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While writing the title 366 it reminded me of the leap year! I kind of envy babies born on feb 29 it's a really special date and you can only celebrate your birthday once in 4 years but thinking about that makes it quite sad. Celebrating your birthday only once every 4 years while everybody else celebrates it every year. Poor thing! Anyway if given the chance I'd like to be born of Feb 29 and the best part I like is when you're asked for your age! "I'm 4!" "Who are you trying to kid?!" "My birthday is on Feb 29" "HELLA COOL"

I was in the ocean and I knew what I was going to do. It was replanting corals(is that even possible?I don't know). From that proccess I learned about the various dangers that might happen during the activity. It was really scary but I'm thankful for that dream for it gave me an idea of what my dream career would be like. It was only just a dream after all I'm not sure if those dangers are for real or it was all the product of my brain. The dangers that might happen make sense though- while you're replanting corals in ocean the fish hunters use illegal way to hunt fishes, for instance dynamite, if me and my colleagues are replanting and coincidencely the hunters will throw that dynamite on our place then we'll be blasted and there ends me. Well I can actually narrate how impossible that would happen but I just feel like sharing :)

And well what upsets me the most is whenever I'm having fantastic dream and before I could even finish it or when it's at its climax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's always either my mom wakes me up or I was awakened!!!! grrr.... T____T Why won't you let me finish???? So this morning my mom was the cause of my incomplete dream....
She woke me up and told me to go to temple to offer incense and buy vegan food because it's the lunar 15th and she wont be cooking. Honestly I still don't wish to wake up yet, I'm still sleepy. I knew I was really sinful for having no intention to go to temple at all but I really just want to sleep.

In the end I had to wake up and go unwillingly and calming myself all the way..
It gets over real soon anyway. I kinda felt lucky and thankful for I have been forced to go hahahaha...... After offering incense and while buying vegan food, a man with an old woman beside her, caught my eye.. wth.. He was all that I wanted!!! I mean I had a preview of what my dream partner I'd like to be.

Simply like him.

His hair was brushed up and its length just fits, not too long nor short. I like this type of hair.
He was wearing glasses. This almost convinced me that I'm more attracted to guys wearing glasses but to me it's just a coincidence.
He was wearing long sleeve, lifted up to his elbow and long pants accessorized with a messenger bag. He was wearing shoes too. He topped my fashion criteria.
He was not bad looking(for me) he kind of gives an innocent vibe which I thought may be because he was with his mother. The food seller had a casual chat with them and I just like listened to everything. hahaha... He's the youngest child. Even the food seller auntie complimented him handsome! Of course! I can't remember his face though.. Judging from the way he speaks I think his personality is not bad but really we can't say it for sure.
If my lifetime partner would be someone like him with a super nice personality I'm willing to wait.. I'm willing to not have any boyfriends yet at all before finally meeting him. Well, we just can't say. Nice to have a preview anyway...

by the way i've cut my hair short again and i'm a bit regret. i guess i look better with longer hairm. even dad doesn't like my new hair :( i want it to grow long asap!

and please.... do i really look old? :(

I don't deserve any good things at all. I'm aware. Very.

Many Months Later

We have all probably encountered the moment where you meet someone again after a long time of not meeting. That feeling of awkwardness and not knowing what you should start saying or do. That moment is this moment of me writing here.

After 9 months, I'm back.

I'm still me!!!!!

I'm back, my blog!!! I never missed you honestly! Well, but on several occasions I ever thought of writing but I just could not afford to! i'm super busy and what's more TWITTER is 24hours with me. Anything that happens can just be tweeted instantly!

I often have self-conflict. This is happening right now. I want to write really well and try to be professional but at the same time I want to make it a fun writing. I really don't know how to carry on... It's been almost 9 months since my last post. Let's talk about this year 0f 2011 before it ends.

I can't bear for the year to end actually. Has 2011 really been a good year for me? Well maybe yes but I can't really remember all those good things that have happened but I never forget the happy experiences. Maybe I have grown up, even it's just a bit. That bit of what is what that matters. I can't bear to leave this year is probably because this was the time I've learnt to put into practice of being grateful and content. Those two will really lead you to be happy. Well, although most of the time I still hang on words of discontentment in my mouth, I never let them get the better of me. They will not survive long and stay deep. Just Let Go.
Let's stop talking so mature. Gross.

So it's still holiday. I just returned from Singapore. Spent my Christmas with friends. It was awesome and this trip was the best of all trips to sg, it was different from last year if you'll read again my last post on Dec 30, 2010 and not only this trip is with friends but also my dearest family. I want to post some pictures instead of writing long and seemingly boring texts here but I'm just too lazy to upload. It's a miracle that I'm writing here.

I spent the first 4 days with friends. I remember which was the best meal we had and when was the best time we spent. My most ultimate trip to sg was actually buying clothes for CNY and I'm so satisfied with all those new clothes I've bought! I really have to thank DAD and MOM for being the nicest ever! Then I spent the next 2 and half day with family. There was a day with them where I got real mad. Not at them but at a special privilege. Can you imagine anyone getting mad at privileges? Obviously stupid right? Well, because of the word 'forcing'. We were given a $75 voucher for the tickets to USS. In the end they made me go with my sis. I never wanted to go to USS on this trip but I and my sis were like indirectly got forced at to have to go or the vouchers will be wasted. Anyway we went inside with my mind real mad. Never did I know we ended up enjoying the day there. At the end of the day, I regretted for being unappreciative and got mad at other people's kind intention. I hate myself for being unthankful. Even if I did in the end. Really sorry.
Another thing, you were my regret. You.

Ok, so tomorrow is New Year's Eve!!! I'm not ready to welcome the new year yet. Everything just seems to happen so fast and I can't keep up with it... Our big family will be having bbq tomorrow, I can't wait to gather! And I wish everything just go well. After the bbq I hope I'm able to rush down to jambu's home for a countdown. After all he has been trying to prepare so much. Let's not make his efforts go waste :)

What more should I write... Oh and I will not wish like "May 2012 be better" "A new me" and etc. Talking is lame. Have been saying those sentences since years ago but nothing just seems to work. Shall save my breath. Anyway my life is good now. I don't ask for more. Hao Kai Xin Oo!!!

And I'm so thankful to my parents. They have been so nice, now I really understand all that they have done for me. I wish they live a super long life so that I have the chance to repay them. Let this wish of mine come true please, nothing else really matters... LOVE YOU DAD and MOM

iThink it's enough. Till here. Let's see when will I come back again. love you everyone.. my friends.. are more than friends.

Meeting Ajahn Brahm

I don't know what good deeds I have done that my karma paid me so well.
I met Ajahn Brahm last night in person. I actually attended His seminar last night. I was actually thinking if I could make it, nevertheless, I made it!
Being able to meet Ajahn Brahm is the greatest honor in my life, when I saw him I really couldn't believe it. Oh Buddha what have i done to be able to meet a gem???

I listened to everything. I learned a lot from him. Keeping only good memories in your mind like how we always photograph the good memories but not those bad memories and that will not let us be reminded of the sad thing and let them hurt us again and to live happily. I also met Handaka Vijjananda , the founder of Ehipassiko Foundation. It was really the greatest honor in my whole life. Ehipassiko is the first foundation to produce Buddhism comics in the world and of course its books are fantastic. Ajahn Brahm also published his books through Ehipassiko Foundation. Yesterday Ajahn Brahm also launched his book 'Si Cacing dan Kotoran Kesayangannya 2'

I really saw that Ajahn Brahm is a very happy monk, he's quite funny too and I like him, he's now my idol. hahaha
He also said he is very happy as a monk, it's a simple and happy life. If my karma was better I'd have got the chance to buy his book and have his autograph on it and take a picture with him as well... but im contented enought to be able to listen to Him. If my karma is good, I'd like to meet him again and listen to his speeches. Thank you Ajahn Brahm, I really learned and am very happy since Ive listened to You...

I wanted to post some pictures I've taken of him but my karma wasn't good enough. The pictures are gone. Formatted. Anyway, the pictures will always remain forever in my mind.

Namo Amitabha

Wow.. It's like about 2 months plus. I have not been posting anything here. Well, I just signed up for twitter and I tweet there instantly and constantly instead of writing long paragraph here, maybe in the near time I won't be writing very much over here.

I have not been taking my studies seriously. I am getting lazier and I slack so much, really worried for my studies, and besides, I guess I'll have to take IPA- which has always been thought to have higher standards than IPS. But it's not because of that reason, I'm thinking of becoming an environmentalist (how cool is that?!?!) and it has more to do with IPA! stinky!!

I also hope that this city will develop into a better city please!! I am really tired of staying at home every weekends. I want public libraries and any organizations that I can take part in!!
Btw, our school has organized an educational trip to Singapore, I really look forward to it cos I shall take a creative technique media in filming programme, must be fun and I hope we do it not some boring lectures.
And by the end of the year I hope Im already 165cm or + pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

3 MORE DAYS!!!!

Avril Lavigne's 4th album!
I'm so excited for it and I am going to buy it!
I want the expanded edition, cool!!

2011

Happy New Year!!
To everyone, everywhere

May 2011 be a good year to everyone, everywhere!

My new year starts with a new great single 'What The Hell' by Avril Lavigne!
hahaha..... My first song in the new year and I'm LOVIN' it!!!

New Year's Eve!

Wow can't believe it's past 12, New Year's Eve!!!

I let my emotions ruled my head today. I was really mad that moment, I slammed the door not just an attempt, I hit it hard too. I was so upset but what upsets me more was that terrible attitude of not able to control myself. I told myself that today shall be my last day to get angry, get sensitive, to grouch and everything that heats my emotion cos new year is coming. I want to be good in 2011.

Today I am gonna write all about what I feel and after tomorrow, it's over. Everything will start afresh in 2011.

I don't like to be hot-tempered, especially towards my mother, sometimes she can really make me feel like yelling back at her. I know that's not right and sometimes I did it when I really can't stand anymore, but not in an extreme way. I hope to kick this bad habit and be more patient in the new year and just turn on a deaf ear. As for Dad, the guy who has the most patient in the family, Thanks! and love you! You are always generous in giving us $$$ . Kekeke.. Also lucks for bro in his college which has been his biggest frustration, and also to younger bro who has the weakest academic. As for youngest, I wish you can lose all your fats within few months before Chinese New Year! hahahahahaha.......... I wish for good healths and unity in my family in 2011. ♥

Dad and Mom

Younger and Older bro

Youngest and Yours Truly!

As for friends, problems only arises once in a blue moon and that's recently. I don't like it that they do not know me at all, after we've been such a long friends. Sometimes they say sorry easily without clarrifying problems, sometimes they should have known better to speak. I also hate that I'm always being left out whenever there's someone new. Like the times when we were on our holiday few days ago, they were so ignorant to think that I was being COOL? What The Hell. I was slandered to be cool when actually they are the ones not paying attention to me. They also give notices only when I ask. Well this is spared since it's not often. Sometimes it's also hard to buy things together since we all have different likings and tastes. They are more on not making much effort for gems, like they will only enter stores that have attractive stuffs. Not some sleazy stores that you could actually find gems in it. That's why I prefer buying my stuffs alone. It's also hard to ask them out, they do not really like the places that I'd visit, different views we share. I hope they read this so they will really know me. After all they are considered quite good friends. I don't like it that they crashed something I expect from them. You guys, please don't think that I'm upset just because I pull long faces.. my face is already like that since young, I also began to realize it recently. When I just keep silent, my face does not look friendly. I don't know why.. :D Also not to forget the good things from them are their interesting stories, especially yours! Yes, it's you! You know who you are. They are also good in making me laugh.

What is after family and friends? ............

Not to forget my beloved Idol, Avril Lavigne to release a new single on New Year '1+1+11=WTH'. Sounds coool! She will be releasing her 4th album too 'Goodbye Lullaby'.

1+1+11=WTH


Goodbye Lullaby

Also my SHINee ♥

Thank You for everything and everyone and Happy New Year in advance!
Best wishes for everyone, everywhere! See you in 2011.
chapter 2010
c l o s e d

Timnas lost the AFF Suzuki Cup 2010

I'm sure not only me- but everyone else had expected for a reverse outcome but who'd have thought TimNas lost the match tonight to Malaysia! I'm sure many fans are feeling dissapointed right now, but cheer up at least we played FAIR!
It was a 3-0 to Malaysia VS Indonesia last Dec 26th and tonight's result was 2-1. I feel so sorry for Indonesia, it wasn't a fair game to begin with. Indonesia could win actually, they missed lots of good chances. Anyway the players have done a good job in playing the game. Never let this makes them give up! I support the TIMNAS! You may not won but you are the BEST!


Striker: Arif 14, Gonzales 9 and Irfan Bachdim 17 develop a good chemistry playing together. Hahaha my favorite player is Irfan Bachdim 17. I felt sad for him, he was given the red card in the match with Malaysia, he seemed in distress afterward. You can see his pic above and here:

Good-looking eh! 22 years old and is already attached!
A descent of Indonesian and Dutch.

Last but not least, Congratulations Malaysia!
I saw you guys were really happy when receiving the trophy!
kekekeke....

When too much becomes a burden

I always believe in the joy of helping others until I grew tired of it. I'd love to help, but ferrying around really makes me sick. What's more I'm such an anti human's biggest threat: pollution, global warming, comet collisions, etc.
If I help you, wouldn't I be letting them down? They are my kins but I do not help them that way. You're not, if I help you, what would I be?
I am thankful for your much helps to me but this time I can't help you and I am tired of it.
If your safety is at stake, what about mine?
I don't like it this way, dissapoint you and most importantly, my belief.
Sometimes helping you is a burden to me, just this kind of help.

Happy Birthday, GS!

Happy Birthday, SHINee's Minho♥!

민호오빠, 생일 축하합니다 ♥

Happy Birthday!

♥샤이니

Happy Birthday, Mama♥!

November 28th today is my Ma's birthday!
Wishing her all the best! and loves♥

Happy Birthday 어머니!♥

Hello!

Fery and Yen Yen returned yesterday. We met them last night. I and Yen bought one identical converse t-shirt, quite expensive but we love it!!!!! Right Yen?

Today was great. Some of us including me started our fisika tuition today @ Pris's home. Just right today is her house opening party so we stayed there for 3/5 of the day. Pris ended the tuition earlier as she has her Korean tuition with Jacq. After the fisika, the rest sent the teacher off and went to buy the gifts for the event.

It is really convenient to have cars and being able to drive. Poor Christina has always been our chauffeur since she got her license.
Today was really great! Especially when the 4(EL, Yen, Dezy and Me!) of us spent our time on the rooftop while the rest went to buy the gifts. We took pictures and all that was heard was laughter. I will post the picture after I've got it from Edwin.
After they're back, we realized it was already dark...
We ate before the guests came as it'll be too crowded. After our meal we went for a spin.
Pris VS Chris!
After polluting the air Chris sent me , Hermanto and Juzz home.
Now I like hanging out in the evening.
Tuition will be on every Saturday @ Pris's place. FUN!

"Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts."
-Rachel Carson

Happy Birthday Andrian!

Happy Birthday Andrian!
Best Wishes for you.

He is one of the new student in our class. The tall and shy guy who shuns ladies he first met. That was what happened to me the first time I tried to make friends with him. He shyly snubbed at me. We became friends thanks to a project, that's when we started to laugh together with Joe whenever I sit on their place.
Hahaha, this guy is in love with my bestfriend!!!
We were all trying to help him win over her, teaching him some gimmicks to get near her. Well, as he is really a very shy guy. Anyway, Happy birthday once again!:D

Today went well, I made it to the flag ceremony on time this morning. I'd be detained if I had slowed down a few seconds. On my way to flag ceremony, he was behind me!

See ya!
I have to get into the books. :/
SHINee<3>

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."
-Bernice Johnson Reagon