Last day of lunar new year!

Today is the 15th in lunar new year, the last day we celebrate the chinese new year.
After today, life really starts. I will make good of my words.
Not much to write today; just wanna write some greetings to everyone here...

Happy Lunar New Year!
In this year of tiger, may you be able to face life bravely like a tiger no matter what happens and stay strong and as fit as the tiger.
ROARR!!!

We haven't finished our exams yet, there are still a few more days to go and after that then another 3weeks to UAN. Frankly, I'm so looking forward to UAN. I wonders what it feels like and I got to do my very best tp pass with flying colours. Certainly, I must work harder to get 32,01 for the 5o% off fees:D.
God bless me!!!!

Tomorrow is a holiday, the Hinduism's event not sure what is it.
Last night while studying for the exams, I drew a lion dance. So proud of it:DDDD.
After school today, we planned to have lunch at "Lily's Yongtauhu" but then thanks to justin we didn't get to eat it. I've been waiting for the chance to have that you know... so much for my efforts.
Then we decided to have our lunch at La Costa. Well, actually it's justin's decision and we just followed him. He made the decisions for everything.
There are 4 of us Vivi, justin and brot(Eka). After some trips, we arrived at La Costa. This is my first time here. What else could it be but just an ordinary restaurant where you eat your meals. Justin wanted to have steamboat, I and Vivi were busy watching the tv, the movie was great. Vivi says it's "The Mummy Returns".
We started watching when it's about to end already, I'll look for the movie.
While Eka, he was reading a comic and justin gets frustrated. He's such a pester. So loquacious was he got my feathers ruffled.
We had tom yam steamboat, it's too expensive. We shouldn't have had it.
After the meal, we went to justin's house to rest and I found out that "Angel Lovers" is now on air! Now I can watch Remus Kam on tv:DDDD

After a while, Juzz's mother came home then we were too awkward to stay too, so we went home. I went on my own path and I don't know what's with the both Vivi and Eka.
Then I watched "Angel Lovers". Seems like not bad.
Then my sibling came home from school. After preparing themselves, my big bro and youngest bro went to punggur along mom. There's an event in the temple at Punggur.
I just finished watching "Unexpected Access" & "American Idol" and here I am now.
It's quite late already now....
What should I do tomorrow?
Studying?!?! Yeah, maybe. I have no more time left.

My hair smells so fragrance today and I'm lovin it...
I'm singing..
Alice(underground) by Avril Lavigne
Tripping out
Spinning around
I'm underground, I fell down
yeah, I fell down

I'm freaking out
Where am I now?
Upside down
And I can't stop it now
You can't stop me now

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it
I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet again
Is this real?
Is it pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, I won't cry

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop it?
I, and I won't cry
...

Awaiting for "Alice in Wonderland"!

"Life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act."

School Exams

We started our 2nd term exam today due to many reasons. It's too quick frankly but doesn't matter to me. The faster the better.
Aside from exams, the tryouts are also included. Subjects in tryout won't be given in the exam. The grades are from the tryout results.
Had bahasa tryout and ppkn exam today. I am quite confident of my answers in bahasa. I read everything thoroughly and carefully. If nothing goes wrong, MAYBE I can get a 7+ above. While PPKN, I'm done within less than 40minutes. *laughs*

Will be having mtk tryout and maths exam tomorrow. The mtk tryout is currently not a problem to me. I fear mtk so much that I started practising exercises last night and again after I got home from school today until now. As for maths I haven't revise a single thing yet. Maths about permutations and probability. I loath probability so much. What the hell asking the probabilty of rolling a dice thingy.
I'm perspiring all over now, it's so hot here.
Allright, time is too precious won't waste anymore time here, I'm going to revise maths and I won't be posting blogs anymore before the exam is over, probably.
So see you next time.
buhbyee*waves*

"Talent hits a target no one else can hit; Genius hits a target no one else can see."
-Arthur Schopenhauer

7th day of the lunar new year

I planned to wake up early today for jogging and some exercising.
Who knows when my alarm rang, I turned it off and continue my sleep. I'm so hopeless.
I read the newspaper it says jogging is good for health, I know that.
Maybe some another day.



I went to nh at noon. Like I've said, Juzz and Pris are celebrating their birthdays.
Bought tickets for the "Little Big Soldier" at 2:15pm. After buying tickets, we went to 2 9 or 29 whatever. Hye rin, Pris and I played billiards and the rest just sat and some went to buy gifts.
I remember that the first person who introduced me to billiards was Vilia.
I can hold the stick better now than before.
After billiards, we went to tunas baru for the meal.
Nothing special happened there, were just having our meals as usual.
By the way, the birthday boy (in advanced) fell and hurt his ... I don't know which part is it. He has been walking in difficulties and kept on ailing. His mood went berserk too. I kept on getting scolded and calling names.
Went to cinema afterwards, frankly speaking "14 Blades" is better than this.
Only that it's a bit hilarious.
Allright, lazy to elaborate about the birthday events.
All I know is that, I'm very fortunate today. I saw him again.
How I wished at that moment everything stopped down but not me. This way I can walk over to him and do nothing but just stare at him.
Someone asked me why I didn't get jealous over what he's here for today.
I realized that now I know myself better. Being able to see him I'm also able to smile happily. Rather than getting jealous, which makes you unhappy and it's a sin why not just be happy? After all, a feelings that I on the one-sided developed for 3 years, do you think it's so easy to let go? Easier said than done.
Well, I don't want to give a hoot. I just wanna concentrate on what I should be concentrating now. Just freak out let it go(lyrics from song "Freak Out" by Avril Lavigne).
Lastly,
Thank You for asking me this, you know who you are. Thank you so much!
-birthday stories closed-

I went home quite early, bathed upon reaching home and finished some works.
Today is the day where we "lao Yu Sheng". I don't know how u call that, but our family didn't had it this year. Actually it tastes awful and i had a bit of it at Tunas Baru earlier.
We went out for dinner. I suggested A1!
Know why? I'll tell you.
There is a show there. "Ms.Elvin & Magic show".
Obviously, if you know me well then you'd know what I'm eyeing for. hahaha.
Maybe some of you know who Ms.Elvin is. I won't talk much about 'her'.
We went there. OMG, it's so crowded. We sat out of the border from the stage.
I really hate those people singing, I'm so not into their singings all I kept on wanting is stop everything and get on the magic show please you people there!
In the amidst of eating, finally the emcee welcomes the magician!
I went infront, but not too near the stage.
The magician is an old man. When he first appears on the stage, he brought a stick which he had lit fire on it and then a red handkerchief. He used the handkerchief to wrap the stick and guess what it turned to! If you can't guess, then .............
fine, don't guess.
Know what? He did the clothes changing too! damn I so love this, I got melted when I watched him did that. I suddenly have the urge to go on youtube!
Overall, the magic is quite good but the magician is a bit slow, after all he's an old man I understands and everything seemed disorganized and the stage was a mess.
After his magic show, I went back to our table and finish my meal.
My mom kept on sniggering at me, "You want to learn?", "Want to be like them?".
Of course. I want to be a magician, it's so nice you know performing tricks especially when you see the smiles and eyes poopping out from audiences. That's the effect! I know I'm NAIVE, everybody says so just because I hang lot of dreams around me. My dreams are as vast as the pacific ocean. I knew it and I'm glad of it.

Today was a fairytale~
CAn you feel this MAGIC in the air?
listening to Taylor Swift's.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not."
-Kurt Cobain

Finally I succeed in skipping school!
School started yesterday, I did not want to go actually but since we gonna have our exams on this coming monday I attended school for schedules and books.
We decided to not go to school today and we did it! Usually when I want to skip school there's never a chance as I'd still show myself in the school eventually.
We decided to not go to school today but to "bai nian" at friends home, my lil sis tagged along too.
I found out that only 13pupils attended the class today. All of us didn't attend only Edwin. How pitiful of him.
After my parent left to Punggur, Priscillia came to my home. After Jacq arrived off we went to Eka's home. When we just made our first steps, there's a guy in motorbike stopped behind us. The 3girls did not realize that, then I kept on looking behind at that man, he didn't came to us but watched us. I ignored him and it seemed like he's calling for us. After turning my head several time to look behind, I walked closer to the man and said: "Hey, It's Darsan". Then Jacq excitedly went over.
I never expected that I'd met Darsan today, what a surprise!
We chatted for a while and that freaky Justin came! Then together the 5 of us left to Eka's home after chatting with Darsan.
Arrived at Eka's home, Kelvianto and Christina were already there.
We "bai nian" at Eka's home, or should I say laze around?
We also decided to go to Jambu's home to "bai nian" but cancelled eventually.
Vivi arrived too from school, I thought she played the truant as there were no lessons, but it turned out that she got permission from the pricipal.
After a while, Princess Nelly came. I'm so dissapointed with her today and that freaky justin. When you both read this, don't ask me why. By the time when you ask me, I'd have changed my mind.

At Eka's home, his lil brother was the maled lead there, we were watching him.
Freaky Juzz got whacked by his lil bro. Serves him right!
Affter a while they insisted in going to NH, I didn't want to go actually, but still followed them in the end, stayed at nh for few hours.
Then we went our separate ways. Jacq and Chris followed me home, like what we've planned, we're going to Kenny's home to "bai nian".
Received a blessing red packet from his mom, and found out that there's a new school opening this new school year. The school's name is Globe.
Know what? This school's facilities are awesome! What really amazed memost is that there will be a 'mini zoo'. Interesting isn't it?
Then there will be expat languages too. If there is SMA there, I'd definitely move next school year. I mean it! But there's no SMA, only SMK. So dissapointed, huff.

Pris and Juzz are going to celebrate their birthdays together tomorrow.

"It is not the quantity of the meat, but the cheerfulness of the guests, which makes the feast."
-Edward Hyde

The Chinese New Year was not as fun as what I wanted.
On the 1st and 2nd was quite ok and then nothing.
May the next Chinese New Year get better and merrier like before in my childhood days.

Listened from the readio that in this year of Tiger, will be a pleasant year for the pigs(12th zodiac). In this year, you can pick up a new skill easily and ...... I forgot. All I can remeber is that it will be a good year for the pig.
I'm one of them!:D

Planned to go out today, but at the last minute, I don't feel like going anymore. Juzz kept on threatening me, so in the end I went there for the sake of food since my mom didn't cook.
Arrived there with my body wet, it's so hot. My legs got sore, I shouldn't have came.



Watched "14 Blades"

I LOVE this movie alot!
This is the kind of movie that I'd love to watch.
SAD-ENDINGS.
I prefer sad-endings because though in the end I myself get sad too, there's a feeling of "I am always here, for you" something like that. I also can't explain how I feel. So nevermind if u don't get it, but just don't misunderstand it. Aside from sad-endings, also out of the blue it's the end already, yeah something like that!
Happy-endings are unsatisfying there are no feelings in the end, that's what I don't like.

After movies, I was so fortunate to meet him. Never did I dream to ever see him again, that one of the happy occassion today.

I'm so happy that I get to watched this, it's such a great film you know!
Go and watch, definitely worth of it.
Wu Zun looked dashing in his role.



And my long time no see Idol


Zhao Wei

Few years ago when I was still a kid, I loved her alot.
From her drama series "Huan Zhu Ge Ge".
I haven't seen her movies for ages until today "14 Blades".
She's still my idol till now:D.

Happy Occassions today:
- watched a fantastic and the kind of movie I wanted
- I met him, we walked past each other with a barely 10cm gap:D

Still vexing over tomorrow, should I turn up to school or not?
I hope UN will arrived soon and then get over it.

"The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak."
-Hans Hofmann

last day of the lunar year

What exactly happened to dinosaurs?
What cause it to extinct? We humans won't ever get the REAL facts, I dare bet!

Woke up this morning bathed and helped mom.
After that off to tuition, during tuition talked about global warming, 2012, dinosaurs and some stories. It's quite interesting when the tuitor tells us the stories. Somekind of an unexpected thing that'd happen.

Today is a busy day, been helping mom for whole day and so looking forward to tomorrow! I mean in a few hours later!
I found "Di Zi Gui" (Student's law)vcd in my mom's room, I saw some reciting the rules and it seems interesting. So I decided to learn the rules, must be fun and awesome!
Roarr!
it's 12am now in some other places, welcome to the year of the tiger!
We had the reunion dinner during lunch, everybody eats together but for dinner we were busy preparing and cleaning home.
Received some greeting from frens, thanks!
So excited! In a few hours to go I gonna have an adventure!
Adventure of getting red packets! I hope I'll get 100 redpackets on the first day!
hahaha..
The fireworks outside are getting merrier! don't stop please....
Oh! I totally had forgotten that it's Valentines as well.
I'm not really looking forward nor be bothered of Valentines. This day for sure will never be a special day in my life.
I went out to watch the fireworks after typing at half.
I didn't get to picture the fireworks:<
Actually when watching the fireworks, I'm quite against it.
It can make global warming get worsen. Don't say me a nag. I just can't stand that it's getting hotter everyday. Early in the 7pm the sun is already very bright and hot. Let's do something to save the earth, which means your life.
Fireworks can be used but not too many and not freely.
There the fireworks again!
It's getting louder and merrier.
(pause for fireworks outside). back!
Yeah, we must do something! Save the earth!
Even if not for ourself, but for our loved ones and the future.
The very least thing that we can do is
*plant greens
*if u feel hot, why not consider using electric fan?
or air-condition 100%free CFC, fridges too.
*less usage of perfumes, spray thingy also cos they also contain CFC.
*3R's
+reuse - don't discard things that can still be used, like turning a bottle to a flower vase might be a good idea.
+reduce - when u buy something and if it's not much then don't take plastics.
+recycle - throw waste in recycle bins, some organic waste can be turned to compost.

I planned to buy Avril Lavigne's first fragrance black star, but I don't want it now.
All for the sake of earth, I'm willing to make a sacrifice.
Earth is a fantastic place, there are still many beautiful and strange places out there so let's take care of the earth.
Let's not hurt the earth anymore, it's time to take care of this sick earth.

"an unprecedented opportunity to improve the lives of millions of people around the world.”
-Global Initiative quote

My body was perspiring all over this morning though the air-conditioner is on.
I felt sick, I'm not feeling well and my body aches.
If there were no tests I wouldn't have gone to school but just rest at home.
When I reached school, there were barely cars and I struggled to reach the class.
After somewhile the getting better and better and fine now.
I went for the appointment today while waiting I decided to stroll around, such a coincidence that I met some seniors and they saw me too. I akwardly pass before them.
Tuition is postponed to tomorrow, Fery and Yen are back they asked me out but I can't. Sorry:<

So lazy to open my facebook now, I'd much prefer to go on browsing and youtube!
It feels great now that my internet is UNLIMITED*
The CNY is just 2days ahead, tomorrow will be the reunion dinner talking about it makes me hungry now.
I'm not feeling good and don't know what to carry on anymore.
Some another day perhaps, so not in the mood!

"It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent that survives. It is the one that is the most adaptable to change."
-Charles Darwin

Last night at 12+pm I was asleep already, then I was awakened with the noise outside, it seems to me the noise of fireworks and I let it be but it's outrageous noisy and what's more it blast and can't stop. I looked from the window, I see nothing then I went out of the room and from the window I saw uncle and bro outside. I wanted to go over to them, but they entered the house already and the blast thingy had stopped. I asked bro what happened and he told me that there's a gunshot outside. The police is catching robbers. At first i don't believe what they say but come to think of it it's not yet even new year who'd put on a loud and merry fireworks? and so I believed them.

Last night I dreamt that I met Avril Lavigne, I was so crazy you know. I remembered I asked Avril in my dreams "Can I take a picture with you?" and many else. Thinking of it makes me laugh. Actually these days, that person (not Avril Lavigne) kept on appearing in my dreams, consecutively. I should say it's quite a sweet dream and I had thought that maybe it tells me to stop cos dream is the reverse of reality.
In the morning I woke up, I asked mom bout that thing and mom told me it's the temple over that put on the fireworks because last night was an impotant day too it has some relation to the Gods and Goddesses. Now I know! They fooled me, shit!
After taking my bath I helped mom with the cake AGAIN and when the clock strikes at 10.40am I pprepare myself for tuition.
Since uncle will be the one to bring me to tuition, so I beg him to let me drive the car, I didn't really beg him since he will allow me if I want. I really picked the wrong time, our car was in the middle between 2 cars. The car behind is my dad's and another one belong to our neighbor. Uncle helped me with this since I'm still not yet a 100% good driver, so he taught me how. After I got the car out from the middle, my uncle in a panicking way asked to get off the car, I scratched my neighbour's new car! I was like oh no! It was quite a deep scratch.
Then I told my uncle I will bear the responsiblity.:D
So I didn't get to drive, I hopped in the car and off to nelly's home for tuition.
When I reached there, the door was already widely opened, there was 2 guy inside one of them is Yono if I'm not mistaken. I then awkwardly went upstairs without breathing a word. It's always I'm the one far too early or the late one.
The tuitor was late for 15mins like me yesterday.
We did the tryout paper and to my surprise that all the given that I can't do which I answer it in a rush manner I got most of them correctly. Lady luck is absolutely on my side, but I don't want! I want ladyluck with me on that day Un comes, but this is not right, which means I won't be able to do the exams. Ok, leave this now.

I'm still thinking of how should I own up to my neoghbor, I won't keep mum for sure for I made a mistake. After I got home from tuition I wanted to tell mom but I have no courage to do so and after a while I told mom about it and her first reaction was "haiyoo" then she asked me how am I going to own up to it and I acted for my mom. I acted as myself as well as the neighbor and she laughed. My bro had loose screw as well, he chided me and yet laughing at me.
When our neighbour was about to leave her home, I plucked my courage and tell her what I did to her car! At first the reaction on her face tells me that she's going to scold me and I was speaking frenetically. Mom then come out and say she will pay for the repair fees, the aunt is fine with it. Gladly!
I didn't regard this as a lesson learned, infact I'd be more daring to drive again the next time.
hahahaha.....

"Take nothing on its looks; take everything on evidence. There's no better rule."
-Charles Dickens

The tryout this morning is as tough as swimming from the Yellow river to the end shore. In the end, I was the last one to finish and I made a mess.
After pemantapan, I went home and helped mom to bake cakes for chinese new year. It's a hard work indeed! The structure of the cake is a waning crescent-moon and showered with glucose.
My stomach is filled with satays today, I had satays for both lunch and dinner now I dread it alot.
Only the 3 of us left at home, my mom, big bro and I. As we're baking the cake, we chatted and I told them about my dreams and in the end I got a wet blanket.
I planned to go to the dentist today since it's time to go already but I can't afford the time and I'm sure my braces is dirty cos of eating satays and glucose thingy.
Soon the clock struck at 5, off I went to bath and after bathing it's 5:30pm and I immeadiately rush off, I got tuition today. Our lesson today was mtk.
After tuition, I got home and helped mom AGAIN making pineaple roll for pineapple cake tomorrow. While rolling we talked about the lesbians and homosexual thingy with uncle. The story he shared to us was:
There's a guy, he has a girlfriend and his girlfriend is very pretty. This guy's sister is a lesbian, not sure of how is it in the end they broke up and that girlfriend got hooked up with that guy's sister, which is and what makes them a lesbian. SICK indeed!
Now I know what does the sentence 'there's nothing u can't find in this world' means.

"If you've never seen an elephant ski, you've never been on acid."
-Eddie Izzard

I don't feel happy today but something like .... not sad but discouraged I guess.
When I reached school today, the building is still fine. It didn't collapse as yesterday's chaos looked as if the school might get collapsed. Along the way when I'm going to school, I saw a troupe of lion dance, I like lion dance alot they're so interesting, but sometimes their drum thingy really is noisy. I hope in every moment of my success there will be lion dance too, always.
We were dismissed earlier today cos school will be having a party at 6+, as I've said it's a party that celebrates the valentine's day. In our class, only 3 girls are not attending the party and that's yours truly, jacq and tassya while the rest attend. As for the boys, I'm not quite sure about it.
Last year I regretted for not attending but this year I won't. It's a waste of time to attend this kind of party, I'd rather just stay at home and watch my tv.
I wish those who are attending will have fun.:D (read my post of last year's, feb09)

I've been playing chess recently, I just learned it a few days ago and I always get defeated by Mr. Jambu. hahhaha.... no offence.
I'm so discouraged, I don't know what to do, I feel sick of my surroundings just hope that I'll get out of here soon. I know I won't be able now, but I'll make sure in another 2yrs time.
Pak Johnny left us loads of homeworks and will let us have tryout tomorrow.
I hope UAN will come faster and then after that, I'll practise some skills.
I got my face wet just now*sob*, felt downcast.
no idea what to carry on.
bye

"Life is riding a bycicle, to keep your balance you must keep moving."
-ancient saying

school chaos2

I was damn busy these days and not only these days but also for the next 1/2 month.
Preparing for studies and the government test, I don't want another failing grade.
God! please show me the path to freedom and happiness I beg of You.
Why must I be doing those stupid things? Why must it be me? day and all night doing those stupid stuff, even if there will be 28hrs in a day i know it is still useless.
I want to be free! Off to somewhere new and new faces, sick of everything here.

Chinese New Year is coming, I really hope there will be revolution around me.
school is in chaos today, during reccess time while we were eating, Pak Reynold out of the blue kept on ringing the bell, at first we thought it's his usual habit so we didn't gave a damn about it but those who were eating then leave the canteen, only left our table and the senior's. I heard the word 'kebakaran' then we were still like "what?!?!@#$%^" then we left the canteen and were asked to stay outside the building. I'm not sure of what really happens but I guess nobody got hurt. I can't tell how the situation is, a word to describe is 'busy'.
This is the second time our school was in chaos, the first one was few years ago.
This way i guess the whatso-called party for valentine's will be cancelled since it's on tomorrow. (read my post last yr Feb2009 for more info. about the party) and will those bought the tickets to the party will get refund?

Allright, wanna do homeworks stop now.
I think I won't be posting anymore, even if I will it will be on the CNY and then no more posts till April.
This is the life of a student, busy and stressful.
bye!

"God's truth judges created things out of love, and Satan's truth judges them out of envy and hatred."
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer