EARTH HOUR 2013

Earth Hour is today. Action of turning off lights at the same time across countries for an hour to save our planet against climate change.

"Did you know that deforestation is responsible for up to 20% of all carbon emissions globally. This year Earth Hour has particular focus on forests. The WWF-Russia team reached 100,000 signatures on their petition for protective forests, which could be the catalyst to reinstate a ban on industrial logging in an area equal to twice the size of France. We've also started the world's first Earth Hour Forest in Uganda, to fight against 6000 hectares of deforestation that occurs in the country every month. Plus, we have many people planring trees as part of I Will If You Will challenges."

I DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO SAVE THE PLANET!

That's a very great news! I also think that Forest problem is a priority. Reconstructing damaged forests will make a huge impact to our planet. Start planting to allow plants to suck all the carbon, the cause of our planet getting hotter.

So Earth Hour in my country is done! I'm looking forward to next year! Hopefully more people will be aware of the great importance of this cause. And most importantly not saving only once a year but make it a part that you do everyday all the time.

Go beyond the hour!

Hye Rin came back last night so we went to meet her today. She is back to take her school documents and will go back to Jakarta at noon tomorrow. I can't recall if she had been back during these 3 years so I thought it might be awkward when I see her but to my surprise I enjoyed the day. No awkwardness and I can feel the bond.

With Hye Rin!

With my Nemoo

The Girls

With Dodo

I hope Hye Rin will come back again soon. Have a safe flight!

Last night in my dream I met my love. That feeling was incredibly genuine. We were talking and it was the first time we met. But when we began talking it feels like we have known each other very well inside and out and have been together for very long. Looks like we have forgotten each other and then meet again and our love comes back. Maybe that was our rebirth? I felt how strong the love. I have never felt so real in my dream, it was too real. When I woke up I felt like you have entered my life and I can't recall. Or I haven't.



Only pictures with me in it belongs to me.
Otherwise all pictures are not mine. 
Credit: Google 
This post only.

Almost over

I get the urge to write since last time and only able to do it now. I want to write to express myself and at the same time record some stories so in the future I can read them again.

This year I'm turning 18 and I can't believe it, can't accept it. I'm almost finishing the first phase of my life: growing, attending school, everything happening in teen life. I will be through with teenage years soon. I am scared.
I am very sad that I will be officially done with school FOREVER in less than a month. I can't imagine what can I do after school. Moving to the 2nd phase of life: going to University, working, competing with time and world and all those stuffs that are stressing and burdening, I can only fantasize about having 3 more years in school.... I will miss having long school holidays, excitement in every beginning of a new school term, carrying my school bag, greeting my teachers, chit-chats with my friends during free time, hang out with buddies almost all the time, doing homework and studying. I have not had enough of school life yet and all these are disappearing forever.
I feel so miserable getting over school.
I want to cry.

I should be planning for my university but it's the last thing I want to think about. I know what course I want but I can't make a choice which University should I attend, which one is right and suitable for me. I want to continue my studies in Singapore but firstly is the financial problem. Secondly even if my Dad could afford it, is it worthy? What if I can't apply a job there after graduating from my bachelor degree and ends up coming back here to work, it will be a waste of money. Singapore is restricting foreign workers so you can imagine how hard it will be to get accepted for jobs, I don't want to take that risk. I don't want my Dad to work so hard for nothing. But I truly want to be at Singapore!

If I remain here the course that I want is unavailable. I want a bachelor degree in International Tourism but there's only a diploma in Hospitality with a duration of 3 years. In other countries a Diploma doesn't take so much time! A big waste of time. I want tourism which is more than about hospitality. Still this is the most highly possible choice for me as in the near time I will need to make a trip to this University to ask about the possible program of getting a bachelor degree abroad(after I'm done with the diploma), in Switzerland, which I'm still unsure if they are having that partnership. If yes, I will remain here and hopefully after 3 years taking diploma, my Dad can provide my school fees and some living expenses in Swiss which is only for a year. This is so far the best choice I have. IF

Another alternative is studying at Bandung. Bandung offers good qualities: with its tourism school owned by the Ministry of Tourism makes it a government school, a bachelor degree program, reasonable price, recognized and reputable. All my Dad's friends recommended this to me when they learned I wanted Tourism. Initially I got interested but I have a problem with its not being International. I want my studies to be in English. I want a cert that is globally recognized, it simply is if they are in English, right? Tell me if I'm wrong about this. Another problem is Bandung turns out to be a big city when I looked at the map, I am used to living in small city so I worry living in a big city. How do I go from one place to another with its not yet fully developed and inefficient public transportation? What if I get lost? What if I can't cope and not getting used over there? What if I can't stand life in Bandung and decides to come back before graduating? I can't imagine. I have too many What Ifs

I can't be bothered yet. Just going with the flow until I'm done with the National Exams. I hope that we, all SMA 3 IPA&IPS (2010-2013) students will pass the National Exam. All 34 of us will definitely make it! Let's strive hard for the last time in our lives for school.

 

And after we are done with national exams we will to go to Malaysia for 5D4N on 22nd of April, I'm so excited! It has not been confirmed yet but we have made bookings.
CAN'T WAIT! 



2 more days until we finish UAS
Our National Exam will be on 15th of April



Picture on the top belongs to me 

2nd day

"To me, a bestfriend is someone who always comes first in your mind whenever you have something to say to, something to do with. You be who you are and is not afraid to show the ugliest side of you to him/her. He/she is someone you're not afraid of telling the most disgusting to. You share everything with a bestfriend. In my image bestfriends rarely fight and the're always together. Like miley and lily."

I read a friend's blog last night, not an ordinary friend. I have not found the aprropriate word yet to describe what kind of a friend is he to me. Bestfriend is not worthy enough to describe him. Then I found the definition of bestfriend that I wrote to him and when he asked me some time ago. That moment when he asked for the definition is still vivid in my mind. That poor friend who is suffering from friendship problems all the time. I don't know why......

This is for him! :)

Finally saw Granny today! She just hugged me the first thing she saw me. She has not changed physically, still strong and full of spirit. That's why I love her! My aunt in Taiwan is a very nice person, she has spent a lot to buy things for us and even gave us her nieces and nephews all red packets! All from her hardwork money. Thank you Aunt :)
Granny bought lots of candies!!!!!

My favorites!

Spent the day at granny's

I WANT TO HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know I just want someone that I can share everything with, my feelings and everything. I want a man that is always there for me, cares for me, true to me and loves me... as much as I will love him. A man that his arms are always open wide just for me, whose lap I can always comfortably lie on, a man who will always brighten my days and make me laugh, a man that is willing to piggyback me, trying all his means to make me happy, sincere towards me and respectful to everyone. A man that can improve my life quality. A responsible man. A capable and wise man. A grateful and contented man. A kind-hearted man.
And a man that makes me want to be with him for all my life.
I hope I will have someone like that in my life.

 

Will be going to Singapore tomorrow to take my last jab. I wonder if the medical centre is open, I guess it should be opened by tomorrow... or it will be a wasted trip. 

Excited to go shopping!!!

First Day of the Year

After updating my blog last night, today I'm tempted to write again. I feel like doing it again probably because I have a chance to. It is holiday and I don't have to do anything.

My Grandma is back today!
We planned to straightly visit her today after we are done but we didn't manage to, all thanks to the traffic jam! It was the sickest traffic jam I've ever encountered. Stucked for almost 2 hours and it was painful sitting in the car! We had to squeeze on the seats. My butt hurts.



On this festive day, me and my family went to the greatest bridge in town. It is a very common place for us that live in this town. We just went there to have feast, talking about feast, I really dread it now.
I almost have it every month... I just learned the word sluggish and that's how I feel right now. The feasts make me feel sluggish. I need to avoid them as I've made resolutions hahah. The restaurant we went today is so deep inside that travelling inside takes about 20-30 mins and there were no roads but just a big piece of land. We met my parent's friend. It was not my first time meeting them. I'm happy that a acquaintance was friendly. It is something small but brings me happiness that can last for a long time. I really love strangers/acquaintances that are friendly!

Saw a few things that made me feel grateful.... All my life I just want to live contentfully and be grateful for everything. If I want a pair of shoes when I don't need it, I should remind myself there are people out there with no legs. So sad!

And we only reached home when the sky has darkened.




Will be seeing granny tomorrow!

Thankful for today.






 Timezone: GMT +7

Last Day of 2012

 As today is the last day of the year, I got perked up to write again on my blog.
You know, I just don't have the time to update, writing long paragraphs and posting pictures.
 When I make a post I want it to be a really perfect post. With pictures, at least 3-4 paragraphs and several topics. I rather not update if I can't come up with a perfect post.

Spent this new year eve with family. We just had grills for dinner. Grilled fish, chickens and sausages. I ate too much meat and my intestine is gonna have a hard time digesting it :(
Similarly like the others, I have made my new year resolutions but it is more focused to body&health. For the past months I have been hearing cases of people dying from cancer and contracting terminal diseases. I feel that everyone should be aware of the importance of being in a good health. If you are suffering from terminal diseases, imagine how painful are you gonna go through, how helpless and sad the people around you will get and all there's left is just regrets...
It's not about fearing death, but wouldn't it be much more better to die instantly than to die miserably?

I no longer added exercise because I have already joined a Volleyball Club! Our trainings are 3x a week.  I even clearly remember the day I joined: Last May 16th. This is one of the happiest things that has happened in my teen life. I really love this sport. I have been active in the club for +/- 5 months and my primary coach is a Chinese, fortunately, which is a very big factor that decides if it's possible for me to hang in there. Without a Chinese, I couldn't even. You know, ethnicity plays a big role. You learn that in Sociology. I have taken test twice, the test is done every 6 months. I have shown improvements, it is not something to be happy about, it's just normal. I hope on the coming tests ahead I can fare better and reach an outstanding target and carrying a little wish to be able to play in competitions. They don't have to be big(yet) and I hope all my efforts in training will not be wasted, I must perfect all the techniques. I will work hard!
Honestly, joining the club has also caused some disputes between me and my family. I hate to say this but it's a fact my family are so unsupportive! unreasonable! They chide me over things that are not bad at all. FOR WHAT'S SAKE? This family....... sigh sighs///

 
We no longer have a maid now and my task is added: to mop the floor everyday.. I swear I hate it very much. I hate houseworks! I've had enough of it! Since the age of 13 I have been doing the houseworks, it has robbed me my precious time. Sleeping time and study time mostly, which are the most important times of a teen life. Made me and my mom fight, me and my sister fight! Sigh... life's like this, houseworks alone have caused me some unhappiness, some grievances, some sorrowness. It is the greatest source of all my sadness. And there are just some things that you can only keep to yourself.
I swear houseworks is one of the things I hate most in life!!!

It has been raining since the morning and persisted until 8, gladly it has stopped and everyone can have a fun countdown now! 2013 is now only 1.5 mins away! I dont want to miss it! This post must be published before 2012 ends. Honestly, this is the first time I couldn't bear for the year to end. I will miss 2012 where the most epic news about the end of the world did not happen! hahaha. I am much more aware of every moment this year which makes time unwasted. A truly unwasted year!
The fireworks are so merry outside! I love fireworks!!! Just one of the prettiest things in life <3 br="br">



Finally my Grandma will be back from Taiwan tomorrow! She's been away for months. Missed her very much!Can't wait to see her soon!


Lastly I just wanna wish everyone, 

(in line 42, I filled 1.5mins away just when I'm about to submit my post)
Do not mind the date because the computer time was not properly set. I tweet by my clock :)
Some photos are not mine.

Page 7 Of 366

While writing the title 366 it reminded me of the leap year! I kind of envy babies born on feb 29 it's a really special date and you can only celebrate your birthday once in 4 years but thinking about that makes it quite sad. Celebrating your birthday only once every 4 years while everybody else celebrates it every year. Poor thing! Anyway if given the chance I'd like to be born of Feb 29 and the best part I like is when you're asked for your age! "I'm 4!" "Who are you trying to kid?!" "My birthday is on Feb 29" "HELLA COOL"

I was in the ocean and I knew what I was going to do. It was replanting corals(is that even possible?I don't know). From that proccess I learned about the various dangers that might happen during the activity. It was really scary but I'm thankful for that dream for it gave me an idea of what my dream career would be like. It was only just a dream after all I'm not sure if those dangers are for real or it was all the product of my brain. The dangers that might happen make sense though- while you're replanting corals in ocean the fish hunters use illegal way to hunt fishes, for instance dynamite, if me and my colleagues are replanting and coincidencely the hunters will throw that dynamite on our place then we'll be blasted and there ends me. Well I can actually narrate how impossible that would happen but I just feel like sharing :)

And well what upsets me the most is whenever I'm having fantastic dream and before I could even finish it or when it's at its climax!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's always either my mom wakes me up or I was awakened!!!! grrr.... T____T Why won't you let me finish???? So this morning my mom was the cause of my incomplete dream....
She woke me up and told me to go to temple to offer incense and buy vegan food because it's the lunar 15th and she wont be cooking. Honestly I still don't wish to wake up yet, I'm still sleepy. I knew I was really sinful for having no intention to go to temple at all but I really just want to sleep.

In the end I had to wake up and go unwillingly and calming myself all the way..
It gets over real soon anyway. I kinda felt lucky and thankful for I have been forced to go hahahaha...... After offering incense and while buying vegan food, a man with an old woman beside her, caught my eye.. wth.. He was all that I wanted!!! I mean I had a preview of what my dream partner I'd like to be.

Simply like him.

His hair was brushed up and its length just fits, not too long nor short. I like this type of hair.
He was wearing glasses. This almost convinced me that I'm more attracted to guys wearing glasses but to me it's just a coincidence.
He was wearing long sleeve, lifted up to his elbow and long pants accessorized with a messenger bag. He was wearing shoes too. He topped my fashion criteria.
He was not bad looking(for me) he kind of gives an innocent vibe which I thought may be because he was with his mother. The food seller had a casual chat with them and I just like listened to everything. hahaha... He's the youngest child. Even the food seller auntie complimented him handsome! Of course! I can't remember his face though.. Judging from the way he speaks I think his personality is not bad but really we can't say it for sure.
If my lifetime partner would be someone like him with a super nice personality I'm willing to wait.. I'm willing to not have any boyfriends yet at all before finally meeting him. Well, we just can't say. Nice to have a preview anyway...

by the way i've cut my hair short again and i'm a bit regret. i guess i look better with longer hairm. even dad doesn't like my new hair :( i want it to grow long asap!

and please.... do i really look old? :(

I don't deserve any good things at all. I'm aware. Very.

Many Months Later

We have all probably encountered the moment where you meet someone again after a long time of not meeting. That feeling of awkwardness and not knowing what you should start saying or do. That moment is this moment of me writing here.

After 9 months, I'm back.

I'm still me!!!!!

I'm back, my blog!!! I never missed you honestly! Well, but on several occasions I ever thought of writing but I just could not afford to! i'm super busy and what's more TWITTER is 24hours with me. Anything that happens can just be tweeted instantly!

I often have self-conflict. This is happening right now. I want to write really well and try to be professional but at the same time I want to make it a fun writing. I really don't know how to carry on... It's been almost 9 months since my last post. Let's talk about this year 0f 2011 before it ends.

I can't bear for the year to end actually. Has 2011 really been a good year for me? Well maybe yes but I can't really remember all those good things that have happened but I never forget the happy experiences. Maybe I have grown up, even it's just a bit. That bit of what is what that matters. I can't bear to leave this year is probably because this was the time I've learnt to put into practice of being grateful and content. Those two will really lead you to be happy. Well, although most of the time I still hang on words of discontentment in my mouth, I never let them get the better of me. They will not survive long and stay deep. Just Let Go.
Let's stop talking so mature. Gross.

So it's still holiday. I just returned from Singapore. Spent my Christmas with friends. It was awesome and this trip was the best of all trips to sg, it was different from last year if you'll read again my last post on Dec 30, 2010 and not only this trip is with friends but also my dearest family. I want to post some pictures instead of writing long and seemingly boring texts here but I'm just too lazy to upload. It's a miracle that I'm writing here.

I spent the first 4 days with friends. I remember which was the best meal we had and when was the best time we spent. My most ultimate trip to sg was actually buying clothes for CNY and I'm so satisfied with all those new clothes I've bought! I really have to thank DAD and MOM for being the nicest ever! Then I spent the next 2 and half day with family. There was a day with them where I got real mad. Not at them but at a special privilege. Can you imagine anyone getting mad at privileges? Obviously stupid right? Well, because of the word 'forcing'. We were given a $75 voucher for the tickets to USS. In the end they made me go with my sis. I never wanted to go to USS on this trip but I and my sis were like indirectly got forced at to have to go or the vouchers will be wasted. Anyway we went inside with my mind real mad. Never did I know we ended up enjoying the day there. At the end of the day, I regretted for being unappreciative and got mad at other people's kind intention. I hate myself for being unthankful. Even if I did in the end. Really sorry.
Another thing, you were my regret. You.

Ok, so tomorrow is New Year's Eve!!! I'm not ready to welcome the new year yet. Everything just seems to happen so fast and I can't keep up with it... Our big family will be having bbq tomorrow, I can't wait to gather! And I wish everything just go well. After the bbq I hope I'm able to rush down to jambu's home for a countdown. After all he has been trying to prepare so much. Let's not make his efforts go waste :)

What more should I write... Oh and I will not wish like "May 2012 be better" "A new me" and etc. Talking is lame. Have been saying those sentences since years ago but nothing just seems to work. Shall save my breath. Anyway my life is good now. I don't ask for more. Hao Kai Xin Oo!!!

And I'm so thankful to my parents. They have been so nice, now I really understand all that they have done for me. I wish they live a super long life so that I have the chance to repay them. Let this wish of mine come true please, nothing else really matters... LOVE YOU DAD and MOM

iThink it's enough. Till here. Let's see when will I come back again. love you everyone.. my friends.. are more than friends.

Meeting Ajahn Brahm

I don't know what good deeds I have done that my karma paid me so well.
I met Ajahn Brahm last night in person. I actually attended His seminar last night. I was actually thinking if I could make it, nevertheless, I made it!
Being able to meet Ajahn Brahm is the greatest honor in my life, when I saw him I really couldn't believe it. Oh Buddha what have i done to be able to meet a gem???

I listened to everything. I learned a lot from him. Keeping only good memories in your mind like how we always photograph the good memories but not those bad memories and that will not let us be reminded of the sad thing and let them hurt us again and to live happily. I also met Handaka Vijjananda , the founder of Ehipassiko Foundation. It was really the greatest honor in my whole life. Ehipassiko is the first foundation to produce Buddhism comics in the world and of course its books are fantastic. Ajahn Brahm also published his books through Ehipassiko Foundation. Yesterday Ajahn Brahm also launched his book 'Si Cacing dan Kotoran Kesayangannya 2'

I really saw that Ajahn Brahm is a very happy monk, he's quite funny too and I like him, he's now my idol. hahaha
He also said he is very happy as a monk, it's a simple and happy life. If my karma was better I'd have got the chance to buy his book and have his autograph on it and take a picture with him as well... but im contented enought to be able to listen to Him. If my karma is good, I'd like to meet him again and listen to his speeches. Thank you Ajahn Brahm, I really learned and am very happy since Ive listened to You...

I wanted to post some pictures I've taken of him but my karma wasn't good enough. The pictures are gone. Formatted. Anyway, the pictures will always remain forever in my mind.

Namo Amitabha

Wow.. It's like about 2 months plus. I have not been posting anything here. Well, I just signed up for twitter and I tweet there instantly and constantly instead of writing long paragraph here, maybe in the near time I won't be writing very much over here.

I have not been taking my studies seriously. I am getting lazier and I slack so much, really worried for my studies, and besides, I guess I'll have to take IPA- which has always been thought to have higher standards than IPS. But it's not because of that reason, I'm thinking of becoming an environmentalist (how cool is that?!?!) and it has more to do with IPA! stinky!!

I also hope that this city will develop into a better city please!! I am really tired of staying at home every weekends. I want public libraries and any organizations that I can take part in!!
Btw, our school has organized an educational trip to Singapore, I really look forward to it cos I shall take a creative technique media in filming programme, must be fun and I hope we do it not some boring lectures.
And by the end of the year I hope Im already 165cm or + pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

3 MORE DAYS!!!!

Avril Lavigne's 4th album!
I'm so excited for it and I am going to buy it!
I want the expanded edition, cool!!

2011

Happy New Year!!
To everyone, everywhere

May 2011 be a good year to everyone, everywhere!

My new year starts with a new great single 'What The Hell' by Avril Lavigne!
hahaha..... My first song in the new year and I'm LOVIN' it!!!