my birthday *107

hahhahaha.... almost forget that today is my birthday.
woke up in the morning, found out that there are 5 new msgs, aftr reading then i rmbr it's my bday today..
some were sent in the midnight, they r frm pris, ronald, vivi &... forgot, i'm happier ths yr cos more greetings and they were frm special frens.. which are frens that i'm nt close with in the class but in hang-outs..
my ordinary frens are which i'm close with in the class, but during hang-outs i tried to stay as far as possible frm them,, haha to get close with special frens..
it's my bday today, so i'll just speak the truth..

then another new msgs, received alot ...
my ordinary frens were the last to send greetings to me..
justin still haven't greet lorh.., he's one of my ordinary frens..
hahaha....
i love vivi's, the most special&unique i've ever received!
i love pris's too, she wishes me wat i'm wishing for..
and ronald's was a big surprise for me! who would ever thought he'll greet me?
he's my special fren, we aren't close ..

thanks to those who've sent me greetings..
especially midnight senders and special frens..
haha..

bye.. i'm goin to watch tv..
lotus lantern is finish and changed to red boy..
bye....

"There are some ideas so wrong that only a very intelligent person could believe in them."
-George Orwell

*106

although only stay at home during holiday i feel OK if there are DVDs for me to watch.
Pass my day watching drama series, nthg to do at home.
3 weeks left before the next shool yr starts. );
got my report card yesterday, feel kind of fed up.
bu fu qi, nxt yr i'll strive harder.

what a damn!!!

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
-Reinhold Niehbuhr

*105

woke up at 7.58 this morninq, actually set alarm at 7.o1 but sleep again.
yesterday loh, my phone kept on vibrating, they send msgs to me asking the whole class to qo to school tomoroo in the morning and evening graduation event..
morning is the gradution of SD and evening SMA+SMP..
i belong to the evening event, the morning one i only went to play angklung..
boringg... always angklung so unfresh..
ltr evening also angklung and awarding..
get back to schl again ltr at 3.

i can barely see our class members there..
only juzz,vv,pris,kenny,wer,her, and..... dunno lah.
we were staying at the music room then, i went outside and took some pix.

the graduates and teachers


what the hell, they repaint the stairs with this color


after angklung, we watched the show for a while, then vv,pris, and juzz were called for a meeting, since they r the scb officers ..
i was left alone.. waiting for bro , he's in the meeting too.
i then walk around the school, the canteen-seller uncle asked me wat award i'll be receiving and i told him best in conduct and he was saying like i deserve cos i'm polite... hahaha.. i'll prove you local tchrs are wrong..
then pak willy, asking me why i'm alone and i told him.. i can't deny he's really friendly..

hmm...





allright..
i shall continue later after the event..
to be continued..
12.o5pm




yohoo.. i'm back.
forgot to bring my cellphone to schl today..
feel inconvenience without it.
hmm.. so i played angklung again and received my award..
the eveninq event is better than the morninq's.
hoho.. shall stop writing now.
i got a certificate.



bye.. have a nice day everyone.
10:12pm

"He who does not understand your silence will probably not understand your words."
-Elbert Hubbard

*104

went to schl in the afternoon today..
practising for the graduation and awardings, the event will be on tomoroo.
reached school, only kenny, juzz and vv had arrived..
so we chit-chats, vivi hasn't got over the movie that we watched 5 days ago..
"drag me to hell"..
i love it, the movie is great although horrifying.. (;
after chit-chatting tchr marlon came over, he told me that i was awarded for the best in conduct.. yeah, my guessing and juzz's were right..
by rights, i'm satisfied.. but i'm unhappy cos tchr marlon told me that when he voted for me, those local teachers disagreed with him then he said to those teachers that he understand his own students more than them..
i've said i'm quite rebel.. so they disagreed loh..
i guess i know why he voted for me.. the main reason is.....
i won't say it out, in case somebody will get upset...
hmm.. tht's why i'm unhappy although i'm awarded..
i knew awards in academic excellences are impossible!
next school year i'll prove to those local tchrs that tchr marlon is not wrong in awarding me..

the rehearsal didn't went on smoothly today, spent a lot of hrs there wasting time..
the graduates are a laughingstock when they were practicing...
hahhaahahaha......
wondering what's my rank..

i want to send an email since before, but i dun have any subjects..
vivi has it alredyy..
a flash of idea into my mind will do..
smthg flash on my mind please...

bye..
wanna watch paris&milan..
have a great day evryone..

"Your intellect may be confused, but your emotions will never lie to you."
-Roger Ebert

*103

huh..
what a boring holiday, and life!

Yesterday went to dentist with mom&uncle, they've come back frm malaysia, went to confirm&settle the matter of getting braces/ orthodontic treatment, the dentist will buy the braces in jakarta so he asked us to transfer the money to his bank account and wait for his call. Had planned this since long time ago and finally...

Received a call frm schl today, the caller informed me to go to schl tomoroo to practise for the awarding, i was shocked, unbelievable, wat award could i possibly get?
hmm...
I'm quite rebel, i guess the award is perfect attendance smthg like that...
but i truly hope it is smthg lyk academic excellences...
haha...

the worst is about to come..
what a joke! riduculous..

"Sins cannot be undone, only forgiven."
-Igor Stravinsky

*102

haven't update for a long time..
cos busy playing sims3.
and so, let the past live and breathe in the heart and lead the present wisely.
mom, uncle, sis&granma left to malaysia this morning, cos granny will undergo a minor surgery, i wonder how long they will stay there, i hope they can come back asap.

I'm lost in life, no direction to head and life is too tiring.
I hope everything will fade soon, and when the time is ripe and when i've paid those debts, let me be the sand on the seashore.... and that will be my happiness!

"Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose.”
-Tom Krause

*101

yay.. exams are over.
holiday starts tomoroo till july12, i've been studying in this school for 6yrs and for the first time holiday for a month. nyahhaaha..
next school year we'll be under pressures, so must enjoy this holiday.

bro and uncle fetched me today, then before going home we went to our previous home to collect the rent. That home left me 2 memories that i'll nvr forget in my whole life i was still young then, a good and a bad memory, the good one is that i rmbr once grandpa came to our home, usually when he comes he would bring me things and so i ran outside and greet him and he gave me a pen. I nvr forget that the pen is filled with red&white colors but it was lost like how we lost grandpa several years ago... i miss him>
While the other one is like this, papa went our after eating lunch when he left our maid close the door, then a group of man came, one of them asked our maid: "bapak di rumah gak?" and our maid replied no of course then she open the door, and they barge in. I and mom were about to take a nap then they barged into the room, i really am scared i tried to hide but there's no way i could. Mom said this to them "ambil aja, lah" she said smthg like that and bla..bla..bla.. that man then tore my mom's clothe to tie her and my silly maid and says "jangan teriak, and something threatening", he was holding a knife then and he licked it, yucks! i'm really scared, he wanted to tie me too but i cried, trs gak jadi di ikat loh..
they had a great time i guess, they flip this and that, open this and that, take this and that, roam around the house, wander in and out of the house.
karena uda puas robbing our house then they left. Mom and maid untie themselves then mom told dad about it on the phone, dad rushed back and after a while left again, mom said that not much were stolen.
God, please i beg You, don't let such thing happen again, i'm in trauma.
allright let's get back to the present.

yay, i hope we'll really go there tonight!
i'm installing sims3 now, hahha it works!
so i'm going to play, so much for today.
adieu!

“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
-Lewis Carroll

*100

tomoroo shall be the last day of exam, but i treat today as the last day cos tomoroo mandarin and history, I won't be bothered with mandarin, dunno wat to revise and history maybe a little revision will do later.

ekonomi exam is normal, most of my answers are similar with toppers of the class, but i wouldn't dare be so confident i'm afraid i gonna fail, like how confident i was in ppkn ;(
again, dismissal time we i mean "they" went again to faculty room, asking for results this and that, only vivi, gea, edwin and i went playing volleyball, after a while edwin suddenly rush down to faculty room, then i look for bro to see whether he's here. Then joined them in the faculty room received some results and feel dissaponted, most of my scores are low average of 60 smthg, it really grieves me although it passes, but i know there's someone who feels more upset than me.
Allright, skip these upsetting things.

watched master mentalist last night, love the show more evrytime watching it, got smthg about astral projection, heard it from edwin before but forget again, so i went googling on it, when it comes to these things i'm 100% sober cos i'm interested in such things. I feel like trying this astral projection but i'm afraid once i succeed and my soul gets out from my body and i can't control my soul and it wanders around and won't want to get back to the body then i'm as good as dead, can we control our own soul? If yes, I might just do it someday.
The research also show some videos about astral projection, while waiting for it to load i saw one titled the prophecy of 2012, out of curiosity i clicked on that video and so didn't get to watch astral projection, dec21,2o12 the doomsday? I encountered this before, but..... let's skip.. Then another video,message from earth mother, i chanced upon a short message, it's not a message actually, after reading i felt something in my heart.
i'll post it below.

”let me learn the lessons you have hidden under every leaf and rock. So when life fades as the setting sunset I may come to you without shame.”

*59

so far two more days left and exams will be over.
had PPKN, geografi+sejarah today, i thought i'm able to pass in ppkn, but i wasn't able to.
the ppkn tchr was efficient, we just had the test and he's done checking, my result is 62/100, aah failed! and tomoroo ekonomi& practical life.
ekonomi is irritating, i can't deal with taxes, wat to do? will revise ekonomi later.
prac. life no problems at all.
friday history and mandarin guess i won't be bothered with it.
in biologi i&jacq made blunders.. i could get high score but the tchr ... aihh long story, if she'll check it appropriately i could get high scores.

some results r out like:
bahasa= 72 passed
computer= 70 passed
mtk= 69 passed (haven't add +5)
ppkn= 62 failed
the rest to be continued.....

hahaha, for the first time mtk almost reaches 70, and i merely lost 2 pts to juzz and kenny!! hahaha>>
this friday i and feliza will be celebrating our birthdays and her farewell, she's leaving..
feryanto and yen-yen is back.. but they've gone back to their town today and will be back on 20th smthg..
ok, bye now.. lotus lantern is calling for me.

"forever don't exists"

*58

uhmm.. i need sweets!
dunno why, i feel like drinking sweet drinks.
had tea&juices in the morning, but still not appeased then milk unsatisfied too and now strawberry syrup.
but i still want more! thirst of sweet.
guess it's because i didn't eat candies for a long time.
i think it's been 2-3 months, i didn't intake candies, cos i dun want any dental decays.

`had revised biologi
`stayed at home for the whole day

oh yes, boys over flowers will start in another 20 mins, bye.
gonna have a sweet dream and start watching.

"The fly that sips treacle is lost in the sweets.”
-John Gay

*57

haven't update for a long time..
so, today is the 3rd day of exam, since the tough maths and physics are over and tomoroo weekends i got the time to update now.
bahasa, english, maths, mtk, fisika& physics are over..
and the rest are not a bothersome.

Bahasa results came out today, the passing score is 72 (that was high) and i managed, i got exactly 72/100. huh;; that's quite high?
English and the rest aren't out yet. Physics and maths were so difficult, i'm afraid that i can't make it.
yay 6 more days left to holidayy, hmm.. i can breathe the air of holidays now, yeah,, as wat i've said the remaining four days exam aren't a bothersome.

JP lent his sims3 to me, but i dunno how to install since it's pirated.
kenny lim had it installed alredy, i asked him to list down the steps, yeah, he did but he himself dun understand wat he's listing and how much more i?
had a hard time installing these things. Watched lotus lantern, the episode today makes my blood boilling, to think that male lead gave up everything for his lover, yes, his lover is pitiful but it's unworthy! Love destroys dreams &missions. I hate love. love sux.
MSN messenger too! dunno wat happened, unable to sign in!

boringg, dunno wat to do.
any recommendation?

PS: GAEA, WHERE IS JUSTICE AND WHERE TO SEEK JUSTICE?

“Peace is not the absence of war but the presence of justice.”
-Harisson Ford