We (I + vivi) didn't gave up our wish to work. Vivi found a job in a eatery and she helped me sent the papers. I didn't gave much hopes on it but WHO KNOWS today in the afternoon, the eatery gave me a CALL! The lady just asked me several things and she didn't tell me whether I'm accepted or rejected.

That really left me a big question mark (?).

One more thing is that Fery is back in Batam.

and

Happy Birthday, Lina! Best wishes for you, girl!

~``\/``~

DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was Vesak day, I woke up early and went to temple with mom and sis to offer prayers. We actually wanted to go to Penuin but don't feel like going in the end. Vivi was waiting for me so I went to swisbel. We had planned to swim.
So sad only the 2 of us were swimming, rachel who lives there said she's busy so she can't join and priscillia can't make it too.
I asked Josephin but she can't and she told me that spirits are hunting the youngsters, one of her friend's cousin dissapeared without a trace while swimming. I'm not sure if I should believe in these stuffs but still better be cautious than sorry.
We had the big pools to ourselves, just the both of us. I don't know wether i'm being paranoid or what but I didn't dare to swim like how I usually swim. I always stop in the middle and get to the shallow places. I always wish for the residents to swim too.
One good news is that I'm now able to swim deep in the floor bottom.. Credits to Vivi, she really taught me lots of things and helped me overcome my fears.
My bro told me something about swisbel and I didn't have the guts anymore...
Ah! paranoid me!

"Every memories are a part of history."

Happy Vesak Day!

Today is a very important day, be it in the past, present or future. The Vesak day is a day where 3 significant events happened on the same day. For more details of the 3 significant events, kindly browse back to my past archives.

I wanna wish everybody a Happy Vesak Day!

May we be freed of sufferings and rebirths.

saddhu saddhu saddhu.......

Supposedly to go for swimming this morning, but who knows my mom went back on her words!
Last night she told me to wake up earlier if I want to go swimming. But who knows when I woke up, she asks me where am I going and acted as if she doesn't know anything.
Of course I replied swimming and she said: "NO! Today is the governor election, the are barely cars outside."

I really wonder what has that election got to do with her disallowing me to go to swimming. Election, election and election but still not even a sign of improvement, crap that!

Needless say of course I got annoyed, wat's more the expression she had was so ignorant.
I really hate to cancel things that I've planned, what's more I was so excited about it..........
Well, I can't be mad at my mom or I'll be struck by lightning or turn into a stone, anyway it's only swimming and I don't want to be an unfilial kid.

The thought of having to go to school tomorrow really makes me sick. I'm so petrified at the thought that hoiliday is ending in less than 2 months, oh no!!!

The school will be celebrating the Vesak Day in advance on tomorrow. It's not that I don't wish to celebrate Vesak Day but I really hate to go to school and wearing school uniform at that, no!!!
Vesak Day will be on Friday.

I've finished reading the novel that vivi lend me entitled "From Paris to Eternity". It contains 360 pages and I'm proud to be able to finish it since I always hate the sight of novels and comics.
at first I didn't like reading that novel too, but since I had nothing to do I just carried on and on and then deeply in love with it!
Oh my, I really love it, so much... That's the 2nd book actually, I didn't read the first one for Vvi had told me the story. But it's not the end yet, there will be a 3rd book which I think is not released yet. If I could I want to be like that female lead in the novel too- but at the same time no, cos it's quite a tragic at times. I hope I could have someone like Reno( a character in the story) too in my life.
I'm so head over heels with this novel and I plan to buy the first book then the second and third when it's released.
Well, you know, when I'm fond of something I'll try with all my might to have it- and often ended up regretting after I had it.

Like that dress I bought, it's nice but still it's far from my dream dress. When I grow up, I want to have my own designer then I could have outfits that I like and my own.

"

"There is no distance on this earth as far away as yesterday."
-Robert Nathan

I can't pull myself out of bed this morning when my alarm rang. I didn't sleep well, that tragic accident somehow weighs all over me. I got off the bed after much struggle.
As I've mentioned, on Sunday today we're going to have a compettition. Unfortunately, it didn't turn out as what we've planned.
Edwin didn't came, something cropped up. So the 3 of us, Nely, Kenny and I still had to perform though it's already a bound lose outcome. There should be 4 in a team.
After we're done with it, we went home.

Had I know this would happen I won't go to the temple anymore. The reason is that when I got home, my mom and bro also got home from their visit to the both deceased. I have been wanting to go too, though we're just acquaintances, my school seniors, my brother's friends. What a pity! Seems like I don't have the chance to pay last respect to them anymore, they will be buried tomorrow. Tomorrow shall be the last day to see them...

So dissapointed that I didn't get to go!

Honestly, I still can't believe this shattering fact.. Perhaps everything is just too sudden.

I read Christie's blog earlier and burst into tears, all that RIPs make me feel like crying, that feeling is beyond sad... The deads can never come back.

Next, the card reader that I'm going to use, to upload the graduation pics is actually Benson's. My brother told me that.

This must be the most bad news in year 2010.

2 precious lives were lost just like that..

I hate to understand the fact that the deads can never come back and won't be able to see them anymore.

The card reader is square-shaped, its color is purple and it actually has a scent on it...

"When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure."

I didn't know it was raining outside when Vivi texted me. Soon the rain began to stop too. Our swimming plan continues, though there are still raindrops.
Mom disallowed me to swim because it is still raining gently. so I had to use Vivi as a shield, actually it's not that bad as to say shield.
When we reached Swiss-Bell, Vivi told me stories while we were waiting for Pris.
I shall skip writing what happened. Soon we dip into the pool.
Finally I'm able to jump into the pool suavely! A credit to vivi!
I enjoyed the swimming today!

Something unwanted, unexpected happened. My brother's friend had an accident. I heard my bro talking about cars accident, I thought his friends' car was crashed, that's all.

But things were not that simple, 2 are dead.

Oh heaven! It was so sad you know! When my friends told me about it, I just couldn't believe them. But who knows it's actually true.

Though those 2 are only acquaintances but I couldn't hold back my tears when my bro was telling us what happened.

What's more, I just saw one of the deads 3 days ago. He came to my home, he was sitting on the sofa. Never did I expect that it would be the last time I see him.

Another one is a guy who often walks ahead of me along the school stairs. Both are my brother's friend.

So sad that my tears are dropping now.......

I know death is inevitable. My condolences.

May the both of you will be able to Rest In Peace

Benson Loy & Juvenno Clifford

BUSY..!

May 16
Yen Yen and fery came back yesterday, but I didn't get to see them. Till today I met them, both of them + Edwin gave me a big surprise early in the morning. Hanged out for the whole day Glory and Hye Rin were there too, that will be the last meeting as they're leaving this city. Took a bit pics.

For more pictures : www.loading-nonstop.blogspot.com

May 18-20
Since last Tuesday I have been to school. Not only me but Nely also Edwin and Kenny. We were summoned to school to practise the Dhammpada for the upcoming contest which will be held on this Sunday. The contest is made solely as the Vesak Day is aprroaching, on May 28th.

I wanna go swimming!!!


sorry guys, my blog was in a mess these few days. I don't know what went wrong too. I was so grieved. You know I spent quite an effort to fix and edit the preveious template. I hate it when I've spent efforts in something and in the end it just got busted.
Will be uploading pictures of the Graduation Day soon.
So stay tuned!

"Laws are spider webs through which the big flies pass and the little ones get caught."
-Honore de Balzac

70 years without eating? 'Starving yogi' says it's true

By Brian Alexander

Prahlad Jani, an 82-year-old Indian yogi, is making headlines by claims that for the past 70 years he has had nothing -- not one calorie -- to eat and not one drop of liquid to drink. To test his claims, Indian military doctors put him under round-the-clock observation during a two-week hospital stay that ended last week, news reports say. During that time he didn’t ingest any food or water – and remained perfectly healthy, the researchers said.

But that’s simply impossible, said Dr. Michael Van Rooyen an emergency physician at Harvard’s Brigham and Women’s Hospital, an associate professor at the medical school, and the director of the Harvard Humanitarian Initiative – which focuses on aid to displaced populations who lack food and water.

Van Rooyen says that depending on climate conditions like temperature and humidity, a human could survive five or six days without water, maybe a day or two longer in extraordinary circumstances. We can go much longer without food – even up to three months if that person is taking liquids fortified with vitamins and electrolytes.

Bobby Sands, an Irish Republican convicted of firearms possession and imprisoned by the British, died in 1981 on the 66th day of his hunger strike. Gandhi was also known to go long stretches without food, including a 21-day hunger strike in 1932.

Sterling Hospitals / AFP - Getty Images file
Prahlad Jani was studied for two weeks.

Jani, dubbed "the starving yogi" by some, did have limited contact with water while gargling and periodically bathing, reported the news wire service AFP. While researchers said they measured what he spit out, Van Rooyen said he's clearly getting fluid somehow.

"You can hold a lot of water in those yogi beards. A sneaky yogi for certain," he said. "He MUST take in water. The human body cannot survive without it." The effects of food and water deprivation are profound, Van Rooyen explained. “Ultimately, instead of metabolizing sugar and glycogen [the body’s energy sources] you start to metabolize fat and then cause muscle breakdown. Without food, your body chemistry changes. Profoundly malnourished people autodigest, they consume their own body’s resources. You get liver failure, tachycardia, heart strain. You fall apart.”

The yogi, though, would already be dead from lack of hydration. If he really went without any liquids at all, his cardiovascular system would have collapsed. “You lose about a liter or two of water per day just by breathing,” Van Rooyen said. You don’t have to sweat, which the yogi claims he never does. That water loss results in thicker blood and a drop in blood pressure.

“You go from being a grape to a raisin,” Van Rooyen said and if you didn’t have a heart attack first, you’d die of kidney failure.

source: http://bodyodd.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2010/05/10/2299480.aspx?GT1=43001

I'm best in troubling the others

Isn't it so?
I'm having second thoughts now, about the job in the boutique. Kelvianto must be not having an easy time. In his good will he recommended me the job and not I kept on changing my minds. I think I"m not going to work there anymore, I don't think I can afford to work for long hours everyday. I changed my mind, I want to be a waitress. The only opportunity is to receive that call and then I'd apply for it.
Vivi came to my home today, she was mad. When she entered the door, we didn't speak. We suddenly turn to strangers, actually I didn't dare to speak to her cos she was angry at me, probably. All because of, aahh long story....
No wonder she did, maybe I'd be mad at me too if I were her. After she simmered down, then she began talking to me.
We made calls for job enquiries that we found on the newspaper. Unfortunately, we got nothing.
The only hope now is GADENO~! please give vivi a call!!!!!

Please bless me! Let me find a good job!
Lastly, I want to thank Vivi and apoligize to her.
hehehe....

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything."
-Katharine Hepburn

Job Hunting!

Since I didn't get that 34. I was so dissapointed with myself. Had I studied harder perhaps I could save some money. Though we could afford it but still it's a pity!
Starting tomorrow our holidays will be 2 months long and then back to school.

I, Vivi and Juzz the 3 of us didn't get 34 so we were planning to take up jobs.
I went to nh today with Vivi, we went for a job hunting and look for dresses for my uncle's wedding.











I bought none of the above, I like the 3rd dress!

We hunted eateries everywhere and we met several people of the same age as us working too. I met Darsan, he is working in coffeetown I went over to say Hello! to him. Another thing Kelvianto also recommended a job for us. It was his uncle's shop, a boutique. I and Vivi went to meet the boss, after chatting for a bit he said he'd give us a call if he's going to hire, we thought he didn't want us cos we're just going to work for 2 months so we didn't put on too much hopes. We went back to nh again, Gadeno's manage staff told us to submit the form for applying job, we were so over the moon. When we were about to submit the form, we informed juzz. He then came to look for us and we got a phone from kelvi! He told us that his uncle is giving us a chance, another interview at 17:00. Vivi was not keen to work there, she wants a job as waitress and after giving it a thought I decided to follow her wishes. Juzz came and our final decision is I and juzz to work in the boutique and Vivi to try her luck for the job applying.
Just when I'm about to leave for the interview, juzz told me at the last second that he's not going anymore. I was really furious, how could he went back on his words?
Vivi lost that job because he wanted that job! Luckily I'm heading to another place or else I'd be really very mad at him. I went to my dentist for the monthly adjustments. I had a row with justin via sms.
And I had to wait for 3 hours before it's my turn!

The job interview would be on the day after tomorrow. I and Vivi are the ones will be applying for the job.
My mom is okay that I'm going to work but not my dad, I can see he's very unhappy about it..

Goodnight!

"Joy is the simplest form of gratitude."
-Karl Barth

Mother's Day!

Went to a furniture shop with mom, sis and uncle in the morning, uh I love visiting furniture shops!
haha....










































Went to bcs next to look for dresses for uncle's marriage. None of the dresses captured my heart. My sis the fussy girl in the end bought one. I'm so frustrated upon where to look for the dresses.

Went home aftermath.

took a pic with a bouquet special for mom's day

On the evening, we went to have a meal with grandma and families from maternal side. As usual, to Bengkong laut 933. I'm happiest when coming to this place, because this
is one of the place that links me to him. Whenever there are such kind of occasions, he's always here. I tried to look around you could say maybe I was looking for him. Right at a corner where we usually sits, I saw a guy in white with his so-thought Achilles' heel. !@#$%^& Am I dreaming??
I shall not elaborate further what really took place, don't feel like raking up a story that only 1 person knows....














and you know when i checked something today, i felt that she's like taking me for granted. I always tell myself maybe i aam the one being sensitive yet she never fails to give me that! I don't know what I am to her and don't really care about it, i know who's good to me and who i should not put hopes on, that she'll always be there for me. Whatever it is, I hope I'm just the one being sensitive.
It's hard to find a true friend.

"Mothers are the best in the universe. I love my mom."

one of the events in life

Too busy to afford the time writing here.....

May 1, Saturday.
Nely celebrated her birthday in pub-ktv-restaurant at harbour bay. We had a good time there thanks to the beautiful nature!
Shall not elaborate further, for more stories visit juzzjuzz.blogspot.com / loading-nonstop.blogspot.com

May 2, Sunday
Hermanto gave us a lot of treats, thanks for the meal, billiards, bubble tea and ktv!
I was not being unhappy because I didn't get the chance to meet him..

May 3-6
Graduation Rehearsals! and Happy Birthday to Hermanto!

May 7
Happy Birthday to Sara Ella Cuyuca Moldskred!
Today we had the general rehearsal for the graduation as well as the announcement of our UN result, pass/failed.
After the rehearsal, went home to have lunch and to granny's home. Played with my adorable girl cousin, she's so cuteee!!
Went to school next for the announcement, my heart was thumping when I walk all the way to the room with my mother. The principal gave some speech and I noticed that Tch. Nani's face was grumpy.... Then they gave us an envelope each.
I did not have the guts to open the envelope, my hand was trembling and then I heard Christina's shout of that she passed! Plucked up my courage and when I look at the paper, I passed!!!
Some were crying, glory cried and sonia and jacq too. My tears dropped too when I see them crying, but I wiped it out held it cos it's embarassing to cry. Those are tears of joy.
Just as then, one of our friend when we went over to ask him he said he did not make it... You know it's so sad! I could not smile anymore afterwards.
I hope he will brace up, let this motivates him to do even better.
As the saying goes, "Failure is only a temporary change in direction to set you straight for your next success." -- Denis Waitley.
and so much more quotes... Try your best and don't give up!

And tomorrow is the Graduation Ceremony, glad to know that my parents will attend! My dad said it's my graduation so he definitely would go! My mom too! :D
The next thing to do is to pray for good results, I promised if I'll get the 50% discount, I'll be a vegetarian for 10 days consecutively. Buddha blesses!

chatting with feryanto.
drinking H20.
*yawn*.
publishing post.

“Life's real failure is when you do not realize how close you were to success when you gave up.”