New Year's Eve!

Wow can't believe it's past 12, New Year's Eve!!!

I let my emotions ruled my head today. I was really mad that moment, I slammed the door not just an attempt, I hit it hard too. I was so upset but what upsets me more was that terrible attitude of not able to control myself. I told myself that today shall be my last day to get angry, get sensitive, to grouch and everything that heats my emotion cos new year is coming. I want to be good in 2011.

Today I am gonna write all about what I feel and after tomorrow, it's over. Everything will start afresh in 2011.

I don't like to be hot-tempered, especially towards my mother, sometimes she can really make me feel like yelling back at her. I know that's not right and sometimes I did it when I really can't stand anymore, but not in an extreme way. I hope to kick this bad habit and be more patient in the new year and just turn on a deaf ear. As for Dad, the guy who has the most patient in the family, Thanks! and love you! You are always generous in giving us $$$ . Kekeke.. Also lucks for bro in his college which has been his biggest frustration, and also to younger bro who has the weakest academic. As for youngest, I wish you can lose all your fats within few months before Chinese New Year! hahahahahaha.......... I wish for good healths and unity in my family in 2011. ♥

Dad and Mom

Younger and Older bro

Youngest and Yours Truly!

As for friends, problems only arises once in a blue moon and that's recently. I don't like it that they do not know me at all, after we've been such a long friends. Sometimes they say sorry easily without clarrifying problems, sometimes they should have known better to speak. I also hate that I'm always being left out whenever there's someone new. Like the times when we were on our holiday few days ago, they were so ignorant to think that I was being COOL? What The Hell. I was slandered to be cool when actually they are the ones not paying attention to me. They also give notices only when I ask. Well this is spared since it's not often. Sometimes it's also hard to buy things together since we all have different likings and tastes. They are more on not making much effort for gems, like they will only enter stores that have attractive stuffs. Not some sleazy stores that you could actually find gems in it. That's why I prefer buying my stuffs alone. It's also hard to ask them out, they do not really like the places that I'd visit, different views we share. I hope they read this so they will really know me. After all they are considered quite good friends. I don't like it that they crashed something I expect from them. You guys, please don't think that I'm upset just because I pull long faces.. my face is already like that since young, I also began to realize it recently. When I just keep silent, my face does not look friendly. I don't know why.. :D Also not to forget the good things from them are their interesting stories, especially yours! Yes, it's you! You know who you are. They are also good in making me laugh.

What is after family and friends? ............

Not to forget my beloved Idol, Avril Lavigne to release a new single on New Year '1+1+11=WTH'. Sounds coool! She will be releasing her 4th album too 'Goodbye Lullaby'.

1+1+11=WTH


Goodbye Lullaby

Also my SHINee ♥

Thank You for everything and everyone and Happy New Year in advance!
Best wishes for everyone, everywhere! See you in 2011.
chapter 2010
c l o s e d

Timnas lost the AFF Suzuki Cup 2010

I'm sure not only me- but everyone else had expected for a reverse outcome but who'd have thought TimNas lost the match tonight to Malaysia! I'm sure many fans are feeling dissapointed right now, but cheer up at least we played FAIR!
It was a 3-0 to Malaysia VS Indonesia last Dec 26th and tonight's result was 2-1. I feel so sorry for Indonesia, it wasn't a fair game to begin with. Indonesia could win actually, they missed lots of good chances. Anyway the players have done a good job in playing the game. Never let this makes them give up! I support the TIMNAS! You may not won but you are the BEST!


Striker: Arif 14, Gonzales 9 and Irfan Bachdim 17 develop a good chemistry playing together. Hahaha my favorite player is Irfan Bachdim 17. I felt sad for him, he was given the red card in the match with Malaysia, he seemed in distress afterward. You can see his pic above and here:

Good-looking eh! 22 years old and is already attached!
A descent of Indonesian and Dutch.

Last but not least, Congratulations Malaysia!
I saw you guys were really happy when receiving the trophy!
kekekeke....

When too much becomes a burden

I always believe in the joy of helping others until I grew tired of it. I'd love to help, but ferrying around really makes me sick. What's more I'm such an anti human's biggest threat: pollution, global warming, comet collisions, etc.
If I help you, wouldn't I be letting them down? They are my kins but I do not help them that way. You're not, if I help you, what would I be?
I am thankful for your much helps to me but this time I can't help you and I am tired of it.
If your safety is at stake, what about mine?
I don't like it this way, dissapoint you and most importantly, my belief.
Sometimes helping you is a burden to me, just this kind of help.

Happy Birthday, GS!

Happy Birthday, SHINee's Minho♥!

민호오빠, 생일 축하합니다 ♥

Happy Birthday!

♥샤이니

Happy Birthday, Mama♥!

November 28th today is my Ma's birthday!
Wishing her all the best! and loves♥

Happy Birthday 어머니!♥

Hello!

Fery and Yen Yen returned yesterday. We met them last night. I and Yen bought one identical converse t-shirt, quite expensive but we love it!!!!! Right Yen?

Today was great. Some of us including me started our fisika tuition today @ Pris's home. Just right today is her house opening party so we stayed there for 3/5 of the day. Pris ended the tuition earlier as she has her Korean tuition with Jacq. After the fisika, the rest sent the teacher off and went to buy the gifts for the event.

It is really convenient to have cars and being able to drive. Poor Christina has always been our chauffeur since she got her license.
Today was really great! Especially when the 4(EL, Yen, Dezy and Me!) of us spent our time on the rooftop while the rest went to buy the gifts. We took pictures and all that was heard was laughter. I will post the picture after I've got it from Edwin.
After they're back, we realized it was already dark...
We ate before the guests came as it'll be too crowded. After our meal we went for a spin.
Pris VS Chris!
After polluting the air Chris sent me , Hermanto and Juzz home.
Now I like hanging out in the evening.
Tuition will be on every Saturday @ Pris's place. FUN!

"Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts."
-Rachel Carson

Happy Birthday Andrian!

Happy Birthday Andrian!
Best Wishes for you.

He is one of the new student in our class. The tall and shy guy who shuns ladies he first met. That was what happened to me the first time I tried to make friends with him. He shyly snubbed at me. We became friends thanks to a project, that's when we started to laugh together with Joe whenever I sit on their place.
Hahaha, this guy is in love with my bestfriend!!!
We were all trying to help him win over her, teaching him some gimmicks to get near her. Well, as he is really a very shy guy. Anyway, Happy birthday once again!:D

Today went well, I made it to the flag ceremony on time this morning. I'd be detained if I had slowed down a few seconds. On my way to flag ceremony, he was behind me!

See ya!
I have to get into the books. :/
SHINee<3>

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are."
-Bernice Johnson Reagon

Supposedly to go to temples every Sunday but now I hardly go. I was awakened this morning upon a call that Dad answered. Dad was very worked up listening to the phone, I was sobered upon hearing that my uncle, the husband of my dad's youngest sis had an accident, he got electrified. A sudden tense arose in me. Dad rushed out. Good thing he was saved and brought to the hospital. Aunt must be devastated. Nothing should happen to him, his 3 children are still very young and there's aunt. Uncle is working for my dad, literally my dad was so worked up, aside from an employee of Dad, he is the husband of his sister. Should anything happen to him, it'd be such a tragedy. Well, I hope not. May Bodhisattva and Buddha bless him. Oh, he has a tattoo of Avalokitesvara Boddhisatva on his back, may he be blessed with that. The latest condition of uncle that I had is that he has regained conscious but unfortunately his hand got a very deep burn that causes a hole according to dad, his head bleeds too. I hope he recovers soon.

"Being patient means we remain firm even if we are afraid."

OCTOBER!

Allright, HELLO!
It's been a long time since I last wrote. I almost had forgotten that I have a blog.
So time passes really quick. Few weeks ago, I never bothered to have a look at SHINee but now I'm head over heels with them. They're cute and funny. At first I was only attracted to Minho but now I like them all. Gorgeous!

October has reached, in just another few months we'll enter 2011. Looking back, what have happened to me in the last 9 months? If you ask me, I'd say: "I don't know". One thing I'm sure is that I've wasted it in vain.

Let's go to my school life. My grades are like C or B, I gotta work harder as I've promised myself.
My classmates were good too, they're funny, I laughed a lot today unlike the other day.
I've been polluting the environment too. I was caught by a traffic police yesterday on my way to school, cos I didn't put on the safety belt. I thought I was able to avoid the police but he saw me and alerted me, brought me to the nearby post.This is my first time getting caught, I was panicking. I got fined, I told him I do not have money and let me get some at home, I was flustered on my way home. Dad and Mom didn't scold me, they gave me money to pay the fine. On my way back, the car hit the wall and was scratched. Time is showing 7:45. What a rotten day! So that explains why I got to school late. I went back to the post with Dad joining me. We managed to get a discount, well cos that's no different from extortion! Tears drop after I get in the car. Touched by my father's doing, no idea why.
Mom kept on harping at me cos I scratched her car and remind me numerous time to drive carefully. Well, I can only say sorry.
I made them lose quite a sum.

Uh, I'm hungry right now....
Oh yes, I'll be joining the teambuilding camp. I wonder if I've made the right decision by joining. I have a motive for joining. Will be held on the 7th to 8th.

"Education is learning what you didn't even know you didn't know."
-Daniel J. Boorstin

COUSINS

Since the arrival of my cousins and aunt, weekends passes very quickly.
and sadly, they're goin back soon, on Friday they will have left to Singapore...

My sis fell from stairs today, I saw the scene live and it scared me out. Good thing nothing serious happened to her, but because of cares she got chided.
Well, if you take a look at the positive angle it's actually good as they say "the youngs fell to grow, the olds fell to death."

"Success is achieved by developing our strengths, not by eliminating our weaknesses"
-Marilyn vos Savant

FEARFUL

Hi Everybody!


I just woke up from my 'mourning' nap. It was so strange that I dreamt my lover died while sailing, his ship sunk because of bad weather and strong waves. I dont have a lover. But I was really crying hard in that short dream. I didnt get the name and his face. It was really painful, felt so real and very hard pain on the chest. I was mourning and accompanied by 2 friends, he and she. She gave me a box filled with water and several leaves. She told me that water is from the sea, on the sot where my lover breathed his last breath. Oh I immediately burst into tears in my dream.

I think I know now what it is like to lose someone you love, forever.



Currently at home with 2 cousins, younger bro and sis.

Goodness, know what(question mark} 2 unknown man came knocking and calling on the window. They sounded harsh. For sure I know those are thugs. I was really scared , what if they will brge in How am I to fight There are no wea}ons at home. Gladly they left as we didnt gave a damn to those darns. I du not know who are them and I didnt see their faces as I was hiding in room. Good riddance to both you.

Hi Everyone!

July 5th, 2010.

My little cousin celebrated her 1st birthday today. Actually it's not today but on Wednesday (lunar date). If you still remember it's actually on July18th (not lunar).
It was so fun, I took pictures too and sorry can't share it.
Know what, I got myself a part-time job. As a waitress, but I only gets to serve when there's a wedding banquet. I'm still not sure whether I'm accepted, I think I just have to wait for their call. When I found out this good news I was so damn happy! I jumped around every corner of my house.


Today!

Hi.
It's been a week since my return from Malaysia. Not to forget, school has started for a week.
Brother has also started his college, he told us he's not coping very well , i think it must be hard for him.

2nd aunt and cousins are arriving tomorrow, I'm so excited. Finally I get to meet them, we're gathering. They only come once every 2 yrs.

Allright, let's move on to my school life.
Everything seems uneasy, probably won't be having a good time.
New classmates, new teachers.
Our new bio teacher can read palms. She read mine, she told me I'll have 2 kids, a long life, will work abroad and the inital of my life partner is V.
Wow.. I don't know if this is true but I think it's cool. If it's really V, I hope the name will be something like Victor, cool yeah!

He came to our school. I met him again. That feeling came back........(continued in my home book)

I'm very sorry because my paragraph isn't good. I really wanted to write but I don't now why I didn't do it well.
I'm sorry I lost the touch.
I'm having mood swings.

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
-Lewis Caroll

Hey Guys.

I have been wanting to write here all events starting on the 20th but I have no chance to even until today.
I'll write them someday as I don't wish to forget them.
It's currently 8:11am now. the first time in the 3 months holiday that I got out of the bed early.

I'm leaving to KL with my family. My big bro is going to continue his studies there. So he is now entering university, that's so nice and easy, he skipped a level.
He'll be spending 4 years before he completes his studies, and by then I hope he is able to help dad in his business.
And also I hope he won't go astray.

I have to go now, bye.
Will be back on the 8th.

Hello world!
I thought I will be posting good stories but not until I found out that my graduation and my holiday to HongKong and Macau pics are gone!!!!!!!!!!!!
Damn it, all thanks to my younger brother! And this is the second time he does this thing.
The first was my files with several pictures that was taken on an educational trip to BMG. Fine, though I was mad that time, I let it go. What can I do? He's my brother? and I can't bring myself to be violent with him, I let everything go!
And today? when I see him messing my pics and when I try to open them, to the hell with that, they're gone..
I immediately burst into tears....
Do u know how important those pictures meant to me? How long and struggling it was before I finally could get them out of the camera? 2 kinds of pictures.
My first trip to HK&Macau with grandma, uncle and big bro and graduation pictures.
I had to wait for 6months before I could take the holiday pictures out from the camera and my big bro had to borrow a card reader to get the graduation pics out of the camera....
Before I finally need just one more step to own them forever, before I review on them again, they're gone..........
I cried the whole morning, I want to feed him to the sharkssssssssssssss..
I know I'm at fault too, Im to blame for not transferring them to the computer directly that day.
Losing those pictures is like losing a hand.
I was really mad at him, it's the second time he does this and now what's left is the shortcut folder, what could I do with that?? I hope big bro is able to retrieve them back for me...
Please... with Budhha's blessings..

I don't want to lose them...

My Day.

Everyone has their own day, a day belong to them.

Today is my day, June 25th.
Happy Birthday to me!

They are written to be remembered

June19th, 2010(Lunar date : 10th/5th)


Tonight shall be the last night of bachelor life for uncle. He is getting married tomorrow. Wow, excited. You know the chinese when they get married, they do it before dawn, so we're going to granny's home before dawn to watch the wedding ceremony. :D

We just got back from granny's and will go back there again in another few hours.
Grandma's sis, lao yee alsom came ystd to attent uncle's big day.



June20th,2010 The Big Day.


After I got back from granny's home I immediately fell on bed. I was so sleepy cos I just slept for few hours. It was fun and merry. When we got there, uncle's load of friends were there. They were partying with foods and drinks and pokercards. Cameraman and videoman were also taking pictures, we took pictures. I don't deny my uncle looked handsome on his suite!

And not to forget I brought the cybershot camera too! The cameraman and videoman were shooting the whole way, I think one of them is my aunt-to-be's cousin. The videoman which is also the boss himself. He was a hilarious guy.

Soon it's time for them to fetch the bride. Oh yeah, my big bro was the chaeffeur.

I stood by on the balcony waiting for them to arrive and take their pictures. When they came back, I took the bride&groom's prettiest and greatest picture ever in their whole life.

The ceremony began, serving teas to the elders. *snap**snap**snap* in my camera.


June 23rd, The Wedding Banquet.

Allright, we've been busying since morning. We went to the bridal shop for make-ups and the couple's outfits. Probably for the very first time I put make-up, the beautician their did it for me since it's neccessary. Gosh, I looked like shit, I promise won't put on make-ups anymore except on my eyes. After those touches, I went straight to the hotel. Uncle assigned me and my cousin to be the guest receiver, I didn't feel comfy with the makeup.

After all guests arrived, the banquet starts. I didn't get much to eat. We had big faily portrait in the end.

Poor 2nd aunt who's living in Taiwan can't join us.

“Marriages are made in heaven and are consummated on earth.”

Went to watch 'Shutter Island' with my sis at bcs today. The storyline at first was quite good but when it's ending it was like screwed up. I don't know wether I didn't understand the movie or my point of view is true. Actually it could turn out very well. Rate it 3/5.

I kept on guessing who was the actor and finally I thought of Leonardo diCaprio. I was right.

Now I know what it feels like it was feeling dissapointed, I guess this is what they call retribution?

You earn what you did.

"Love is two minds without a single thought."
-Philip Barry

Hey Guys.

I want to post stories that I don't wish to forget, but I have no chance to blog.
It's currently 8:11am. The first time during the 3 months holiday ever that I got out of my bed.
I'm leaving to KL today with my family. My big brother is going to continue his studies there. So he's now going to University, that's so nice, skipping a level and only have to have good grades.
And he'll be spending 4years before he completes his university and by then I hope he'll be able to help dad in his business.
I also hope he won't go astray.

I have to go now will be back on the 8th.
Bye!

wow, time really ticks fast. Today is the 8th of June. I've been saying that I want to post the pictures of graduation but until today, after a month I still haven't had the chance to post the pictures yet.
But no worries, I"ll definitely share it here, just stay tuned!
Unknowingly we're now already in the month of June, I felt as if new year was like 5 days ago and I can still clearly remember what had happened that day, the whole day. wow..

I and Vvi were planning to have a blast at Pris's home tomorrow, but you know as always, disasters often happen. So I guess maybe I"ll be having a bad day at home tomorrow instead...
One more thing, how stupid I was, the place to empty bladder, what do you call that? I don't know what it is called. Mine at home, its color is blue. So when I said my urine was greenish it was actually yellow urine+blue color= green.
So I have nothing to worry about now!!!

My activities every days are, wakes up at 9:30, 10:00, bath+brushing teeth, have breakfast and do some chores then, rest, play games, have my lunch, iron clothes, watch tv, bath, watch tv, have dinner, watch tv, watch tv and get on the computer again and finally lie on bed.

Everyday it's like that. Boring isn't it?

I actually felt guilty living everyday that way. I don't know why but I feel so.

I want to do something meaningful and can help others but I'm just wasting my life this way.

I hope I can meet "someone" who can change my life, have the same interests like me and help me to be able to do things that I really wanna do. I also know that this is something my friends would never able to do it with me, neither are they to be those "someone", but "someone" who has affinity with me, perhaps someone I wouldn't take for a friend, neither soulmate yet very important than a friend to me, how should I put it?

...........

“Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.”
- Tom Krause

health problems?

Went to nagoya hill with family to shop lil bro and dad's clothes. It could be better if we went there earlier. We had dinner in a very comfortable restaurant. I didn't want to go to nagoya hill, but bro insisted, I'm bored with that place.
It could be more relaxing if it wasn't bacause of I'm not feeling well and my mind kept on thinking for the worst.
What was troubling me was my urine color. I once watched "The Doctors" [if I'm not mistaken] and the topic was about urine colors, the one that I remember very clearly is the green color, which they said that it has something to do with 'infections'.
And COINCIDENCELY my urine is greenish.

This is what I've got:


The urochrome gives the urine a pale yellow color, which is its normal color.

*Abnormal colors
Since the normal color of urine is pale yellow, variations can be an indication of health problems or be the result of certain foods that have been eaten.

*Clear urine
If a person has been drinking an excess of water or diuretics such as coffee or beer, the urine may have little or no color. Typically, it is nothing to worry about if it happens occasionally.

*Yellow urine
Excess sweating could result in the urine becoming a deeper yellow. Also, it is a sign that you have not been drinking enough liquids

*Dark yellow urine
Liver problems or jaundice can cause the urine to become consistently a dark yellow color. Be sure you have been drinking enough fluids before jumping to conclusions.

*Orange urine
People who eat too many carrots--like from a juicer--may see orange urine. Also, too much Vitamin C can turn the urine orange.

*Brown urine
Brown urine can an indication of a serious condition. It could be caused by liver disease, hepatitis, melanoma cancer, or copper poisoning. Other symptoms from those ailments should also be considered as indicators. But note that if you had recently eaten fava beans or taken a laxative, your urine also could turn brown.

*Greenish urine
A urinary tract infection, bile problems and certain drugs can cause the urine to turn greenish. A brighter green color is an indication of an excess of B vitamins.

*Blue urine
Urine with a bluish tint can be caused by a psuedomonas bacterial infection. It can also be an indication of high levels of calcium.

*Reddish urine
There are a number of things that can cause the urine to have a red tint.

Fish contains vit. B, I hope it's because of eating fish everyday that it produces greenish color.

for more infos please visit: http://www.school-for-champions.com/health/urine_color.htm

"Prejudices are the chains forged by ignorance to keep men apart."
-Marguerite Gardiner

Why did the Pied Piper take the children of Hamelin?

In 1284 the town of Hamelin in Germany was plagued by rats.

One day an odd looking piper appeared offering to rid the town rats, and the mayor gladly agreed to pay him. As he played his pipe, the rats followed the stranger towards the river, where they fell in and drowned.

When the piper asked for his fee, the mayor refused. As the piper played once more, all the children of the town followed him, dancing towards the Koppelberg mountain. An enormous cavern opened up, the children ran inside and were never seen again.

Interesting isn't it?

TODAY!
*Went to school this morning for the finger stamp on the ijazah paper. Sraightly went home aftermath.

*Grandma came to our home to perm her hair in the salon behind our home for uncle is getting married! The wedding banquet will be on 23rd, and the fetch bride home will be on 9 days before 23rd. Yeah, probably.
*Returned Juzz his mega-thick book "1000 fantastic facts".
*Finally I plait-ed my hair, into a pigtail style! and will plait it more often in the future.
*Prepared myself after reaching home.
*Off to hang-out with friends. There were Vivi, Chris, Pris, Desy, Viky, Eka, Fery, Juzz, Hermanto and Jacq.
*Left ktv room before even touching a microphone.
*Searched the entire shops but still couldn't find a shoe.
*As a green advocate I walked home with Juzz and Eka.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
-Helen Keller

We (I + vivi) didn't gave up our wish to work. Vivi found a job in a eatery and she helped me sent the papers. I didn't gave much hopes on it but WHO KNOWS today in the afternoon, the eatery gave me a CALL! The lady just asked me several things and she didn't tell me whether I'm accepted or rejected.

That really left me a big question mark (?).

One more thing is that Fery is back in Batam.

and

Happy Birthday, Lina! Best wishes for you, girl!

~``\/``~

DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday was Vesak day, I woke up early and went to temple with mom and sis to offer prayers. We actually wanted to go to Penuin but don't feel like going in the end. Vivi was waiting for me so I went to swisbel. We had planned to swim.
So sad only the 2 of us were swimming, rachel who lives there said she's busy so she can't join and priscillia can't make it too.
I asked Josephin but she can't and she told me that spirits are hunting the youngsters, one of her friend's cousin dissapeared without a trace while swimming. I'm not sure if I should believe in these stuffs but still better be cautious than sorry.
We had the big pools to ourselves, just the both of us. I don't know wether i'm being paranoid or what but I didn't dare to swim like how I usually swim. I always stop in the middle and get to the shallow places. I always wish for the residents to swim too.
One good news is that I'm now able to swim deep in the floor bottom.. Credits to Vivi, she really taught me lots of things and helped me overcome my fears.
My bro told me something about swisbel and I didn't have the guts anymore...
Ah! paranoid me!

"Every memories are a part of history."

Happy Vesak Day!

Today is a very important day, be it in the past, present or future. The Vesak day is a day where 3 significant events happened on the same day. For more details of the 3 significant events, kindly browse back to my past archives.

I wanna wish everybody a Happy Vesak Day!

May we be freed of sufferings and rebirths.

saddhu saddhu saddhu.......

Supposedly to go for swimming this morning, but who knows my mom went back on her words!
Last night she told me to wake up earlier if I want to go swimming. But who knows when I woke up, she asks me where am I going and acted as if she doesn't know anything.
Of course I replied swimming and she said: "NO! Today is the governor election, the are barely cars outside."

I really wonder what has that election got to do with her disallowing me to go to swimming. Election, election and election but still not even a sign of improvement, crap that!

Needless say of course I got annoyed, wat's more the expression she had was so ignorant.
I really hate to cancel things that I've planned, what's more I was so excited about it..........
Well, I can't be mad at my mom or I'll be struck by lightning or turn into a stone, anyway it's only swimming and I don't want to be an unfilial kid.

The thought of having to go to school tomorrow really makes me sick. I'm so petrified at the thought that hoiliday is ending in less than 2 months, oh no!!!

The school will be celebrating the Vesak Day in advance on tomorrow. It's not that I don't wish to celebrate Vesak Day but I really hate to go to school and wearing school uniform at that, no!!!
Vesak Day will be on Friday.

I've finished reading the novel that vivi lend me entitled "From Paris to Eternity". It contains 360 pages and I'm proud to be able to finish it since I always hate the sight of novels and comics.
at first I didn't like reading that novel too, but since I had nothing to do I just carried on and on and then deeply in love with it!
Oh my, I really love it, so much... That's the 2nd book actually, I didn't read the first one for Vvi had told me the story. But it's not the end yet, there will be a 3rd book which I think is not released yet. If I could I want to be like that female lead in the novel too- but at the same time no, cos it's quite a tragic at times. I hope I could have someone like Reno( a character in the story) too in my life.
I'm so head over heels with this novel and I plan to buy the first book then the second and third when it's released.
Well, you know, when I'm fond of something I'll try with all my might to have it- and often ended up regretting after I had it.

Like that dress I bought, it's nice but still it's far from my dream dress. When I grow up, I want to have my own designer then I could have outfits that I like and my own.

"

"There is no distance on this earth as far away as yesterday."
-Robert Nathan

I can't pull myself out of bed this morning when my alarm rang. I didn't sleep well, that tragic accident somehow weighs all over me. I got off the bed after much struggle.
As I've mentioned, on Sunday today we're going to have a compettition. Unfortunately, it didn't turn out as what we've planned.
Edwin didn't came, something cropped up. So the 3 of us, Nely, Kenny and I still had to perform though it's already a bound lose outcome. There should be 4 in a team.
After we're done with it, we went home.

Had I know this would happen I won't go to the temple anymore. The reason is that when I got home, my mom and bro also got home from their visit to the both deceased. I have been wanting to go too, though we're just acquaintances, my school seniors, my brother's friends. What a pity! Seems like I don't have the chance to pay last respect to them anymore, they will be buried tomorrow. Tomorrow shall be the last day to see them...

So dissapointed that I didn't get to go!

Honestly, I still can't believe this shattering fact.. Perhaps everything is just too sudden.

I read Christie's blog earlier and burst into tears, all that RIPs make me feel like crying, that feeling is beyond sad... The deads can never come back.

Next, the card reader that I'm going to use, to upload the graduation pics is actually Benson's. My brother told me that.

This must be the most bad news in year 2010.

2 precious lives were lost just like that..

I hate to understand the fact that the deads can never come back and won't be able to see them anymore.

The card reader is square-shaped, its color is purple and it actually has a scent on it...

"When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure."

I didn't know it was raining outside when Vivi texted me. Soon the rain began to stop too. Our swimming plan continues, though there are still raindrops.
Mom disallowed me to swim because it is still raining gently. so I had to use Vivi as a shield, actually it's not that bad as to say shield.
When we reached Swiss-Bell, Vivi told me stories while we were waiting for Pris.
I shall skip writing what happened. Soon we dip into the pool.
Finally I'm able to jump into the pool suavely! A credit to vivi!
I enjoyed the swimming today!

Something unwanted, unexpected happened. My brother's friend had an accident. I heard my bro talking about cars accident, I thought his friends' car was crashed, that's all.

But things were not that simple, 2 are dead.

Oh heaven! It was so sad you know! When my friends told me about it, I just couldn't believe them. But who knows it's actually true.

Though those 2 are only acquaintances but I couldn't hold back my tears when my bro was telling us what happened.

What's more, I just saw one of the deads 3 days ago. He came to my home, he was sitting on the sofa. Never did I expect that it would be the last time I see him.

Another one is a guy who often walks ahead of me along the school stairs. Both are my brother's friend.

So sad that my tears are dropping now.......

I know death is inevitable. My condolences.

May the both of you will be able to Rest In Peace

Benson Loy & Juvenno Clifford

BUSY..!

May 16
Yen Yen and fery came back yesterday, but I didn't get to see them. Till today I met them, both of them + Edwin gave me a big surprise early in the morning. Hanged out for the whole day Glory and Hye Rin were there too, that will be the last meeting as they're leaving this city. Took a bit pics.

For more pictures : www.loading-nonstop.blogspot.com

May 18-20
Since last Tuesday I have been to school. Not only me but Nely also Edwin and Kenny. We were summoned to school to practise the Dhammpada for the upcoming contest which will be held on this Sunday. The contest is made solely as the Vesak Day is aprroaching, on May 28th.

I wanna go swimming!!!


sorry guys, my blog was in a mess these few days. I don't know what went wrong too. I was so grieved. You know I spent quite an effort to fix and edit the preveious template. I hate it when I've spent efforts in something and in the end it just got busted.
Will be uploading pictures of the Graduation Day soon.
So stay tuned!

"Laws are spider webs through which the big flies pass and the little ones get caught."
-Honore de Balzac

70 years without eating? 'Starving yogi' says it's true

By Brian Alexander

Prahlad Jani, an 82-year-old Indian yogi, is making headlines by claims that for the past 70 years he has had nothing -- not one calorie -- to eat and not one drop of liquid to drink. To test his claims, Indian military doctors put him under round-the-clock observation during a two-week hospital stay that ended last week, news reports say. During that time he didn’t ingest any food or water – and remained perfectly healthy, the researchers said.

But that’s simply impossible, said Dr. Michael Van Rooyen an emergency physician at Harvard’s Brigham and Women’s Hospital, an associate professor at the medical school, and the director of the Harvard Humanitarian Initiative – which focuses on aid to displaced populations who lack food and water.

Van Rooyen says that depending on climate conditions like temperature and humidity, a human could survive five or six days without water, maybe a day or two longer in extraordinary circumstances. We can go much longer without food – even up to three months if that person is taking liquids fortified with vitamins and electrolytes.

Bobby Sands, an Irish Republican convicted of firearms possession and imprisoned by the British, died in 1981 on the 66th day of his hunger strike. Gandhi was also known to go long stretches without food, including a 21-day hunger strike in 1932.

Sterling Hospitals / AFP - Getty Images file
Prahlad Jani was studied for two weeks.

Jani, dubbed "the starving yogi" by some, did have limited contact with water while gargling and periodically bathing, reported the news wire service AFP. While researchers said they measured what he spit out, Van Rooyen said he's clearly getting fluid somehow.

"You can hold a lot of water in those yogi beards. A sneaky yogi for certain," he said. "He MUST take in water. The human body cannot survive without it." The effects of food and water deprivation are profound, Van Rooyen explained. “Ultimately, instead of metabolizing sugar and glycogen [the body’s energy sources] you start to metabolize fat and then cause muscle breakdown. Without food, your body chemistry changes. Profoundly malnourished people autodigest, they consume their own body’s resources. You get liver failure, tachycardia, heart strain. You fall apart.”

The yogi, though, would already be dead from lack of hydration. If he really went without any liquids at all, his cardiovascular system would have collapsed. “You lose about a liter or two of water per day just by breathing,” Van Rooyen said. You don’t have to sweat, which the yogi claims he never does. That water loss results in thicker blood and a drop in blood pressure.

“You go from being a grape to a raisin,” Van Rooyen said and if you didn’t have a heart attack first, you’d die of kidney failure.

source: http://bodyodd.msnbc.msn.com/archive/2010/05/10/2299480.aspx?GT1=43001

I'm best in troubling the others

Isn't it so?
I'm having second thoughts now, about the job in the boutique. Kelvianto must be not having an easy time. In his good will he recommended me the job and not I kept on changing my minds. I think I"m not going to work there anymore, I don't think I can afford to work for long hours everyday. I changed my mind, I want to be a waitress. The only opportunity is to receive that call and then I'd apply for it.
Vivi came to my home today, she was mad. When she entered the door, we didn't speak. We suddenly turn to strangers, actually I didn't dare to speak to her cos she was angry at me, probably. All because of, aahh long story....
No wonder she did, maybe I'd be mad at me too if I were her. After she simmered down, then she began talking to me.
We made calls for job enquiries that we found on the newspaper. Unfortunately, we got nothing.
The only hope now is GADENO~! please give vivi a call!!!!!

Please bless me! Let me find a good job!
Lastly, I want to thank Vivi and apoligize to her.
hehehe....

"Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything."
-Katharine Hepburn

Job Hunting!

Since I didn't get that 34. I was so dissapointed with myself. Had I studied harder perhaps I could save some money. Though we could afford it but still it's a pity!
Starting tomorrow our holidays will be 2 months long and then back to school.

I, Vivi and Juzz the 3 of us didn't get 34 so we were planning to take up jobs.
I went to nh today with Vivi, we went for a job hunting and look for dresses for my uncle's wedding.











I bought none of the above, I like the 3rd dress!

We hunted eateries everywhere and we met several people of the same age as us working too. I met Darsan, he is working in coffeetown I went over to say Hello! to him. Another thing Kelvianto also recommended a job for us. It was his uncle's shop, a boutique. I and Vivi went to meet the boss, after chatting for a bit he said he'd give us a call if he's going to hire, we thought he didn't want us cos we're just going to work for 2 months so we didn't put on too much hopes. We went back to nh again, Gadeno's manage staff told us to submit the form for applying job, we were so over the moon. When we were about to submit the form, we informed juzz. He then came to look for us and we got a phone from kelvi! He told us that his uncle is giving us a chance, another interview at 17:00. Vivi was not keen to work there, she wants a job as waitress and after giving it a thought I decided to follow her wishes. Juzz came and our final decision is I and juzz to work in the boutique and Vivi to try her luck for the job applying.
Just when I'm about to leave for the interview, juzz told me at the last second that he's not going anymore. I was really furious, how could he went back on his words?
Vivi lost that job because he wanted that job! Luckily I'm heading to another place or else I'd be really very mad at him. I went to my dentist for the monthly adjustments. I had a row with justin via sms.
And I had to wait for 3 hours before it's my turn!

The job interview would be on the day after tomorrow. I and Vivi are the ones will be applying for the job.
My mom is okay that I'm going to work but not my dad, I can see he's very unhappy about it..

Goodnight!

"Joy is the simplest form of gratitude."
-Karl Barth

Mother's Day!

Went to a furniture shop with mom, sis and uncle in the morning, uh I love visiting furniture shops!
haha....










































Went to bcs next to look for dresses for uncle's marriage. None of the dresses captured my heart. My sis the fussy girl in the end bought one. I'm so frustrated upon where to look for the dresses.

Went home aftermath.

took a pic with a bouquet special for mom's day

On the evening, we went to have a meal with grandma and families from maternal side. As usual, to Bengkong laut 933. I'm happiest when coming to this place, because this
is one of the place that links me to him. Whenever there are such kind of occasions, he's always here. I tried to look around you could say maybe I was looking for him. Right at a corner where we usually sits, I saw a guy in white with his so-thought Achilles' heel. !@#$%^& Am I dreaming??
I shall not elaborate further what really took place, don't feel like raking up a story that only 1 person knows....














and you know when i checked something today, i felt that she's like taking me for granted. I always tell myself maybe i aam the one being sensitive yet she never fails to give me that! I don't know what I am to her and don't really care about it, i know who's good to me and who i should not put hopes on, that she'll always be there for me. Whatever it is, I hope I'm just the one being sensitive.
It's hard to find a true friend.

"Mothers are the best in the universe. I love my mom."