered us home. Thanks:D
I get hungry easily these days, what's wrong?
It rained today and I was so happy. First is when it pours then it'a a dark and cold day. Second the plants and grasses alongside of the roads get watered. those grasses have withered and turned brown because of the nasty weather.
Please don't die my precious plants and do grow the more the better.

Mom told me something that had just happened over my relatives. I really am at loss of what to say. I can't say it here it's a yeah a bit confidential. I just don't want to say it here and it seems like history is about to repeats itself again. What will happen then? if it will blow up then it'd be a disgrace and if won't blow up ever again and just fade then it's a happy-ending I supposed? Huh, I really hate these kind of problems and I don't want to get involved. Readers, if you're reading this, please don't jump to conclusions, it may not be appropriate cuz I myself have no idea what' going on too. I wrote these because my instincts tell me to do so and the problem is not just one.
All I want to do now is to focus on my upcoming national exams and achieve good grades. I must get high scores, strivee!!!!

A friend today shared about his daily life. My heart really goes out to him after learning it. I wouldn't be able to lead such kind of his life, definitely. Now I know why some people would rather choose happiness rather than money. So what if we have tons of money but we're not happy at all? I used to detest his attitude of defending himself even if he's in the wrong. He always insists that he's right and sometimes it really gets on my nerves and I feel like giving him a:"hey you, shut up". Now, I find him pitiful. I'd try to make this ambiguos because that friend does not want to be revealed. Actually if you're quick-witted, you might be able to guess who.
I told him if I were him, I'd have runaway from home and he merely replied: "I you were me, you'd learn just to stand...!@#$%". I've forgotten the words but it says something like "You'd learn to get by", "you'd learn to bear" something like that.
I know this ain't happiness at all, I wish that someday you can truly find your happiness. Someday happinness shall belong to you:D
With a condition, and that's if you're reading this.
Want happiness and peace? Do more good deeds and stop doing bad deeds and the most important and powerful of all is to SMILE*(widely)

May all living creatures be happy!

I can forgive myself when I make a mistake. However, I'm unable to forgive myself if I keep on repeating the same mistake."

heart problems at blows.

My mom fell sick. She was worse last night and got better today. She even cooked a very spicy stuff and gobbled them. Well, actually I was the one who gobbled down the spicy stuff. Taking spice+hot stuffs are my forte. I wish my mum a speedy recovery.
At this time, I should be in bed but I had some problems today and I wanna write it here.....

One of my friend is sharing her stories with me right now. She is feeling stressful.
No matter what, here's an advice: Don't be stress because they can make you ill.
Recently, I am very eager to take care of my health. I don't know why, but I just want the best for my body.
Maybe it's because health is the most precious treasure??
Brothers and sisters in the universe, take care of your health!
That friend who has the same initial letter of my name also told me about the other party's feeling of mine and that party's friendship.
I lost a friendship which used to be very important to me. Honestly, I miss the old days. Where I have a very close and good friend. Now we're no different from strangers. Now that I know, I will salvage this friendship again no matter what it takes and I'll never lose it.

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My heart is breaking into pieces! Yet nobody knows. I misses him a lot but there's nothing I can do to let this feelings be known.
No chances and no hopes. Hopes are trashed just by a few words.
If there is a chance, I won't hold back. I want to let him know I'm fond of him... since 3years ago. I don't expect anything back but I just want him to know my feelings. I don't want to keep this feeling to myself. I want him to know......
I want you to know.
Afterall it's a feeling that has last for 3 years, it's not easy to let go. For the rest of my lives I doubt I'm able to let it go.

This morning when I saw the both of them talking to each other, I was so envious of them. My mind was filled with the imagination of me and him like the both of them.
Which I always knew even if the sky falls it won't ever happen.
Sometimes I really don't want to wish for so much but maybe writing what I feel might be good.

I want you to appear and give me a chance to speak to you. I want to let you know what I feel.

Jim Warren's paintings!

Great works, aren't they?

1

2

3

4

I made a wish using the # 1,2,3 & 4 paintings. I wrote what I want but ain't going to post because they say wishes won't come true if you say them out.
To me that wish which I made today is the prettiest wish as well as dream in my whole life.
Another wish is that:
"I hope it will come true."

"My greatest happiness is not with me but with you who allows."

The weather is fiery eevryday, can't stand it.

Our school is having its birthday since yesterday. I only found out that tickets were to be used on the booths held yesterday. I thought we'll be using that today.. Wasted Rp15.000 for nothing! Well, I was forced.
Today was about dance and drama shows from each classes.
The activity in school today for the graduating classes were watching shows and then dismissal!
OMG, it's really unbearable hot..... 31degrees celsius at night.

I wanted to blog a yellow river, but when I'm typing I always have no idea what to write.
Alice in Wonderland is in cinemas now. I want to watch but not in cinemas...
The theme song by Avril Lavigne is just so great and she looked gorgeous in the mv.

I'll post the MV of the theme song Alice(underground) by Avril Lavigne:

"We live in the present, we dream of the future and we learn eternal truths from the past."
-Madame Chiang Kai-Shek

Night to Monday I dreamt of him. How I wished if that's not a dream, but reality.
Well, dreams are forever dreams while reality remains unchanged.

We finished our exams today. Finally I'm through with the term exams, but there are still some more to come...U.A.N.
Hanged out with some frens today; chris, vi, nel, juzz, agus and yours truly.
Agus had a car so it made us easier. After chem. exam, we checked into the faculty.
It was still early so we decided to go for a spin. We combed around batam centre and a trip to SGIA, but not into the school. The school is so quiet and I barely saw anyone there. My first time to Global school.
It's still early so we went to kfc for drinks. Chatted and they had some drinks.
Then They played a prank on me. When I was using the toilet, they left me behind and got into the car and even drove off but still prank is prank. Then he stopped and I got into the car. :P
We went to look for her house.. hahaha just looking around. sshhshsh!!
Off to nh next, agus wanted to buy some stuffs so we accompanied him. Then we played billiards. I won't go to that darned place ever again.
Had our lunch afterward then accompany agus buying his stuffs and next to happypuppy.
Sing~Sang~Song~
My bro came to fetch me, and Agus's car broke down so my bro helped him.
And I got home.

Very lazy to elaborate, so not in the mood to type.
I'll just stop here... I'll write what's happening if I have the mood, tomorrow.

"Try to become not a man of success, but try rather to become a man of value."
-Albert Einstein