Queuing at the next counter.

Okay so some of my friends including my best friend have gone abroad to continue their studies. Really envious. It is what I thought I am gonna do too. It's like queuing in a very long queue to buy a ticket and when it's your turn you are given the sign "Next Counter Please".
Such a big blow.
What can I do? I can only move, comforting myself and praying that the next counter will issue me a ticket. My mom said we can't afford it. Now I keep asking myself was that truly the reason? Maybe it really is, but...... I don't understand why back then I didn't make sure we really can't afford it.

Sometimes I am always wondering if I have made the wrong choice. There's nothing more regretful than making the wrong decision. Especially those that has a big impact to my life.
No assurance, no guarantee, is making me uneasy.
But I still feel thankful no matter what. I know some people can't even afford to go to university.
So I always tell myself it's okay, I am now queuing at the next counter, that is getting a Diploma in UIB. I still have a chance to study abroad for my Bachelor Degree.
Three years from now I hope my Dad will be financially capable to support me study abroad. Of course, not just counting on my Dad alone but me
I hope I can raise my own money although I believe it's impossible to save much.

I still have a hope.

"Better hope deferred than none."

SAMUEL BECKETT, Company

Money does fall from the sky

One more week and I am a month due in job. I have received my pay at the end of June, the amount I deserved for 20 days.
Talking about pay there seems more like to it. If I am not mistaken about that, then I am quite sure I won't give up this job so easily. I will reveal what's more to it when the time comes.

No longer as scared as the past few weeks. Maybe because I learn more and more everyday. I only hope that I can perform my job well and be a valuable employee to the two companies. Yes, I am working double job.

As a debt collector, sometimes there are money that fall from the sky. Generally people pick money that fall from the sky, but now money falls and I do not have the interest. I just feel it's not right, so what do I do with the money? Donate to charity or return it to the sky?
Returning to the sky is impossible right?