holiday is ending soon, why? why is there always an end to everything? Nothing last at all.
during holiday i stayed home almost all the time and twice only meeting frens for morning session.
Alone at home is my everyday and ofcourse i encountered many things too!
My story begins...
That day, the water tap is still on, filling the tank. I left it alone and in the evening when i return to it i wasn't aware that the tap is alredy closed! I can't recall that i had closed the tap. I didn't.... but not too sure also. Strange;
That Wed when i was playing sims3, i heard a man calling. I went outside to him and he began telling me where he came from...
He's looking for donations, from the orphanage. A man came too, his mate. He shook hand with me and takes a long time to let go of my hand, i felt a bit scared actually... and i dogded from looking into their eyes, i'm afraid i'll be hypnotized. The effects are really strongg.
Then the guard here saw them talking to me, he strictly interrogate them.. 'who let you in?' he said. And ask them to follow him to the other corner.
I really am afraid somethg will happen, how i wish they leave right. The 'shake my hand' guy went first and the other insist i take the receipt (i signed the receipt to donate earlier). They went aside, the guard tell me to go inside..
I continue my game, aftr a while they with the guard come again, the guard allow me to continue the donation. I gave it to them and finally they leave.
If you were i, u'll understand how i felt that moment..
huh--
I spent my days playing games, since the internet is limited i can't go browsingg... I did my homeworks too and got my idea on what to draw in arts assignment.. fantastic!
I also read books that i borrowed from my religion teacher...
-Buddha's view on meat eating
-The 5 Illusionist
-Only we can help ourselves
-Superpower Mindfullness
and i don't know if there are still more behind..
Now i realized that Buddhism is deeply misunderstood by people nowadays as well as the society.
And vegetarian 'chi su' is not really neccessary because Buddhism practices 'chi zai' . This is so bad. There are still many who don't know this and there are still a lot more to be learn...
As for the Superpower Mindfullness is very thick, i doubt i can finish it.
Some are still unread.
Reading those books really made me understand what is there and what is not.
If there's chance, i suggest it to be read. You'll understand.. It makes sense.
It feels great to understand and learn Dhamma.
This is nothing at all, let go.
I'll get over, them, that brings burden.
Allright, it's late now.
Going to turn in for the night.
Goodnight.
