Weather: gloomy the whole day
Moon structure: crescent

This could be my last post for this month. I will be preparing for the national exams on 29th which is just another 9 more days to go.
Now I get so obsessed in doing the UN exercises..

Had breakfast at Penuin with mom and dad this morning, this is such a rare. On normal weekends, you won't be able to catch me having breakfast with them. The reason why we had breakfast is because I'm having tuition afterwards.
After eating, off to Nelly's home. After the tutor had arrived we began the lessson.
Luckily, we talked about birthdays and Nelly reminded me that tomorrow will be Edwin's birthday. It slipped my mind...

Disasters aren't so disastrous if we tackle them a piece at a time. Also, the sooner we recognise what we stand to gain from the experience, the easir it is to deal with.

I found a song and fell in love with it. Although no one has ever make me feel like the lyrics yet/.
A little love by Fiona Fung

Greatness as you
Smallest as me
You show me what is deep as sea

A little love, little kiss
A litlle hug, little gift
All of little something. these are our memories

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel that love is true...
You always stand by my side,
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love.
Oh! Kissing you...
Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

(back to top)

Yes I do, I always do...

Make me cry,
Make me smile
Make me feel that love is true
You always stand by my side
I don't want to say goodbye.

You make me cry,
Make me smile,
Make me feel the joy of love
Oh! Kissing you...

Thank you for all the love you always give to me,
Oh! I love you...

To be with you... Oh! I love you...

"If you never have a dream, you'll never have a dream come true."
-As the song says

Canon powershot SX200is



Canon rebel-Xsi



Canon Elph SD1100 IS




Canon eos 1000d




Nikon coolpix S70 touch screen



Aren't those gadgets simply cool?
I want all those cameraaasss. Powershot for capturing the nature and digital cameras for taking pictures on events and myself.
How should I get them? And I can't possible buy all the cameras at a go though I really like all of them.
I must get a camera this year and I don't wish to rely on my parents, I want to buy with my own money. All of you, stop there and wait for me!!!

It's past midnight now, so my post today will be dated as 13th of March.
School for us is no longer dismissed at 4 but at 1. After school today, decided to go to Pizza Hut for lunch on the last minute. I'm so famished, can't stand it. Along with Jacq, Agus, Chris and Juzz we had lunch at pizza hut. Agus also chauffered us home. Thanks:D
I get hungry easily these days, what's wrong?
It rained today and I was so happy. First is when it pours then it'a a dark and cold day. Second the plants and grasses alongside of the roads get watered. those grasses have withered and turned brown because of the nasty weather.
Please don't die my precious plants and do grow the more the better.

Mom told me something that had just happened over my relatives. I really am at loss of what to say. I can't say it here it's a yeah a bit confidential. I just don't want to say it here and it seems like history is about to repeats itself again. What will happen then? if it will blow up then it'd be a disgrace and if won't blow up ever again and just fade then it's a happy-ending I supposed? Huh, I really hate these kind of problems and I don't want to get involved. Readers, if you're reading this, please don't jump to conclusions, it may not be appropriate cuz I myself have no idea what' going on too. I wrote these because my instincts tell me to do so and the problem is not just one.
All I want to do now is to focus on my upcoming national exams and achieve good grades. I must get high scores, strivee!!!!

A friend today shared about his daily life. My heart really goes out to him after learning it. I wouldn't be able to lead such kind of his life, definitely. Now I know why some people would rather choose happiness rather than money. So what if we have tons of money but we're not happy at all? I used to detest his attitude of defending himself even if he's in the wrong. He always insists that he's right and sometimes it really gets on my nerves and I feel like giving him a:"hey you, shut up". Now, I find him pitiful. I'd try to make this ambiguos because that friend does not want to be revealed. Actually if you're quick-witted, you might be able to guess who.
I told him if I were him, I'd have runaway from home and he merely replied: "I you were me, you'd learn just to stand...!@#$%". I've forgotten the words but it says something like "You'd learn to get by", "you'd learn to bear" something like that.
I know this ain't happiness at all, I wish that someday you can truly find your happiness. Someday happinness shall belong to you:D
With a condition, and that's if you're reading this.
Want happiness and peace? Do more good deeds and stop doing bad deeds and the most important and powerful of all is to SMILE*(widely)

May all living creatures be happy!

I can forgive myself when I make a mistake. However, I'm unable to forgive myself if I keep on repeating the same mistake."

heart problems at blows.

My mom fell sick. She was worse last night and got better today. She even cooked a very spicy stuff and gobbled them. Well, actually I was the one who gobbled down the spicy stuff. Taking spice+hot stuffs are my forte. I wish my mum a speedy recovery.
At this time, I should be in bed but I had some problems today and I wanna write it here.....

One of my friend is sharing her stories with me right now. She is feeling stressful.
No matter what, here's an advice: Don't be stress because they can make you ill.
Recently, I am very eager to take care of my health. I don't know why, but I just want the best for my body.
Maybe it's because health is the most precious treasure??
Brothers and sisters in the universe, take care of your health!
That friend who has the same initial letter of my name also told me about the other party's feeling of mine and that party's friendship.
I lost a friendship which used to be very important to me. Honestly, I miss the old days. Where I have a very close and good friend. Now we're no different from strangers. Now that I know, I will salvage this friendship again no matter what it takes and I'll never lose it.

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My heart is breaking into pieces! Yet nobody knows. I misses him a lot but there's nothing I can do to let this feelings be known.
No chances and no hopes. Hopes are trashed just by a few words.
If there is a chance, I won't hold back. I want to let him know I'm fond of him... since 3years ago. I don't expect anything back but I just want him to know my feelings. I don't want to keep this feeling to myself. I want him to know......
I want you to know.
Afterall it's a feeling that has last for 3 years, it's not easy to let go. For the rest of my lives I doubt I'm able to let it go.

This morning when I saw the both of them talking to each other, I was so envious of them. My mind was filled with the imagination of me and him like the both of them.
Which I always knew even if the sky falls it won't ever happen.
Sometimes I really don't want to wish for so much but maybe writing what I feel might be good.

I want you to appear and give me a chance to speak to you. I want to let you know what I feel.

Jim Warren's paintings!

Great works, aren't they?

1

2

3

4

I made a wish using the # 1,2,3 & 4 paintings. I wrote what I want but ain't going to post because they say wishes won't come true if you say them out.
To me that wish which I made today is the prettiest wish as well as dream in my whole life.
Another wish is that:
"I hope it will come true."

"My greatest happiness is not with me but with you who allows."

The weather is fiery eevryday, can't stand it.

Our school is having its birthday since yesterday. I only found out that tickets were to be used on the booths held yesterday. I thought we'll be using that today.. Wasted Rp15.000 for nothing! Well, I was forced.
Today was about dance and drama shows from each classes.
The activity in school today for the graduating classes were watching shows and then dismissal!
OMG, it's really unbearable hot..... 31degrees celsius at night.

I wanted to blog a yellow river, but when I'm typing I always have no idea what to write.
Alice in Wonderland is in cinemas now. I want to watch but not in cinemas...
The theme song by Avril Lavigne is just so great and she looked gorgeous in the mv.

I'll post the MV of the theme song Alice(underground) by Avril Lavigne:

"We live in the present, we dream of the future and we learn eternal truths from the past."
-Madame Chiang Kai-Shek

Night to Monday I dreamt of him. How I wished if that's not a dream, but reality.
Well, dreams are forever dreams while reality remains unchanged.

We finished our exams today. Finally I'm through with the term exams, but there are still some more to come...U.A.N.
Hanged out with some frens today; chris, vi, nel, juzz, agus and yours truly.
Agus had a car so it made us easier. After chem. exam, we checked into the faculty.
It was still early so we decided to go for a spin. We combed around batam centre and a trip to SGIA, but not into the school. The school is so quiet and I barely saw anyone there. My first time to Global school.
It's still early so we went to kfc for drinks. Chatted and they had some drinks.
Then They played a prank on me. When I was using the toilet, they left me behind and got into the car and even drove off but still prank is prank. Then he stopped and I got into the car. :P
We went to look for her house.. hahaha just looking around. sshhshsh!!
Off to nh next, agus wanted to buy some stuffs so we accompanied him. Then we played billiards. I won't go to that darned place ever again.
Had our lunch afterward then accompany agus buying his stuffs and next to happypuppy.
Sing~Sang~Song~
My bro came to fetch me, and Agus's car broke down so my bro helped him.
And I got home.

Very lazy to elaborate, so not in the mood to type.
I'll just stop here... I'll write what's happening if I have the mood, tomorrow.

"Try to become not a man of success, but try rather to become a man of value."
-Albert Einstein

Last day of lunar new year!

Today is the 15th in lunar new year, the last day we celebrate the chinese new year.
After today, life really starts. I will make good of my words.
Not much to write today; just wanna write some greetings to everyone here...

Happy Lunar New Year!
In this year of tiger, may you be able to face life bravely like a tiger no matter what happens and stay strong and as fit as the tiger.
ROARR!!!

We haven't finished our exams yet, there are still a few more days to go and after that then another 3weeks to UAN. Frankly, I'm so looking forward to UAN. I wonders what it feels like and I got to do my very best tp pass with flying colours. Certainly, I must work harder to get 32,01 for the 5o% off fees:D.
God bless me!!!!

Tomorrow is a holiday, the Hinduism's event not sure what is it.
Last night while studying for the exams, I drew a lion dance. So proud of it:DDDD.
After school today, we planned to have lunch at "Lily's Yongtauhu" but then thanks to justin we didn't get to eat it. I've been waiting for the chance to have that you know... so much for my efforts.
Then we decided to have our lunch at La Costa. Well, actually it's justin's decision and we just followed him. He made the decisions for everything.
There are 4 of us Vivi, justin and brot(Eka). After some trips, we arrived at La Costa. This is my first time here. What else could it be but just an ordinary restaurant where you eat your meals. Justin wanted to have steamboat, I and Vivi were busy watching the tv, the movie was great. Vivi says it's "The Mummy Returns".
We started watching when it's about to end already, I'll look for the movie.
While Eka, he was reading a comic and justin gets frustrated. He's such a pester. So loquacious was he got my feathers ruffled.
We had tom yam steamboat, it's too expensive. We shouldn't have had it.
After the meal, we went to justin's house to rest and I found out that "Angel Lovers" is now on air! Now I can watch Remus Kam on tv:DDDD

After a while, Juzz's mother came home then we were too awkward to stay too, so we went home. I went on my own path and I don't know what's with the both Vivi and Eka.
Then I watched "Angel Lovers". Seems like not bad.
Then my sibling came home from school. After preparing themselves, my big bro and youngest bro went to punggur along mom. There's an event in the temple at Punggur.
I just finished watching "Unexpected Access" & "American Idol" and here I am now.
It's quite late already now....
What should I do tomorrow?
Studying?!?! Yeah, maybe. I have no more time left.

My hair smells so fragrance today and I'm lovin it...
I'm singing..
Alice(underground) by Avril Lavigne
Tripping out
Spinning around
I'm underground, I fell down
yeah, I fell down

I'm freaking out
Where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now
You can't stop me now

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it
I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet again
Is this real?
Is it pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, I won't cry

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, and I won't cry
...

Awaiting for "Alice in Wonderland"!

"Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act."

School Exams

We started our 2nd term exam today due to many reasons. It's too quick frankly but doesn't matter to me. The faster the better.
Aside from exams, the tryouts are also included. Subjects in tryout won't be given in the exam. The grades are from the tryout results.
Had bahasa tryout and ppkn exam today. I am quite confident of my answers in bahasa. I read everything thoroughly and carefully. If nothing goes wrong, MAYBE I can get a 7+ above. While PPKN, I'm done within less than 40minutes. *laughs*

Will be having mtk tryout and maths exam tomorrow. The mtk tryout is currently not a problem to me. I fear mtk so much that I started practising exercises last night and again after I got home from school today until now. As for maths I haven't revise a single thing yet. Maths about permutations and probability. I loath probability so much. What the hell asking the probabilty of rolling a dice thingy.
I'm perspiring all over now, it's so hot here.
Allright, time is too precious won't waste anymore time here, I'm going to revise maths and I won't be posting blogs anymore before the exam is over, probably.
So see you next time.
buhbyee*waves*

"Talent hits a target no one else can hit; Genius hits a target no one else can see."
-Arthur Schopenhauer

7th day of the lunar new year

I planned to wake up early today for jogging and some exercising.
Who knows when my alarm rang, I turned it off and continue my sleep. I'm so hopeless.
I read the newspaper it says jogging is good for health, I know that.
Maybe some another day.



I went to nh at noon. Like I've said, Juzz and Pris are celebrating their birthdays.
Bought tickets for the "Little Big Soldier" at 2:15pm. After buying tickets, we went to 2 9 or 29 whatever. Hye rin, Pris and I played billiards and the rest just sat and some went to buy gifts.
I remember that the first person who introduced me to billiards was Vilia.
I can hold the stick better now than before.
After billiards, we went to tunas baru for the meal.
Nothing special happened there, were just having our meals as usual.
By the way, the birthday boy (in advanced) fell and hurt his ... I don't know which part is it. He has been walking in difficulties and kept on ailing. His mood went berserk too. I kept on getting scolded and calling names.
Went to cinema afterwards, frankly speaking "14 Blades" is better than this.
Only that it's a bit hilarious.
Allright, lazy to elaborate about the birthday events.
All I know is that, I'm very fortunate today. I saw him again.
How I wished at that moment everything stopped down but not me. This way I can walk over to him and do nothing but just stare at him.
Someone asked me why I didn't get jealous over what he's here for today.
I realized that now I know myself better. Being able to see him I'm also able to smile happily. Rather than getting jealous, which makes you unhappy and it's a sin why not just be happy? After all, a feelings that I on the one-sided developed for 3 years, do you think it's so easy to let go? Easier said than done.
Well, I don't want to give a hoot. I just wanna concentrate on what I should be concentrating now. Just freak out let it go(lyrics from song "Freak Out" by Avril Lavigne).
Lastly,
Thank You for asking me this, you know who you are. Thank you so much!
-birthday stories closed-

I went home quite early, bathed upon reaching home and finished some works.
Today is the day where we "lao Yu Sheng". I don't know how u call that, but our family didn't had it this year. Actually it tastes awful and i had a bit of it at Tunas Baru earlier.
We went out for dinner. I suggested A1!
Know why? I'll tell you.
There is a show there. "Ms.Elvin & Magic show".
Obviously, if you know me well then you'd know what I'm eyeing for. hahaha.
Maybe some of you know who Ms.Elvin is. I won't talk much about 'her'.
We went there. OMG, it's so crowded. We sat out of the border from the stage.
I really hate those people singing, I'm so not into their singings all I kept on wanting is stop everything and get on the magic show please you people there!
In the amidst of eating, finally the emcee welcomes the magician!
I went infront, but not too near the stage.
The magician is an old man. When he first appears on the stage, he brought a stick which he had lit fire on it and then a red handkerchief. He used the handkerchief to wrap the stick and guess what it turned to! If you can't guess, then .............
fine, don't guess.
Know what? He did the clothes changing too! damn I so love this, I got melted when I watched him did that. I suddenly have the urge to go on youtube!
Overall, the magic is quite good but the magician is a bit slow, after all he's an old man I understands and everything seemed disorganized and the stage was a mess.
After his magic show, I went back to our table and finish my meal.
My mom kept on sniggering at me, "You want to learn?", "Want to be like them?".
Of course. I want to be a magician, it's so nice you know performing tricks especially when you see the smiles and eyes poopping out from audiences. That's the effect! I know I'm NAIVE, everybody says so just because I hang lot of dreams around me. My dreams are as vast as the pacific ocean. I knew it and I'm glad of it.

Today was a fairytale~
CAn you feel this MAGIC in the air?
listening to Taylor Swift's.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not."
-Kurt Cobain

Finally I succeed in skipping school!
School started yesterday, I did not want to go actually but since we gonna have our exams on this coming monday I attended school for schedules and books.
We decided to not go to school today and we did it! Usually when I want to skip school there's never a chance as I'd still show myself in the school eventually.
We decided to not go to school today but to "bai nian" at friends home, my lil sis tagged along too.
I found out that only 13pupils attended the class today. All of us didn't attend only Edwin. How pitiful of him.
After my parent left to Punggur, Priscillia came to my home. After Jacq arrived off we went to Eka's home. When we just made our first steps, there's a guy in motorbike stopped behind us. The 3girls did not realize that, then I kept on looking behind at that man, he didn't came to us but watched us. I ignored him and it seemed like he's calling for us. After turning my head several time to look behind, I walked closer to the man and said: "Hey, It's Darsan". Then Jacq excitedly went over.
I never expected that I'd met Darsan today, what a surprise!
We chatted for a while and that freaky Justin came! Then together the 5 of us left to Eka's home after chatting with Darsan.
Arrived at Eka's home, Kelvianto and Christina were already there.
We "bai nian" at Eka's home, or should I say laze around?
We also decided to go to Jambu's home to "bai nian" but cancelled eventually.
Vivi arrived too from school, I thought she played the truant as there were no lessons, but it turned out that she got permission from the pricipal.
After a while, Princess Nelly came. I'm so dissapointed with her today and that freaky justin. When you both read this, don't ask me why. By the time when you ask me, I'd have changed my mind.

At Eka's home, his lil brother was the maled lead there, we were watching him.
Freaky Juzz got whacked by his lil bro. Serves him right!
Affter a while they insisted in going to NH, I didn't want to go actually, but still followed them in the end, stayed at nh for few hours.
Then we went our separate ways. Jacq and Chris followed me home, like what we've planned, we're going to Kenny's home to "bai nian".
Received a blessing red packet from his mom, and found out that there's a new school opening this new school year. The school's name is Globe.
Know what? This school's facilities are awesome! What really amazed memost is that there will be a 'mini zoo'. Interesting isn't it?
Then there will be expat languages too. If there is SMA there, I'd definitely move next school year. I mean it! But there's no SMA, only SMK. So dissapointed, huff.

Pris and Juzz are going to celebrate their birthdays together tomorrow.

"It is not the quantity of the meat, but the cheerfulness of the guests, which makes the feast."
-Edward Hyde

The Chinese New Year was not as fun as what I wanted.
On the 1st and 2nd was quite ok and then nothing.
May the next Chinese New Year get better and merrier like before in my childhood days.

Listened from the readio that in this year of Tiger, will be a pleasant year for the pigs(12th zodiac). In this year, you can pick up a new skill easily and ...... I forgot. All I can remeber is that it will be a good year for the pig.
I'm one of them!:D

Planned to go out today, but at the last minute, I don't feel like going anymore. Juzz kept on threatening me, so in the end I went there for the sake of food since my mom didn't cook.
Arrived there with my body wet, it's so hot. My legs got sore, I shouldn't have came.



Watched "14 Blades"

I LOVE this movie alot!
This is the kind of movie that I'd love to watch.
SAD-ENDINGS.
I prefer sad-endings because though in the end I myself get sad too, there's a feeling of "I am always here, for you" something like that. I also can't explain how I feel. So nevermind if u don't get it, but just don't misunderstand it. Aside from sad-endings, also out of the blue it's the end already, yeah something like that!
Happy-endings are unsatisfying there are no feelings in the end, that's what I don't like.

After movies, I was so fortunate to meet him. Never did I dream to ever see him again, that one of the happy occassion today.

I'm so happy that I get to watched this, it's such a great film you know!
Go and watch, definitely worth of it.
Wu Zun looked dashing in his role.



And my long time no see Idol


Zhao Wei

Few years ago when I was still a kid, I loved her alot.
From her drama series "Huan Zhu Ge Ge".
I haven't seen her movies for ages until today "14 Blades".
She's still my idol till now:D.

Happy Occassions today:
- watched a fantastic and the kind of movie I wanted
- I met him, we walked past each other with a barely 10cm gap:D

Still vexing over tomorrow, should I turn up to school or not?
I hope UN will arrived soon and then get over it.

"The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak."
-Hans Hofmann