unhappy life

life is really unpredictable, today a teacher told us that our ekonomi tchr had an accident this morning and was sent to hospital, she just taught us yesterday OMG, what's more she's pregnant!
I wonder how's her condition, our aviser told us that she'll undergo an operation, i hope she's fine. God watch over her.

Today school really made me unhappy, day by day i'm getting tired of seeing faces in school, i really want to leave u know, somewhere where i'm happy and could make my dreams come true.. whenevr i think of it i feel very happyy..
I want a change of environment!!
There's a lot to say, but everything i keep inside my heart..

Bio time we did some activity about observations, ridiculous. lol
but from the activity i learned that someone really appreciate me, hahha..
it's Edwin.

To Edwin:
Thanks for the words-written though i didn't heard it, but i knew clearly only u are different frm the others, thanks for listening to my absurd words, thanks for being supportive and always there when i need help though sometimes i'd get dissapointed.
But i just want to tell u that u're the most good friend i've ever encountered, although we're only close occassionaly but evrything u've done will be remembered.
Luckily i got u in the class, if there's no you, i believe i can't stay long in the class. *Only you who are supportive of me, while the others are such a wet blanket, ignorant, world apart, unsupportive. I feel that they just look down on me, and take things for granted. Destroy my hopes and dreams, make fun of it. Barely speak words of justice and fairness, get told to shut up. Even if u think that is impossible, couldn't u speak in beeter ways? Someday i gonna make them take back their words. Because names i mention are not for anyone to disgrace nor humiliate.
And i believe i gonna shine someday... close doesn't mean anything.
ughm... so dramatic..
lol..
I'm not lying but this is what i feel about you.
I knew i'm not perfect, but this is what i really feel to the others i dun want to deceive myself and others and be hypocrite.
So that explains my grumpy and ignorant face evryday..
I really hope they stay away from me...
Who understand me? Don't say you do! Cos u don't!

2010 come quick, bring me somewhere out of here!
so sick and tired of this.. the only problem is me i supposed!
but i really wanna get out of here!!!!!!!!!!
feeling sick.

btw and lastly, Happy Birthday Lee Su Hye Rin!!

ps: starting frm the *passage may be confusing cos it involves ot only one but more.
huh.....

Good that tonight got a show to calm me down, which relates me into my dream..
lol..

"Ambition is the path to success. Persistence is the vehicle you arrive in."
-Bill Bradley

with family

yesterday we went to watch the movie, i thought it's the continuation Dororo2 but i was wrong.
So there are 4 movies for us to watch, in the end we watch "Push". It's nice! Worth of ur time&money..
We had dinner first before entering the theatre.
Now i love watching movies in cinemas, hmm the large screen and loudness also the darkness.

These few nights seemed weird&terrifying to me, do u knw why?
it's like this..
(first night): i dreamt of a temple, there held a funeral. The one who passed away is and old man, he seemed old but i dunno who he is...
(second night): i dreamt of school, there held a funeral too. The one who died is my teacher, it's him(dun wan to spell lah) then in the dream i rmbr i dreamt the same thing the other night(the first dream).
and the 3rd one is last night, i dreamt again of a funeral, this time the dead one is my realative, it's her.
I always pray before sleep, but why...?
Does anyone know what does these dreams mean??
Three nights for the same dream..
Will i dream of another one tonight??
I'm so scared...

Time flies, tomorrow is another Monday..
Vivi texted me that maybe our class is going to lead the flag ceremony, so stand by.
I'll get there early and snatch the easiest work and that is prayer..
hahaha....
boring, alone at home us usual..
I wanna go to capital city..
When will i ever go??
lol

bbfn

"All the things one has forgotten scream for help in dreams."
-Elias Canetti

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it may seem at ease.
it may seem happy.
it may seem perfect.
it may seem lovely.
it may seem wonderful.
but.. how long will it last?

going out tonight for the 2nd free show again..
lol, hope it's dororo2.
awhh.. teeth in pain

another bliss

so yesterday we went to watch the movie, Harry Potter and half-blood prince.
I got it wrong, i mistook it for chamber of secrets.
And finally i found my shoe! Lots of thanks to Pris, thanks to her i found one. We've been to that place(Matahari)for several times, but always fail to find, and in the end when everyone has left, both of us went back to matahari. Pris saw one and she ask the salesgirl there, i wasn't aware of it and so the shoe suits and i bought it.
Next it was my turn, i accompanied her to Juwis optical, there she meet up wif her father, and her condition improved loh. Next was choosing, she wants the nerdy style, she look around and it seems that she like none but still in the end with her father's judgment she found one, among all the specs she've tried that suits her most. Next she went home and i was left alone then 10 mins ltr i was fetched.

After reaching home, shower and do some stuffs mom&dad came back. Seems that they're going somewhere, i asked mom, she said she's going to hospital my aunt has given birth to her baby girl, lol.
hahha... grandma got another granddaughter and i another cousin..
But kids are not allowed to see newborn babies, so i guess i won't be seeing her these days or even weeks... ahahahaha.

huh.. another trouble again this morning, aftr eating as usual i clean my teeth, and when i was using the toothpick in cleaning the brace-thingy drops.. luckily i didn't lost it or everything will be distracted.. hmm, What a hassle, anyway this coming Friday will be the 3rd week so just wait for Friday to arrive..
so much for everything.
and btw tomorrow no classes.. but I prefer there is, cos boring at home.
bbfn.

"When you find peace within yourself, you become the kind of person who can live at peace with others."
-Peace Pilgrim

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uh.. first week of school has arrived..
why time run so fast??
huh... i hate these days!!
I'm changing, try to change for better..
so that everything would go well in life..

Today in school, the only thing that i rmbr is during biology time..
wth, the tchr is so dislikeable.. up down left right there's nthg to like frm her.. hahhaha.... i bet i can't get to learn much frm her..
I still miss the old one, ms. Marita.. she's really a fantastic tchr, the way she teach is cool and stylish, and she gets along well with students. wahahha.... i miss her ballrolling.. I learnt a lot frm her.. not only me but my frens.. I won't forget that.
what a pity those new students won't ever get to experience that..
hohohoho....
ok.. so this was what happened..
i forgot to bring my ntbk! she left us an assignment, i forgot the whole thing meh..
everyone passed ther ntbks only i didn't.. aaaggghh!!
and she asked us to make a name tag, put on string then wear it around the neck..
we've made one that is placed on the table.. but she doesn't like it.. wat a hassle..
then i ask for her permission to toilet, and she asked me for what?
go to toilet of course either pee or poo lah, still ask.. like she nvr make a trip to toilet .. eccentric! hahaha... but i dun hate her ya//

tomorow i'm going out wif pris n edwin and maybe the others.. we're going to watch Harry Potter& chamber of secrets?, and to look for shoe again.. hahaha...
haven't found one..
ok lah.. shan't talk anymore..
ttfn.

hate that i love him, hate that i don't love you.

=(

MY HEART IS CRYING;
I NEED A FRIEND BY MY SIDE.
I HOPE IN A BLINK OF EYE, EVERYTHING WILL SHATTER RIGHT AWAY.
WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

*113

huh!!
school starts today and now i'm in the school in class. Do u knw wat?? It is so BORING!! We just stay in the class n do nthg, while some pupils are having their MOS. I wonder why we can't watch them, and even so the boredom won't go. Here in class, we couldn't do anything either, class is so ugly and paints of pinky stuff, the sight of pinky nt pink really irks.

The situation now in class is unbelievable.
Huh..huh..
I wanna learn magics and hypnotism!!
Where and when?
Hope dreams come true!
Allright, bye!

No quotes today.

*112

it's saturday today, and tomorow sunday the last day of holiday..
huh.. alone again at home.. hmm.. so quiet//
tonight i'm going to look for my leather shoe again!!

so yesterday us usual, every friday I gonna watch the master wif Joevincent..
i mean texting while wtching.. as usual.. hahha cos we share the same interest..
yesterday was the season 4, still war cos they gonna eliminate 3.
I like Jeva, she's cool.. she's a hypnotist, her show was hilarious last night although her speech still lacks.. wahahhahah damn funny! The way she dress up is so polite and she's pretty but looked mature..
Some show doesnt involve any magics, merely this and that, even Joe says so but i wonder why the judges didn't complain about that instead they told him his weaknesses and his supporters were shouting and screaming woh.. weird!
And i like Ivan too, close up magic.. although i like it but i'm not really impressed cos i've been watching this kind of magic a lot of times.. complex but beautiful and magical.!
And i missed the last guy, gonna catch up ltr..

ok.. just posting to let u know i'm still allright.
ahahahhaha...
i'm hungry, going to have lunch..

"The past always looks better than it was. It's only pleasant because it isn't here."
-Finley Peter Dunne

*111

hohooho.. the day look calm aftr rain.. so refreshing.
tomoroo is the election of President, i vote for the current one, so.. lanjutkan!
although just doing nthg at home but i dun feel bored anymore like last time..
the outing is postponed to 9th, the day aftr tomoroow.. and school will start in another 6days.. and i just learnt that we got the free tickets cos it is the bank's 46th annivesary..

hehe..the lower part dun hurt only when chewing.. unlike the upper part..
recently I'm planning on my further studies since this yr shall be the last yr, i got the plan and I hope it'll come true and everything just go well.. I knw wat my frens are going to think and say.. Let it be..
huh.. life is so boring ya.
hmmm......
Does anyone knw where to buy a good leather shoes? I'm at loss of where to look for it.
This new school yr, i must do better times than before then i'm outta this place..
I wnt a new environment and meet new people, a whole new world..
to get as far as possible..
A place where people understand our kind of thinking..
A place where one stay united and no despises..
hahahaha.....
bye.. a queue of tv shows to watch now..

"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."
-Robert Heinlein

*110

hoho..
early in the morning at 10am i made a trip to cinema to catch a free and special movie.. wahaha.. it's free cos the tickets are a prize frm bank BNI.. I thpught it's a boring movie that we're going to watch, but to my surprise the movie is fantastic.
So we went in to the theatre then a woman told us that there's an envelope below some seats, that's a prize frm the bank too, a lucky woman got it.
Next the movie starts, entitiled "Dororo" a Japanese fantasy movie.. The movie is great, nice. I found out that there's "Dororo 2".. hmm... wher to watch ya??
Aftr the show, then i realize it's a special cos it's nt showing in the cinema, and next decided to go to Matahari cos i'm looking for leather shoe and when i walk towards the elevator i saw Edwin i wanted to greet him but i can't speak it's too sudden, so i just smiled at him and when he saw me he was shocked and stepped backward.. i'm wondering why he's so shocked so i just left..
couldn't find any shoe there, so i went to hypermart to look for the toothbrush, i dun know which is it so i'll just wait for the next outing wif Nelly.
Then we go home!

The End!
bye...

"All good music resembles something. Good music stirs by its mysterious resemblance to the objects and feelings which motivated it."
-John Cocteau

*109

yohoo.. i'm 'still' waiting for my turn in the clinic, damn long!! I've waited for 2hrs, i didn't make any appointment and i dun knw when will be my turn. And i'm starving!! hungry.. i can't eat.. thirsty too!

Watched a movie here, entitled Penelope, quite good. To kill time, i'm typing words now, wat else can i do???
Huh.. lama x sih..

no quotes today, cos i'm using phone...

*108

hoohoho... time really run fast today it's July 1st alredy..
today is the 2nd day, my teeth are still in pain, yesterday the pain was around the molars and today the incisors i wonder how many more days will it take to adapt to it.. i can't bite nor chew, can't eat, it hurts even when the tongue touch it, it always hurt accidentally.. &my lips always dried up.
brushing teeth is the most difficult, i have to brush slowly, it hurts!!
luckily i heed the dentist's advice to get the upper part done first, if i'll get both done at the same time, i might be screaming now..
wahahha.. but this way good, i can't eat and my fats will be gone.. hhaha..
i like my braces, no ligatures.. &i plan get the lower part on July3rd..

>last night i had a very sweet dream, i felt so happy in the dream.. but in reality it will nvr ever happen and it is so impossible.. wahahaha..
>July8th come quick.. i wanna go out, i'm bored at home...

"The most dangerous of all falsehoods is a slightly distorted truth"
-Georg Christoph Lichtenberg