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Hi Everybody!


I just woke up from my 'mourning' nap. It was so strange that I dreamt my lover died while sailing, his ship sunk because of bad weather and strong waves. I dont have a lover. But I was really crying hard in that short dream. I didnt get the name and his face. It was really painful, felt so real and very hard pain on the chest. I was mourning and accompanied by 2 friends, he and she. She gave me a box filled with water and several leaves. She told me that water is from the sea, on the sot where my lover breathed his last breath. Oh I immediately burst into tears in my dream.

I think I know now what it is like to lose someone you love, forever.



Currently at home with 2 cousins, younger bro and sis.

Goodness, know what(question mark} 2 unknown man came knocking and calling on the window. They sounded harsh. For sure I know those are thugs. I was really scared , what if they will brge in How am I to fight There are no wea}ons at home. Gladly they left as we didnt gave a damn to those darns. I du not know who are them and I didnt see their faces as I was hiding in room. Good riddance to both you.

Hi Everyone!

July 5th, 2010.

My little cousin celebrated her 1st birthday today. Actually it's not today but on Wednesday (lunar date). If you still remember it's actually on July18th (not lunar).
It was so fun, I took pictures too and sorry can't share it.
Know what, I got myself a part-time job. As a waitress, but I only gets to serve when there's a wedding banquet. I'm still not sure whether I'm accepted, I think I just have to wait for their call. When I found out this good news I was so damn happy! I jumped around every corner of my house.


Today!

Hi.
It's been a week since my return from Malaysia. Not to forget, school has started for a week.
Brother has also started his college, he told us he's not coping very well , i think it must be hard for him.

2nd aunt and cousins are arriving tomorrow, I'm so excited. Finally I get to meet them, we're gathering. They only come once every 2 yrs.

Allright, let's move on to my school life.
Everything seems uneasy, probably won't be having a good time.
New classmates, new teachers.
Our new bio teacher can read palms. She read mine, she told me I'll have 2 kids, a long life, will work abroad and the inital of my life partner is V.
Wow.. I don't know if this is true but I think it's cool. If it's really V, I hope the name will be something like Victor, cool yeah!

He came to our school. I met him again. That feeling came back........(continued in my home book)

I'm very sorry because my paragraph isn't good. I really wanted to write but I don't now why I didn't do it well.
I'm sorry I lost the touch.
I'm having mood swings.

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
-Lewis Caroll

Hey Guys.

I have been wanting to write here all events starting on the 20th but I have no chance to even until today.
I'll write them someday as I don't wish to forget them.
It's currently 8:11am now. the first time in the 3 months holiday that I got out of the bed early.

I'm leaving to KL with my family. My big bro is going to continue his studies there. So he is now entering university, that's so nice and easy, he skipped a level.
He'll be spending 4 years before he completes his studies, and by then I hope he is able to help dad in his business.
And also I hope he won't go astray.

I have to go now, bye.
Will be back on the 8th.