New Year's Eve!

Wow can't believe it's past 12, New Year's Eve!!!

I let my emotions ruled my head today. I was really mad that moment, I slammed the door not just an attempt, I hit it hard too. I was so upset but what upsets me more was that terrible attitude of not able to control myself. I told myself that today shall be my last day to get angry, get sensitive, to grouch and everything that heats my emotion cos new year is coming. I want to be good in 2011.

Today I am gonna write all about what I feel and after tomorrow, it's over. Everything will start afresh in 2011.

I don't like to be hot-tempered, especially towards my mother, sometimes she can really make me feel like yelling back at her. I know that's not right and sometimes I did it when I really can't stand anymore, but not in an extreme way. I hope to kick this bad habit and be more patient in the new year and just turn on a deaf ear. As for Dad, the guy who has the most patient in the family, Thanks! and love you! You are always generous in giving us $$$ . Kekeke.. Also lucks for bro in his college which has been his biggest frustration, and also to younger bro who has the weakest academic. As for youngest, I wish you can lose all your fats within few months before Chinese New Year! hahahahahaha.......... I wish for good healths and unity in my family in 2011. ♥

Dad and Mom

Younger and Older bro

Youngest and Yours Truly!

As for friends, problems only arises once in a blue moon and that's recently. I don't like it that they do not know me at all, after we've been such a long friends. Sometimes they say sorry easily without clarrifying problems, sometimes they should have known better to speak. I also hate that I'm always being left out whenever there's someone new. Like the times when we were on our holiday few days ago, they were so ignorant to think that I was being COOL? What The Hell. I was slandered to be cool when actually they are the ones not paying attention to me. They also give notices only when I ask. Well this is spared since it's not often. Sometimes it's also hard to buy things together since we all have different likings and tastes. They are more on not making much effort for gems, like they will only enter stores that have attractive stuffs. Not some sleazy stores that you could actually find gems in it. That's why I prefer buying my stuffs alone. It's also hard to ask them out, they do not really like the places that I'd visit, different views we share. I hope they read this so they will really know me. After all they are considered quite good friends. I don't like it that they crashed something I expect from them. You guys, please don't think that I'm upset just because I pull long faces.. my face is already like that since young, I also began to realize it recently. When I just keep silent, my face does not look friendly. I don't know why.. :D Also not to forget the good things from them are their interesting stories, especially yours! Yes, it's you! You know who you are. They are also good in making me laugh.

What is after family and friends? ............

Not to forget my beloved Idol, Avril Lavigne to release a new single on New Year '1+1+11=WTH'. Sounds coool! She will be releasing her 4th album too 'Goodbye Lullaby'.

1+1+11=WTH


Goodbye Lullaby

Also my SHINee ♥

Thank You for everything and everyone and Happy New Year in advance!
Best wishes for everyone, everywhere! See you in 2011.
chapter 2010
c l o s e d

Timnas lost the AFF Suzuki Cup 2010

I'm sure not only me- but everyone else had expected for a reverse outcome but who'd have thought TimNas lost the match tonight to Malaysia! I'm sure many fans are feeling dissapointed right now, but cheer up at least we played FAIR!
It was a 3-0 to Malaysia VS Indonesia last Dec 26th and tonight's result was 2-1. I feel so sorry for Indonesia, it wasn't a fair game to begin with. Indonesia could win actually, they missed lots of good chances. Anyway the players have done a good job in playing the game. Never let this makes them give up! I support the TIMNAS! You may not won but you are the BEST!


Striker: Arif 14, Gonzales 9 and Irfan Bachdim 17 develop a good chemistry playing together. Hahaha my favorite player is Irfan Bachdim 17. I felt sad for him, he was given the red card in the match with Malaysia, he seemed in distress afterward. You can see his pic above and here:

Good-looking eh! 22 years old and is already attached!
A descent of Indonesian and Dutch.

Last but not least, Congratulations Malaysia!
I saw you guys were really happy when receiving the trophy!
kekekeke....

When too much becomes a burden

I always believe in the joy of helping others until I grew tired of it. I'd love to help, but ferrying around really makes me sick. What's more I'm such an anti human's biggest threat: pollution, global warming, comet collisions, etc.
If I help you, wouldn't I be letting them down? They are my kins but I do not help them that way. You're not, if I help you, what would I be?
I am thankful for your much helps to me but this time I can't help you and I am tired of it.
If your safety is at stake, what about mine?
I don't like it this way, dissapoint you and most importantly, my belief.
Sometimes helping you is a burden to me, just this kind of help.

Happy Birthday, GS!

Happy Birthday, SHINee's Minho♥!

민호오빠, 생일 축하합니다 ♥

Happy Birthday!

♥샤이니

Happy Birthday, Mama♥!

November 28th today is my Ma's birthday!
Wishing her all the best! and loves♥

Happy Birthday 어머니!♥

Hello!

Fery and Yen Yen returned yesterday. We met them last night. I and Yen bought one identical converse t-shirt, quite expensive but we love it!!!!! Right Yen?

Today was great. Some of us including me started our fisika tuition today @ Pris's home. Just right today is her house opening party so we stayed there for 3/5 of the day. Pris ended the tuition earlier as she has her Korean tuition with Jacq. After the fisika, the rest sent the teacher off and went to buy the gifts for the event.

It is really convenient to have cars and being able to drive. Poor Christina has always been our chauffeur since she got her license.
Today was really great! Especially when the 4(EL, Yen, Dezy and Me!) of us spent our time on the rooftop while the rest went to buy the gifts. We took pictures and all that was heard was laughter. I will post the picture after I've got it from Edwin.
After they're back, we realized it was already dark...
We ate before the guests came as it'll be too crowded. After our meal we went for a spin.
Pris VS Chris!
After polluting the air Chris sent me , Hermanto and Juzz home.
Now I like hanging out in the evening.
Tuition will be on every Saturday @ Pris's place. FUN!

"Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts."
-Rachel Carson

Happy Birthday Andrian!

Happy Birthday Andrian!
Best Wishes for you.

He is one of the new student in our class. The tall and shy guy who shuns ladies he first met. That was what happened to me the first time I tried to make friends with him. He shyly snubbed at me. We became friends thanks to a project, that's when we started to laugh together with Joe whenever I sit on their place.
Hahaha, this guy is in love with my bestfriend!!!
We were all trying to help him win over her, teaching him some gimmicks to get near her. Well, as he is really a very shy guy. Anyway, Happy birthday once again!:D

Today went well, I made it to the flag ceremony on time this morning. I'd be detained if I had slowed down a few seconds. On my way to flag ceremony, he was behind me!

See ya!
I have to get into the books. :/
SHINee<3>

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."
-Bernice Johnson Reagon

Supposedly to go to temples every Sunday but now I hardly go. I was awakened this morning upon a call that Dad answered. Dad was very worked up listening to the phone, I was sobered upon hearing that my uncle, the husband of my dad's youngest sis had an accident, he got electrified. A sudden tense arose in me. Dad rushed out. Good thing he was saved and brought to the hospital. Aunt must be devastated. Nothing should happen to him, his 3 children are still very young and there's aunt. Uncle is working for my dad, literally my dad was so worked up, aside from an employee of Dad, he is the husband of his sister. Should anything happen to him, it'd be such a tragedy. Well, I hope not. May Bodhisattva and Buddha bless him. Oh, he has a tattoo of Avalokitesvara Boddhisatva on his back, may he be blessed with that. The latest condition of uncle that I had is that he has regained conscious but unfortunately his hand got a very deep burn that causes a hole according to dad, his head bleeds too. I hope he recovers soon.

"Being patient means we remain firm even if we are afraid."

OCTOBER!

Allright, HELLO!
It's been a long time since I last wrote. I almost had forgotten that I have a blog.
So time passes really quick. Few weeks ago, I never bothered to have a look at SHINee but now I'm head over heels with them. They're cute and funny. At first I was only attracted to Minho but now I like them all. Gorgeous!

October has reached, in just another few months we'll enter 2011. Looking back, what have happened to me in the last 9 months? If you ask me, I'd say: "I don't know". One thing I'm sure is that I've wasted it in vain.

Let's go to my school life. My grades are like C or B, I gotta work harder as I've promised myself.
My classmates were good too, they're funny, I laughed a lot today unlike the other day.
I've been polluting the environment too. I was caught by a traffic police yesterday on my way to school, cos I didn't put on the safety belt. I thought I was able to avoid the police but he saw me and alerted me, brought me to the nearby post.This is my first time getting caught, I was panicking. I got fined, I told him I do not have money and let me get some at home, I was flustered on my way home. Dad and Mom didn't scold me, they gave me money to pay the fine. On my way back, the car hit the wall and was scratched. Time is showing 7:45. What a rotten day! So that explains why I got to school late. I went back to the post with Dad joining me. We managed to get a discount, well cos that's no different from extortion! Tears drop after I get in the car. Touched by my father's doing, no idea why.
Mom kept on harping at me cos I scratched her car and remind me numerous time to drive carefully. Well, I can only say sorry.
I made them lose quite a sum.

Uh, I'm hungry right now....
Oh yes, I'll be joining the teambuilding camp. I wonder if I've made the right decision by joining. I have a motive for joining. Will be held on the 7th to 8th.

"Education is learning what you didn't even know you didn't know."
-Daniel J. Boorstin

COUSINS

Since the arrival of my cousins and aunt, weekends passes very quickly.
and sadly, they're goin back soon, on Friday they will have left to Singapore...

My sis fell from stairs today, I saw the scene live and it scared me out. Good thing nothing serious happened to her, but because of cares she got chided.
Well, if you take a look at the positive angle it's actually good as they say "the youngs fell to grow, the olds fell to death."

"Success is achieved by developing our strengths, not by eliminating our weaknesses"
-Marilyn vos Savant

FEARFUL

Hi Everybody!


I just woke up from my 'mourning' nap. It was so strange that I dreamt my lover died while sailing, his ship sunk because of bad weather and strong waves. I dont have a lover. But I was really crying hard in that short dream. I didnt get the name and his face. It was really painful, felt so real and very hard pain on the chest. I was mourning and accompanied by 2 friends, he and she. She gave me a box filled with water and several leaves. She told me that water is from the sea, on the sot where my lover breathed his last breath. Oh I immediately burst into tears in my dream.

I think I know now what it is like to lose someone you love, forever.



Currently at home with 2 cousins, younger bro and sis.

Goodness, know what(question mark} 2 unknown man came knocking and calling on the window. They sounded harsh. For sure I know those are thugs. I was really scared , what if they will brge in How am I to fight There are no wea}ons at home. Gladly they left as we didnt gave a damn to those darns. I du not know who are them and I didnt see their faces as I was hiding in room. Good riddance to both you.

Hi Everyone!

July 5th, 2010.

My little cousin celebrated her 1st birthday today. Actually it's not today but on Wednesday (lunar date). If you still remember it's actually on July18th (not lunar).
It was so fun, I took pictures too and sorry can't share it.
Know what, I got myself a part-time job. As a waitress, but I only gets to serve when there's a wedding banquet. I'm still not sure whether I'm accepted, I think I just have to wait for their call. When I found out this good news I was so damn happy! I jumped around every corner of my house.


Today!

Hi.
It's been a week since my return from Malaysia. Not to forget, school has started for a week.
Brother has also started his college, he told us he's not coping very well , i think it must be hard for him.

2nd aunt and cousins are arriving tomorrow, I'm so excited. Finally I get to meet them, we're gathering. They only come once every 2 yrs.

Allright, let's move on to my school life.
Everything seems uneasy, probably won't be having a good time.
New classmates, new teachers.
Our new bio teacher can read palms. She read mine, she told me I'll have 2 kids, a long life, will work abroad and the inital of my life partner is V.
Wow.. I don't know if this is true but I think it's cool. If it's really V, I hope the name will be something like Victor, cool yeah!

He came to our school. I met him again. That feeling came back........(continued in my home book)

I'm very sorry because my paragraph isn't good. I really wanted to write but I don't now why I didn't do it well.
I'm sorry I lost the touch.
I'm having mood swings.

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
-Lewis Caroll