Today is my paternal grandpa's death annivesary after I got home from pemantapan, directly go to offer incense. After a while, it's time to burn papers so I together with dad we burn the sacred papers. I knew there's a crowd in Kenny's home, in the midst of burning papers, they are all outside. Hermanto saw me and called for me, I looked at him but didn't greet back as I was burning papers, no offence.
And saw Kenny himself, Edwin, Joe and the rest....... going out.

Mom isn't going to punggur today, we're going to granny's. Speaking of which, it's been ages since I last go on driving, so I pleaded mom to let me and had hard time pleading her before she agreed. I don't want to lose that skill. At first, quite distracted and soon getting the hang of it.
It feels breezy to sit under the mango tree of theirs, my aunt lives just beside my granny, so the tree is on the middle-front of their homes and under the tree lie chairs and cendol*.
In the chat, there's a part where I asked mom to buy a motorbike for me so that THE NEXT TIME I go out, I don't have to rely on them. Having cars is as good as no cars, unallowed to drive. She seems quite agree on it.
And I helped mom and aunt to pick out their grey hairs together with my sis. Aunt has the most grey hair. We also decided to go to bengkong to mom's cousin home to get some stuff. Talked about my studies and many. Lazy to elaborate.
Soon time passes and send granny home and off to cia-cia for my sis's clothes.
DAmn sleepy there, so boring and Eka's mom was there too.
I drove home again and created a mild disaster.

and lastly Happy Bithday to Kenny Lim!

"Look at everything as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time. Then your time on earth will be filled with glory."
-Betty Smith

a day with an old friend

I thought I'd be staying home for good today, but suddenly Jacq ask me out.
Lina is going back to Singapore tomorrow, so we'll meet her today and this means the reunion couldn't be held. I was actually looking forward to the reunion in her home, since there's no activity during the holidays but when I heard she's going back tomorrow, the reunion plan go busted.
I went together with Jacq to bcs, then we go meet Yap & Lina. They were having drinks on coffeetown, then we sat and chatted. After that go shopping around and stopped at cinema but in the end didn't watch any movies.
After walking around, we went to Gadeno. We sat there for a very long time and the service is really poor. Lina asks us to go to Singapore with her, she offers a good job there, S$25 for distributing 1000 fliers. That's very fine!
In the end I told her I'll maybe go if Jacq is going, pity her had been asking and talking for quite a long time... We sat for a very long time at Gadeno, nearly 3hours? Lina intends on going back cos it's boring here. But in the end we talked her out and will held the reunion tomorrow. It's a last minute decision.
Then go walk around and around and it's getting boring.
Soon I and Jacq left first, we went home together again. Thanks for the lift!
And now I'm here typing.
Going our for meal later with family and pemantapan again tomorrow. So tiring!
bye

9 more days to Macau!

"The greatest glory in our life is not in never failing, but in raising up everytime we fail."
-Nelson Mandela

lost a part of life

I told Vivi I can't go swimming today, my throat is not fine yet so I'll go with her next time. Though it's holiday I still did some revisions, so hardworking, hahaha..
Mom and aunts are going to BCS and I i tagged along, we went to fetch aunts at granny's home and chatted about the nowadays kids, I can't stop laughing when my aunt is making her remarks, she speaks so funny. Then we reached bcs.
I bought 2 blouses, love it! shopped around, quite boring.
After that we strolled around, suddenly a girl run to me and it's CHRISTINA! She came too sudden and I don't know what to say, she's in a rush she said to me "Why you come only now?" he's here you know! and i asked her where? she replied "gone liao.". lol! then she left hurrily. The mall is packed of tourists, a crowd.
Soon after a while, we go to penuin, it stinks and filthy and after they're done, we go back to granny's home.
My chubby cousins run and hugged me when they saw me, haaha they rarely do that.
Watched tv and browsed around. Then my bro called to say that the clinic gave me a call, I have an appointment. This day has come, I converse about my teeth with the doctor, actually I wanted to have slicing but the consequences is that for the rest of my life my teeth get sensitive if I drink colds and sweets. It's impossible.
So I had to go with the other option, I EXTRACTED my left and right tooth!
Good Heavens, it's not my gum that pains, but my heart!
What a pity! and the tooth that was extracted is a fine one! haihh..
No choice, if I don't extract them my mouth will go "monyong". After extracting them, my gum kept on bleeding until now, yucks.
How to stop the bleed?

And yay! 10 MORE DAYS TO MACAU!

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars."
-Og Mandino

EKA's BIRTHDAY Party!

Yesterday Eka had his 15th Brithday, he threw a party in I-hotel.
After class, some went to NH including the birthday boy and yours truly and too many to list the other names.
When I reached NH, they were having foods at Gadeno, since I had eaten and Juzz is not eating too we went to look for something for Yen, yes she's coming back today!
Bought a teddy bear and a necklace, I, Vi and Juzz shared the gift.
Aftermath, we go back to Gadeno and shopped around looking for clothes, shoes and Eka's birthday gift.


At Gadeno.


Birthday Boy before makeover

Edwin and the rest left to nowhere, Nel, Juzz, Chris and I went to buy Eka's gift.
Next we went to buy okoyaki and takoyaki before going to happypup, together Edwin and the rest joined. But in the end ended up only 4 people in a room, a chaos was brought up and a price was paid. Eka went home to prepare himself.
After a while, Yen arrived. I was the first to met her, haha... together with Pricil and Vi.
Back to happypup and after singing, the 4 of us went to look for Yen. The scene was quite complex, in the end Juzz, I and Yen were together. We wanted to pass our gift to her, but she doesn't want to accept, good grief the three of us walked around the mall with I&juzz pleading at her to accept the gift. No matter what we say, what we do she just refuse to accept the gift and want us to accept a little token from her.
Seriously we begged for 1hr++ and finally went for a drink at Godiva, soon after a while she FINALLY accepted our gift! whoa, I'm going to die of thirst soon. lol.
The rest then came, Eka was back. He turned to a prince, hahaha.
After a while we're all asked to go outside setting off to I-hotel.
I and Yen walked together without the rest, Yen is going to look for her mom first. While we're walking, Yen commented on a guy and when I saw that guy, BLOSSOMS!
aaaaaa, it's him!! We're passing each other face to face, I was so happy and what's more he's in his original form! So happy that I could not say a WORD!
Yen is really my luckystar, I had not seen him for ages, and now when Yen is back I finally get to see him. Well, isn't it that I decided to stop developing more feelings for him?
I can't, when I saw him I felt so happy and I decided to love him again. love? maybe not. I don't use the word love but ....
Juzz gave us a call, he stayed behind to accompany both of us to I-hotel.
We chat while walking and soon reached. I-hotel, 7thfloor TEA GARDEN!
We're the first guests to arrive!









And soon it gets dark




and the party soon starts!
There's buffet, menu and bbq!
Eka's relatives many had buffet and his friends, us took over the bbq.
We grilled satay, sausages and chicken wings!
after eating we took pics, the pics aren't with me, some also left alrdy.
Then they start to drink alcohol, Carlsberg? everyone drank except for me.




strolling at lobby waiting for cutting cake time!
and soon:





After singing birthday song, we ate the cake.
Some left after the cake and soon I was fetched too.

This morning when I woke up, oh SORE THROAT!
head was spinning too and still gotta go to school!
My throat is not getting better till now though I've drunk 3 litres of water today.
I must had too much bbq stuff last night.
MAYBE tomorrow will go swimming with Vivi.
Allright, bye

Lastly, Happy Birthday Eka!

"To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved."
-George MacDonald

last day of exams

So finally today is the last day of exams, the other classes had theirs done already, so only our class is still taking exams.
When I arrived at school, it was empty outside and inside, met Vivi and walked together to class and start revising.
We finished the exams very soon today, I wonder why but I guess because it's easy?
Holiday starts today for other classes except ours, we still gotta go to school for pemantapan for a week. Tiring!

Eka fell today while running to splash water at Josephine, it caught everyone's attention and everyone was laughing at him when he fell.
Tomorrow is his Birthday, and I'm going out finally!
I'm moulding, stucked at home for months.
Watched TV for the whole day and soon tomorrow is coming, why that fast?
anyway, I don't know what to write anymore.
see you again.

"Life's law is to meet and to separate."

a house party

My dreams were crashed, I was dreaming during the sleep this morning and it was such a nice dream, i'm getting to the final stage a step more and yet i'm awakened by some stupid reason! damnnn it....
Since i was still sleepy and it's not yet even 7 i went back to sleepp. I dreamt again, I know i'm dreaming and when it's going to its final stage by the way this is another dream the maid knocked real hard at the window calling me to open the door for her! Good Grief, what have I done to not deserve this dream?? Haaa....
I want to know why and what's happening, the dream is telling me and yet.... I'm so furious>.<

After showering, mom says that we'll be going to a house party of a relative's, she has a wedding dinner so only I&sibling shall go. In the end only I, sis&bro with granny go to the partyy. My granny's sister which is my greataunt is there, it's her family's party. I can't believe nobody recognize me, when they saw me they were like: what?!? hah?!? hhnnpp?!? and whatsoever. Well, because we didn't see each other for many years and the last time they saw me I was still a young kid and a super FATTY at that. A lot of relatives were there and whoa, there compliments were so sweet, Thankyou! hahahaha...
The auntie, my mom's cousin which is only 20years++ is there too, when I was a kid, while she's in her teens I liked her alot, I always clings on her and today she is different from her teen days too! She could not recognize me and COULDN'T believe I am what she saw. I really changed that much?
Everyone were like that when they ask who is this girl(referring to me)? Or when they are asking for me while I'm just right infront of them!
The party gets merry and merrier, we got home a bit late and exams are haunting.
Allright gotta go!

and by the way, Happy Birthday to Zen! He's turning 3.
Hope he'll grow up well and healthy!

bye

"It is often easier to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission."
-Grace Murray Hopper

stayed home today, it's been a dark day today.
Imagine 3 examns on a day on Monday, i'm hopping mad!
How could it be this way? As if we're genius.
I'm in a foul mood today, and getting better now.
I, Yen-yen and Juzz are having a conference chat now, nice to be chatting with them.
Yen made a pact with me, she PROMISED to be my friend in the present and in the future. Yes! I have a lifetime friend now.
Actually I know what kind of person you are, Yen. I just don't want to treat you the way you are.
What I fear most in the future is that I'll have no friends, that is my biggest fear!
But it's still the same if those friends are no decent.
I regretted for not cherishing a friend in the past, what to do? It's gone now, blame myself for everything. It's always too late to regret.
Had i known, I wouldn't be that way. If given the chance again, I won't let this thing happen. Forget it, what's gone is gone now.

Watching tv right now, so hilarious.
Nothing happeened today, so at loss of what to write.
Awaiting holidays!!!
Allright, let's just end it here.
seee youu again soon!

“Friendship with oneself is all important because without it one cannot be friends with anybody else in the world.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt

approaching holiday!

Finally i have a free time now. Exam had started since last Tuesday and another 3 more days to go, approaching holiday!
The exams today were quite difficult, >.<
When i got out from school, the whole sky was dark and it's about to rain. It began to pour after I'm home. Felt very bright after i got home.
I hope the sky will stay dark for the whole day.

I'm planning to go to Top100, so i ask my sis to go with me and everything was set. So the both of us go by walking together, we stopped at lotus and she went to buy her Christmas exchange gifts and next off we go to Top100.
My motive was to buy boneeto milk, searched quite a while but can't find. At last found the milk powder, considered for quite a long time before deciding to buy.
My sis is like an old granny, she nags alot! Right after we left the house.
Nagging at everything, so loso. lol!
After buying things, we walk around and i was disgusted in a store.
Lots of dead flies wre lying around the floor, a lot of dead flies were there. so unhygienic and disgusting!
After a while we walked home again. after we got home, i began to watch tv.
Today's ye zhong hui is so exciting! I went mad while watching, the illusions are damn greeaaaatttt and those acrobatics were fascinatingg.
AAhh, so fascinatingg!
oh, I want to learn the si chuan bian lian(mask changing), and ofc alot alot.
Going crazy soonn..

I was helping desy with her blog today, you can check it out now desy!
pardon me if i've turned it upside down, tell me again if u don't like it.
And it seems that one of my classmate is in a "duka" state.
Whatever it is, i wish everyone happiness and peace.

In a day there are 24hours, all i need is another 2hours.
I need 26hours a day.
allright, see you again!

"I had fell for you, and i'm happy of that"
:D

thursday thoughts

We are dismissed early again today, had some desk clearance.
We had our mulok exam today, quite ok.

Everyday i live life like the previous days, i get busy with studies and things in life. Too busy and too long to forget one certain thing in life. That is death.
Everday life goes on, when i thought i'll get old, it just seemed so impossible and so far away. Living still like a child everyday, i can't accept that this is just a little moment in life. I'm turning 15 next year and i don't want that. I want to be in my 14 forever, but i know that is impossible. How does death feel like?
As time gets by, i notice the things around me seem to get pathetic.
I miss the days when i look on the sky and the sky just seemed so close.
Now when i look on the sky, the sky seems so far away.
Stars are also unseen at night.
And what's worse is that it's getting hotter everyday, the heat is so unbearable.
I hope things just get better someday.
The old days which are already pictured in black&white will light up in colours again, things will get better like before.

"I was wrong about you."

Teacher's day

We are dismissed early today, i think part of the reasoin is because that today is teacher's day. Justin asked me out but i can't. They're going to watch twilight, new moon. I haven't watched twilight and now you want me to watch new moon? I just borrow twilight from hye rin today. After i got home, washed and prepared myself. I'm going out with mom.
We went to bcs, actually was to look for my jeans but ended up you know, when one sees something she likes she'll forget what she's there for. hahhaha..
We went to match, no suitable jeans there. Ended up buying a monkey style outfit, Agus said that kind of outfit is a monkey style outfit and mom bought a dress.
To the neighbor next, Setron. Bought a jeans. Shopped around and around and bought a book for UN preparations.
After buying clothes we went to Godiva for meal and go home.
Allright, no long details next.
Reached home and is going to sleepp now.

"Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness."
-Richard Carlson

bye!

swimming

I woke up this morning at 9++. Took a bath and cut my hair, fixed everything at 10++. Since there's another an hour to go, i did some revisions and waited for Vivi. I guess i was nervous, during revising my hands kept on trembling and i keep on looking at the time, unable to study well. The book i used for revisons was Eka's. He was so good that he specially delivered the books to me when i asked him to. I then received text from Vivi, she says she's coming. So i went outside to wait and saw Kenny's car, he's going already.
Soon Vivi arrived, we walked together to Primagama. It is very close actually. Walking only takes about 2-3mins. We saw a lot of people coming out from Primagama and hurrily walk. We stayed at the door and make a call to kenny, we wanted him to bring us in cos he was there alreaddy. The lady gave us a paper and we enter the Jupiter room. Inside i saw Tassya, Jacq& her cousin. They've arrived earlier.
After a while a lady came in and we began the test. There's a guy that looks quite annoying. He tied a rafia around his head, looks so ridiculous. lol.
100 items, consist of 4lessons for 2hours. Impossible!
My brain wasn't thinking at that time, i should have thought of doing 15 items per lesson and be sure of thOSE 15 to get 6.
They're all done and i'm about the last one to finish. No choice but to mark what's there. We then talked about the test outside Primagama, received texts from Claudia and Eka. Vivi is going with me cos we're going to Rachel's home together. She insisted that we took a ride from Kenny. Yeah, since i live so much close to him.
Hi auntie! thanks ya! bye!. those are the 3words we said in the car.

There's no one at home, everybody had left as usual. I finish all the works and Vivi is running around the vicinity to get her psp from Pris and to her brother. We both had lunch and off we go to Rachel's.
We ride on ojek to the Apartment. The security here seems a bit loose. If I and Vivi were terrorists in disguise, that apartment would have been bombed and hit the headlines!
Ting-tong-ting-tong. She opened the door and we went in, chatted with her and Nelly arrived. Vivi taught her maths and after she understood the lesson, it's swimming time! We changed to swimmingsuit and ito the water. I asked Vivi to teach me kodok style and i'm getting the hang of it. Next learning the sharp style jump to water.
Vivi is good in swimming, i lack of bravery and diddn't dare to jump into the water sharply. You know what, the hotel opposite the apartment is so full of lechers. They kept on looking at us and make some cheers. When vivi jumped into the water, they whistled. Wait till your boss catch you and you're all doomed. Nelly was not roght, she swam for a while and stopped and she was faraid that those perverts might think that we're prostitutes. Phey!
After swimming, we went to McDonald's for meal. It was dark already and the 4 of us walked to there. After meal, Nelly's mom took us home.
That's today.

"Everything that has been will be, everything that will be is, everything that will be has been."
-Eugene Lonesco

bye and peaceful night.

with Phin

We wanted to watch 2012 today, I, Josephine, Juzz and Nelly. But tickets were sold out so still unsure if we'll still go as planned. In the end, Josephine texted me and we decided to go to MM.
2012 tickets were sold out too. We had no choice but to watch another movie, we watched "A Christmas Carol". We walked around before the movie starts, looking for jeans and shoes. But in the end, empty-handed. We then enter the theatre and watch the movie, the writer was Charles Dickens. I like his story "David Copperfield", the first novel I read, 133pages. The movie is ok.
After the show, we went to Pizza Hut for meal and home together.
We're going to have our tryout tomorrow in Primagama, drats I haven't revise anything yet! Will be going to Rachel's home tomorrow.
looking forward to both the tryout and to Rachel's home.

bye:]